Mx. Jester

Heya there, I’m Clown! My pronouns are They/Them or Xie/Xer, You can ask me Anything!

[theclownster]

I forgot to post these too

[theclownster]

Okay this was too funny not to post

[hadesmeow]

Idk what kinda crack they put into FreeMan & C angst but oooh its given me a lot of drawing motivation today...

Non-lyrics vers. under the cut

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Selfish fucking assholes.

Kittle: You-! What the hell were you guys THINKING!? Trying to use Swap and- and B here and Player and- fuck, using DOC like that! Look, I'm a piece of shit. My life doesn't matter all that much. But you guys punished PLAYER for MY sins?! Jesus, you KIDNAPPED a GRIEVING MAN and made a PROMISE to her that you ABSOLUTELY couldn't fucking keep!! What the hell were you THINKING?!

Admin C: I... I just...

Admin F: ...

Admin P: ...

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so why everyone else?

Admin C: We... It gave us the idea-! We thought maybe, if we could find others like Doc, people who needed help... If we could grab our Gordon, and spend enough time with him, showing him people talking about their lives, indirectly... If we- if we could get through to him deep enough... Keep him away from my dad for long enough... We could... He could...

Kittle: Ohhhh my god.

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doc gave you the idea for the ship? fixing bad endings

Admin F: ...It wasn't just that.

Admin F: The Mad Science Team, before their... unfortunate passing... was studying something.

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... And why the others?

Admin F: ...Well- There was... one world. One world with traces of G-Man's presence in it... as if he had... been recently.

Admin F: ...We pulled up near it, and saw...

Admin P: ...Doc.

Admin P: All alone, in a wreckage of Black Mesa, just like ours...

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And that's what your dad was counting on, wasn't it, Tommy? No one would miss Gordon if he was gone. No one but... you

Admin C: When we stepped out of Benrey's cave in Xen... we... we stepped into...

Admin C: His void...

Admin C: And.. before I could stop him, he...

G-Man: ...I shall take your beloved Gordon as payment for the eons of pain you have caused me, Thomas. Consider it a mercy that I've allowed him to take your place.

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take a moment this is a lot for all of you… but he ment a lot to all of you

Admin C: He really... brought all of us together.

Admin C: ...Everyone in the Black Mesa incident was... presumed dead. We- we survived, but... the military tried to wipe us out.

Admin C: If... if one of us disappeared...

Admin C: Nobody... except us... would have noticed...

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oh :(( im so sorry

Admin C: ...He even got through to Benrey.

Admin C: Even after all that fighting they did... He saw the good in him. He saw what I always saw in 'im. It was... nice...

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He seems like he was kind.

Admin C: He was... my everything.

Admin C: He- we- when we went through all that, we-

Admin C: We were... a couple.

Admin C: We... were a couple.

Admin C: Me, Gordon, and Benrey...

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Black Mesa…

Admin F: ...Hell, he even got through to an old grouch like me.

Admin F: You don't make many friends, being a test tube baby. But that son of a bitch...

Admin F: ...He was the best of 'em.

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Gordon… what was he like?

Admin P: He was... wonderful.

[Admin P fidgets, rolling up his sleeves to look at his arms, mechanical seams clearly present.]

Admin P: During our time exploring Black Mesa, I learned that... everything I thought my life was, wasn't real. I was... a machine. A sentient robot created by the Cybernetics Department. I tried to look into my past... Tried to see the things I remembered... but there was nothing there.

Admin P: I took my anger out on Gordon. He was real, he couldn't possibly understand...!

Admin P: Despite that, he never pushed me away... And- I was forever grateful for that. To be given a second chance.

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Ok im going to weep violently, we all love u tommy :(-💌🌸

Admin C: That was... the first day I got hired at Black Mesa.

Admin C: Bubby and- and Dr. Coomer helped me out, gettin' me a job there...

Admin C: ...One day, everything changed... A newbie was hired to help with the Xen tests... A physicist...

Admin C: ...His name was... Gordon Freeman.

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I'm... Assuming the question was when you'd take his place?

[G-Man sneers from underneath his umbrella.]

G-Man: You... You... are my curse. You are the ball and chain preventing me... from freedom.

G-Man: I have delayed it each time you have asked, Thomas. But the day must come where you stand up and take your place.

Tommy: No! N-no! I didn't ask for this! I didn't ask to be made! I didn't ASK you to MAKE ME! I don't... I don't want to go do your horrible job! I want to live my life! I want to grow old with my friends! I... I...

G-Man: Thomas. If you won't...

G-Man: Who will?

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oh, tommy :(

Tommy: …I guess I should have expected this…

Tommy: How long’s it been now…? Five years since- since you last visited…?

Tommy: Don’t- don’t even say what you want to say. I already know…

Tommy: …And the- the answer’s… still no.

[The other figure with the umbrella frowns. His voice is raspy with exhaustion.]

G-Man: Thomas.

G-Man I gave up… everything.… to give you the life that you have.

G-Man: When… will you do the same… for me?

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Tommy…I’m so sorry…

Admin C: He... My father... would go missing because of how hard they worked him...

Admin C: First for days... Then for months... then... years.

Admin C: When he was gone, I'd go... hang out at Black Mesa... It helped with the- um- the... waiting.

Admin C: He used to try an' spend time with me, but... he started coming back... different.

Admin C: Eventually, he'd only just show up... to ask the same thing.