Cybermess♥

frustrated writer.. trying to express feelings thru words.. hopeless romantic..

[thecybermess]

Congratulations, Have a happy marriage. 🙂

[thecybermess]

Nakalimot ka na talaga

[thecybermess]

Kmusta kana? Wag kang mag alala naiisip parin kita.

[thecybermess]

As long as alam natin sa sarili nating nagmahal tayo ng tapat at totoo, okay na yun. Sapat na un. Wala tayong dapat panghinayangan. Wala tayong dapat ikalungkot. Kasi ginawa naman natin ung part natin. Wala satin ung problema. Nasa kanila un, kasi sakabila ng lahat ng pagmamahal na binigay natin, naghangad padin sila ng mas higit pa dun. Kaya let go na. Si God na ang bahala sakanila. Ü

[thecybermess]

i wish i could stop

And then reality hits me hard: you cannot even put me at the top of your priority list when you have been my number 1 all this time. You can fall asleep easily after an unresolved fight when I can’t even stop thinking how to make things up with you. You can go on days without texting or calling me while I can’t last a day without hearing from you. It is apparent that I love you too much and you love me a little less.

[thecybermess]

Never ever think that you are not enough. Never hate and doubt on yourself just because someone rejected you or just because someone didn’t love you back. You’ll get hurt, I know and that’s normal. But in few years you’ll understand and you will know how stupid you are for letting him/her control your world. He/She is not the only person in this world and you should realize that. We all fall in love and get broken sometimes but you have to constantly remind yourself that you will learn to love again in the future. Maybe, with someone else. Love doesn’t always last and it is not perfect either. We fall in love, get hurt, and get back again and move on. That’s just it and that’s a cycle. Love isn’t perfect but in the end, it will always be worth it.

[thecybermess]

You don’t just owe me an apology. You owe me something far more greater than that. You owe me a heart. You owe me a heart so pure that it still had faith in you despite all your lies. You owe me a heart so kind that it is willing to understand all your immaturities just to make our relationship work. You owe me a heart so gentle that it always pick kind words to go out of my mouth. You owe me a heart so strong that it is brave enough to carry all the pain alone. But most of all you owe me a heart. Just a heart. It doesn’t have to be the same kind of heart anymore. Just give me back a heart — an unbroken one.

[thecybermess]

Do not fall inlove with me...

If you do, you’ll end up at all the Renaissance fairs. I’ll wear Medieval dresses and quote every line from Hamlet because I can and embarrass you until you start checking your watch every three minutes.

You will end up in every hole-in-the-wall book store, choking on dust in the poetry section. I will get us stranded in the rain and in the middle of nowhere, and refuse to let you look at your maps until the sun goes down and we’ve wandered long enough under the stars.

You will have to suffer my dreams, and my delusions. I’ll stand on chairs so I’m tall enough to slay dragons. I’ll hide away in my room a lot, researching the history of castles and how much it would cost us to wake up one morning and fly straightaway to Iceland. When I’m writing, you might not see me for days. My sleeping hours will never be consistent.

You’ll figure out that I don’t believe it is possible to love things too much. When something interests me, I will talk your ear off about it until you start counting sheep in your head. I will run down my hallways in my socks and play movie soundtracks at maximum volume. I will lie awake for hours curled under your arm and I will make you stay up all night with me when the sky is clear and there are hot chocolate packets in the cupboards. I will laugh at almost everything because yes, the world is terrible, but it is also beautiful and incomprehensible and very, very funny. I will create things and I will destroy things. I will eat breakfast on the floor in my sweat pants and tie my hair up without brushing it.

One day I’ll cut it all off. One day I’ll get a tattoo. I’ll make myself look ridiculous, sometimes. And I will say the wrong things, frequently. I’ll play devil’s advocate a lot and I’ll bother the universe with questions because there are things I just have to know. Some days I’ll seem to have my entire life figured out and then, just when you think I’m alright, I’ll spend an entire day eating ice cream and sobbing over nothing, and everything.

Sometimes I’ll be selfish and sometimes I’ll be aloof and sometimes I’ll be restless, and sometimes I’ll pretend to be apathetic about the things that hurt me. Sometimes I’ll run from the things I’m most afraid of.

And so sometimes I’ll plan thousands of adventures for us to go on and then forget about every single one the moment your hand catches mine. I’ll forget your birthday. I will. I’m sorry. I’ll forget your birthday and I’ll forget our anniversary every single year and I’ll forget the name of your mother’s sister who always sends us gifts but I will never forget the story you tell me about the first blonde-haired blue-eyed girl who broke your heart and I will never forget what makes you smile.

Do not fall in love with me.

If you do, I will be an aurora borealis that is only beautiful now and again if you trudge through hours of storm and snow to get to me.

But if you get there, I promise you

I promise you I promise you I promise you:

it will be so worth it.

[thecybermess]

“If you want to learn what someone fears losing, watch what they photograph.”

[thecybermess]

Don't you think it's better to be extremely happy for a short while, even if you lose it, than to be just okay for your whole life?

[thecybermess]

i wish i could tell you how much i like you and how much i adore you :) pero sa ngayon kuntento na ako na pinagmamasdan ka lang.

i wish you'll have the guts also :) tc

[thecybermess]

It is a terribly sad thing to fall in love while you are fragile. You try to tip toe into their arms instead of race like you did the last time. You try your hardest to fight off the love that is rushing your way, but you know this is a battle you won’t win. You want love, you need love, but you realize part of you has, for whatever reason, lost hope.

