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The road to mania is paved with head colds and cough medicine.

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Did you get a rabies shot? Cause I’m sure that’ll help. 😇

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Who raised you to be so rude?

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The road to mania is paved with head colds and cough medicine.

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hahaaaaaaa.

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IT WAS YOU WASN’T IT?!

The road to mania is paved with head colds and cough medicine.

#dirtsheets:starter

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#p e r s e p h o n e┊ *:･ black as the devil pure as an angel *:･

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They’d talked and talked, sent endless photos, gotten excited about the prospect of having their own tiny baby with chubby cheeks and little fingers, and now those thoughts had a reality, their family could be starting. It was a prospect that Leah hadn’t even considered when her limbs fell tired, her appetite increased and all the other tiny little things along the way over the last week, being pregnant was a distant thought however, but through the nervousness and the unease in her stomach there was a spark of excitement bubbling away beneath the surface. In love were the words yet the feeling was so much stronger, everything she shared with Tom was perfect and starting a family together? It came with sacrifices she was willing to make for a career that already seemed lost on its direction for her.

Leaning into the comfort of his lips and the warmth of his body being so close, she gave little more than a nod before opening the box behind closed doors and reading over the guide on the back, how long to wait, which symbol meant what, what are the common chances of being pregnant, each printed word passing the seconds and giving her something to focus on other than the somewhat unsteady rate of her heartbeat as she was ready to head back into the bedroom.

“ We just have to wait a few minutes “ spoken softly, subtle smile and breath inhaled deeply through her nose, “ You’d better be prepared for me to eat your banana bread more often if it’s positive, I’ll be eating for two.”

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Tom was a bundle of nerves from the moment the door closed behind Leah and he was left in their bedroom with Xander snoring in the background on the bed. He paced back and forth with his mind going a million miles a second as all he could think about how much their lives could potentially change in the matter of minutes. The longer she stayed behind the closed door, the more he became impatient and the more his thoughts started to get away from him. His heart was pounding against the inside of ribs and the seconds seemed to go by like minutes and the minutes felt like hours. His head popped up when the door opened and Leah came back out. There was even more waiting to be done and he let out a slow breath. A small piece of him didn’t want to know the answer because there was a chance that he was getting his hopes up only to be let down in the end. But there was another piece of him that wanted to know the answer immediately because there was a chance that both of their hopes weren’t going to be crushed in one single blow. Tom let out a little laugh as he wrapped his arms around her and pulled her clothes. “If it’s positive, you can have all of the banana bread you want.”

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♡ . ・゜ baby fever / @thecvnstable !

Nervousness and nausea, the single two feelings slowly creeping through her veins and leaving her throat running dry with that SICKLY acid churning upwards from the pit of her stomach and a dread of the unknown making it’s self-present in the forefront of her mind. She’d been through this BEFORE, the excitement of what ifs, the quick planning and storm of ideas for all things baby related and yet everything had come crashing down at the speed of light, now once more the feeling she thought she’d forgotten was starting to bubble once again along with the lurking sadness of disappointing Tom if the test didn’t read positive. Taken over by baby fever and the prospect of starting a family, it was a scenario they had both been thinking about, creating images of her mind of them all falling asleep together, her at his side and a newborn curled against his chest; worlds away from where they had started yet perfection coming to life as each day passed.

Nails picked at nails, the skin of her fingertips and around them while pearly whites chewed the insides of plump lips in anxious waves as if staring at the cardboard box was going to make things any easier. “ Let’s not get excited just yet, okay? ” Soft words, barely spoken, already reminding herself that there was a fifty-fifty chance, that it could just be her body changing and reacting rather than the start of their new chapter together as released lips pressed against the knuckles of his hand which she had been holding tight within her own delicate grasp. “ Time to pee on a stick ” words exhaled with the subtle hint of laughter surrounding them, emotions close to the surface as she moved from the edge of the bed and into the bathroom letting the door gently fall shut behind her.

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It never crossed Tom’s mind that Leah might actually be pregnant. It was something that they had talked about constantly and despite that, he felt like they weren’t even close to being ready for this. But was anyone ever ready to have a baby regardless of how much they had planned and prepared for one? He was pretty sure that the answer was no. He had thought about every scenario and situation that he could and all he could think about was how much more this effected Leah than it did him. It early his career that would be placed on hold while she was pregnant and dealing with a newborn. It wasn’t his body that was going to go through a lifetime of changes in the span of 9 months. Yes it would have an effect on his life and their lives together, but it would be nothing compared what would happen to hers individually. That was his biggest worry; that maybe this wasn’t something she wanted and that maybe this was something he was forcing upon her without even realizing it. It was a few moments of peeing on a stick and waiting that could change their lives forever and it may not even be something that she wanted. “Right....yeah.” He was getting worked up for something. It was probably too soon for her to even be pregnant but he would be lying if he said that the prospect of it happen didn’t have him even the tiniest bit happy. Squeezing her hand, Tom placed a small kiss on the top of her head. “Come out when you’re done?” He gave her one last kiss before leaving the bathroom to give her some privacy. He wanted to be there for every moment but watching her pee on a small stick probably wasn’t the best way to be there for her.