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... ✧ Retisha Aleia’s Page.

hey, thank you for passing by! this is my personal page anyway, you may got to be here because you clicked one of my posts that i shared on x. i called this page as my public diary or a page where i can express myself more.

my name is Retisha Aleia, you may call me with Shasa or anything you feel comfortable with OK!

i’m not stanning much groups but here are some of my favorites; aespa, babymonster, and 7Dreams. i am also a casual listener of Dept, Taylor Swift, Niki, Stella Jang, Lizzy McAlpine. i listen to Indonesian songs too anyway! Hivi, MALIQ & D’essentials, Ardhito Pramono, and Tulus’ kind of musics pretty much suitable to my music taste so!! If you have any recommendations for me, do let me know! I love watching movies in my free time (dramas also), i love everything cute and beautiful, cats, any kind of artsy, flowers and also! i’m such a pinky girl <3

This is a TMI but I love talking about skin care, body care, makeups, and everything related to girl things!! Ayooooo kita sharing yuk kapan-kapan!!

[girltalk]

[sweetbunnytears]

[lunamonchtuna]

— Susan Sontag, from “Death Kit,” (1967) (via lunamonchtuna)

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Have you ever feel sad because of nothing? No.. it’s not like it’s because of nothing. It’s like you have a lot of people around you but all you feel is.. empty and lost. It’s like you’re yourself in the middle of the crowd. You feel like you have nobody eventho you know you have many. No one to turn to, no one to talk to, no one could ever make you feel like you have them. It’s saddening but that’s the bitter truth.

If you tell me how I feel, then, I’m sad, I’m mad, and yes, I’m disappointed, to myself. I feel like my presence doesn’t even matter to anyone around me because it shows. What should I do? Are you going to tell me to ignore any bad feelings I have right now? Then, tell me how to ignore this when it keeps rounding me up and keep happening to me again and again?

They said no one deserve this, but why, why are people so apathetic towards one another?

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it’s been a while since the last time i write something here.. everything feels new for me and it’s cute to re-read my thoughts i left here back then HAHA. i have a lot to share (again) maybe tomorrow or the day after when i have enough time to spend, huft.. days getting busier each day cus the end of the year is getting closer ! so much things happened a lot to share..

what’s in my head? i don’t know.. i’m trying to write it down here but i can’t even get it right what i’m thinking right now.. one thing for sure.. huhu nvm dunno… :( my head is keeping zzzz-ing and i’m trying to sleep now cus it’s 04.35.. well, good night, i might sleep after this (i should) …

GOOD NIGHT and.. welcome back to my diary!

[malusokay]

Glow-up tips that actually work from your favourite beauty girly (me)

Hot girls don't gatekeep, so here are some of my favourite glow-up tips that actually work. <3

Skin

Find a skincare routine that works for you!! It took me years to find mine, but now my skin is literally perfect. <3 (let me know if you guys want a detailed skincare routine!!)

Don't pick your skin, the less you touch your face, the better.

I believe ice rollers are bs…

If you struggle with dark circles, don't try fixing them through skincare. Most likely, the problem comes from your diet or stress.

Dry brushing is a game-changer!!

Use lotion after every shower and apply a body spray before the lotion is fully absorbed into your skin. You'll smell amazing for DAYS.

Don't try homemade skincare if you already struggle with your skin. I learned it the hard way, lol…

WASH YOUR MAKEUP BRUSHES

Hair

The more heat you use, the more damage you'll have.

SILK PILLOWCASES

Never sleep with wet or damp hair.

Stop buying cheap shampoo and conditioner, also make sure to check the ingredients!!

Some ingredients to avoid: Sulfates, Parabens, Polyethene Glycols, Triclosan, Formaldehyde, Synthetic Fragrances and Colors, Dimethicone, Retinyl Palmitate.

I trim my hair every 3 months.

If you have damaged hair, invest in some Olaplex!! my favourites are N4c, N6 and N7. <3

Diet

green juice actually makes you feel better. I make mine at home and LOVE it :)

Balance is key!! I swear by the 80/20 rule.

Drink more water, even if you think you're drinking enough. DRINK MORE

Keto is BS <3

Focus on eating more protein. Usually, low-fat products have more protein, so I just try to buy those, lol.

I eat gluten-free, not by choice… But it did clear my acne, so…

Take supplements, get a blood test done, discuss it with a doctor and start taking whatever they recommend. GAME CHANGER.

EAT MORE VEGETABLES and fruits.

Lifestyle

Focus on being more active, walk more, workout, join a club or sport, dance, whatever works for you!!

I aim for 10K steps, I live in a big city, so I usually walk more than that but still.

Hobbies that don't include screen time. Trust me.

Find your personal style and ALWAYS dress up. <3

TREAT YOURSELF. Buy yourself flowers, and presents, go to your favourite restaurants, vacations!!

Read more. As a classics lover, I can't imagine a life without literature, but even if you don't like classics, any book is better than no book!!

Take more pictures. I've noticed that I have become a lot more present since I've started taking more pictures!! highly recommend :)

I hate to say this, but getting up earlier is lowkey kinda great... been doing it for a few weeks, and unfortunately, I do feel better... they were right...

Get a cat. :)

Mindset

Stop assuming that everyone hates you, they don't, trust me.