Isn’t it so ironic that the most beautiful thing, love, can be tainted by your past? See, when someone breaks your heart so tremendously, it sticks around for a little while. The strong need to make correlations is innate to humans. Somehow we manage to correlate heartache with love. The most painful thing somehow cozies up to the loveliest thing imaginable. It is a true injustice that this terrible connection can come about so often.

You spend days, weeks, months or even years trying to rewire your head and your heart, and train yourself to properly love again. You want to get inside of your brain and make the proper connections with your own two hands. You are like a car-crash survivor that needs time to heal until they step foot into a car again. Regardless of the process, each day, you progress — however slowly, you heal.

On the surface, you are cool and calm while your heart cries a little on the inside. You try to give all of yourself day after day, but your mind tells you stop. Every day you are in a constant fight with yourself to trust the new love you have found.

There is hope for these delicate souls who want love. One day, a light will shine down. You’re going to find love again. Better yet, you’re going to bask in it. One day, you will take an ounce of courage and try to love again.

Your new love will see you with all of your flaws and scoop you into their arms — they will help you feel safe again. You will appreciate them for being there while you were retraining your brain to trust love. You will curl up with them under the covers and hold them in a way you never have before because you are a survivor. You’ve healed and you have ventured into the world of love again.

And this time you will cry, not tears of sadness, but happy tears — because you are okay for the first time in a long time. Because you don’t just have love, but you’re not afraid of it anymore. After all, love’s the best thing in the world. And you should trust something as good as love.

[itsthewaitingunknown]

Of course I’ll hurt you. Of course you’ll hurt me. Of course we will hurt each other. But this is the very condition of existence. To become spring, means accepting the risk of winter. To become presence, means accepting the risk of absence.

The Little Prince (via metaphormaguss)

[thecybermess]

if you care about somebody, you should want them to be happy. Even if you wind up being left out.

[thecybermess]

Kung mahal mo habulin mo, ipaglaban mo. Wag mo hintaying may magtulak sakanya pabalik sayo. Hilahin mo hanggang kaya mo. Wag kang bibitaw. Sorry, mahal ko eh. - Mace (that thing called tadhana)

Yan din ung sinabi ko sa sarili ko noon. Na kung mahal ko, edi ipaglalaban ko. Di ako susuko. Na baka pag nakita niya na hindi ako umalis sa tabi niya kahit ilang beses na niya ko pinagtabuyan, bigla siyang matauhan. Bigla siyang bumalik sakin. Kaso sa tagal ng panahon na nakakapit ka lang sa taong matagal ka ng binitawan at matagal nading nakakapit sa iba, mapapagod ka nalang din eh. Na kahit gaano mo pa siya kagustong mahalin, susuko ka nalang. Maiisip mo na hindi mo deserve ung ganong klase ng pagmamahal. Na merong iba pa dyan na kayang mahalin ka higit pa sa hinihingi mo. Merong iba dyan na hindi ka iiwan, hindi ka kayang saktan at hindi ka ipagpapalit kahit kailan. Ang kailangan mo lang, buksan ung mga mata mo at pag-aralang mahalin muna ang sarili mo. Hindi pwedeng wala kang ititira at lahat ibubuhos mo lang sakanya. Kasi sa huli, ikaw lang din naman ang maiiwan mag-isa. Ikaw lang ang masasaktan. Sarili mo lang ang karamay mo sa lahat.

Masarap magmahal. Sobra. lalo kung ung taong mahal mo, kayang tumbasan ung pagmamahal na binibigay mo. Lalo kung ung taong mahal mo, hindi hahayaang habulin mo siya at magmukha kang tanga. Higit sa lahat, kung ung taong mahal mo ung naka tadhana para mahalin ka.

[thecybermess]

You can’t inevitably suppose that when you’re finally  in a  relationship, you’ll be happy. Nothing in this life is promised. You   can’t  be happy with someone else if you aren’t happy with yourself.   You have to be content with yourself and life in general. You  have to be comfortable with yourself, before you can give yourself to  someone. Its not always a boyfriend or a  girlfriend, that will fulfill you. Ask yourself what is it to be happy? To be happy is to  have a feeling of contentment and peace, like you don’t need anything  else. Having an atmosphere of good fellowship and laughs and good times,  is being   happy. It’s enjoying life for the little things.

The trick is to  take everything you get from your friends and family,  even strangers and keep what each could give you and build your world  from it. You’ll start to see  the big picture and  all the pieces will start to fit together. You  shouldn’t focus all  your energy or time onto one person, trying to  please them and  thinking somehow they’ll make you happy. You have to  learn how to stand  on your own. You have to learn things the hard way  but most  importantly you’ll have to learn how you can’t necessarily depend on  anyone  else to make you happy because sometimes that person won’t be  there. <3 

[thecybermess]

Loving someone is a choice, it’s a decision that you have to make every day. Some days it will be really easy, most days you won’t even have to think about it. But some days it’s going to be really hard, some days you’ll have to let go of your pride, selfishness, ambition and vanity to put them first. But if you love them, you’ll know it’s a choice worth making. Because once you make that choice, fights that would crumble old relationships seem to be constructive. Insecurities that would have ripped you apart before become something you no longer care about, because when you truly love somebody, that choice becomes an easier one to make. So when you wake up, choose love, and when you go to sleep, choose love. Choose your partner every day, just as they would choose you. :)