Journaling, manifesting, law of attraction, affirmations.

one of my favourite affirmations: "if I weren't capable, the opportunity wouldn't have come my way; I belong here." <3

Stop hanging out with people who drain your energy

stop consuming media that makes you feel bad.

What would the highest version of yourself do?

If you change your mindset, you will change your life.

Romanticise every aspect of your life. <3

As always, please feel free to share your own suggestions and glow-up tips in the comments! <3

✩‧₊*:・love ya ･:*₊‧✩

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Cals 𓂃܀❀ .*ﾟ

Cals 𓂃܀❀ .*ﾟ, a user on Spotify

[bbltheque]

[bigwoolycoat]

“I love you, I love you, I love you,” she said loudly in her head.

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𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙳𝚒𝚊𝚛𝚢 𝚘𝚏 𝙲𝚊𝚖𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚒𝚊.

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I have so many questions inside my head that I couldn’t even answer them by myself. Been here since the first time and had no idea what to do next since I don’t even think to stop it. I can’t handle my mood swings sometimes, I can’t even think clearly sometimes, I just.. do anything that my brain told me to but I think I did something wrong this time, no? Yes I think I did and still.. I don’t know what to do now.. My childish side really destroys everything sometimes, that’s the side of me that I have to fix; think clearly first about what I will say to others before saying it. To be honest, I often regret what I said but I can’t change it anymore, I often did something that could embarrass me and regret it later. I have so many things in my head that I cannot control sometimes. Now that I feel like people moving far away from me, I regret everything. Like, am I doing something wrong? Is there something wrong with me? What did I just do? Then what now? I was too upset with myself in many ways yet I wish to know the reason soon but still, I can do nothing, it’s their choice and that’s okay.

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𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙳𝚒𝚊𝚛𝚢 𝚘𝚏 𝙲𝚊𝚖𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚒𝚊.

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Hi I’m coming again this time, I can’t sleep, still. I was lie back on my bed and literally did nothing now but then this thought bothered me, so deceived that I drifted and dissolved in my own emotions, I feel sad now. Nope, I’m not blaming nor pointing at anyone here, purely because I feel that as the night goes on, my brain wanders into things that I shouldn’t think about. What should I do? I can’t even sleep now.. am I jealous? envy? Yes, I admit I do. And I don’t like this unpleasant feeling ruining my mood especially to know that I can’t even voice it directly. Oh I worry any of my friends would read this but I’m okay! It’s just my midnight thoughts. It’ll automatically changed when the morning comes so there is nothing to be worried about ya.

[perfectfeelings]

“I think we dream so we don’t have to be apart for so long. If we’re in each other’s dreams, we can be together all the time.”

— A.A. Milne // Winnie-the-Pooh

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𝙳𝚎𝚌𝚎𝚖𝚋𝚎𝚛 𝟹 𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟸

𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙳𝚒𝚊𝚛𝚢 𝚘𝚏 𝙲𝚊𝚖𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚒𝚊.

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Halo, sekarang masih sekitar jam 3 sore, iya aku tau, gak sore-sore banget, tapi gak siang juga. Biasanya aku nulis disini malam deh tapi gak tau kenapa pengen aja sekarang, hehehe, mau tulis salah satu hal yang bikin aku banyak senyum akhir-akhir ini.. sebenernya supaya nggak lupa aja sih. Oke, welcome december! Hal pertama yang bikin aku senyum terus akhir-akhir ini adalah karena dua hari yang lalu adalah ulang tahunku, ihiee, happy belated birthday to myself! Aku seneng banget, bisa rayain ulangtahun bareng orang-orang baik disekitarku, nothing’s too special actually, tapi mau cerita kalau tepat di hari ulang tahunku, aku nonton NCT Dream The Movie: In A Dream bareng temen-temenku, tapi di anter dan ditungguin ayah! makan bareng ayahku, dan dapet banyak banget birthday wishes dari temen-temen online. I was just too happy and i will remember this time forever! Talking about NCT Dream The Movie, aku enjoy dan happy banget selama nonton, nyanyi bareng, terharu bareng, ketawa bareng—basically seru-seruan bareng sama semua sijeuni di studio 3 waktu itu (semoga bisa ketemu Dreamies in person sooner) hu… pengen banget deh rasanya peluk Dreamies satu persatu terus bilang, thank you for working hard and being there to each others, guys. please, stay longer..

[yongloop]

（❀ ˘˘）　　⌢　₊　　🥛

[thediarys]

𝙳𝚎𝚌𝚎𝚖𝚋𝚎𝚛 𝟸, 𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟸.

𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙳𝚒𝚊𝚛𝚢 𝚘𝚏 𝙲𝚊𝚖𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚒𝚊.

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There is something that I hope you know but I don’t want you to know. Because the distance will probably crop upon us. </3

Another day, another thoughts. Here I am again, listening to my favorite music, I played it randomly, and I just.. this thought just popped up in my mind, right now. Well, you know. I’ve been putting my eyes onto someone romantically at the moment but the ‘moment’ seems like not right for me to have this feeling towards him, but I’ll keep it to myself anyway. Every time I see him wandering around, laughing, or just casually talking with his friends or stranger, I feel the happy.. I don’t know what’s this, but, all I want is just to see him happy because he deserves it! and I’ll never get tired to tell you guys how precious he is to me eventho we don’t talk that much these days.. well.. that’s alright.. as long as I can still see him around me.. that’s okayyyyyy!!!!! I’ve also experienced that before. ( iykyk )

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