My life in the wild

My life has been me alone . I've had some really bad shiz happen to me and I have had some really good shiz happen to me . Im blunt ,also raw , I always stand for the right thing to do but I've fallen in my own way .Done the wrong thing I'm not perfect but you can grow to be better . God,Music,Love ,Compassion,Peace I'm here to share my life so you can laugh ,cry,get mad .so you can be yourself .Im gonna always be myself . Doesn't mean we have to agree on everything hopefully I gaina new friend if anyone ever finds this .I also love books and lititure,poems,dark stoys. Edgar Allen Poe or Stephen king. I love alot of stuff when it comes to learning ,movies,writing tho I'm illetrerate lol get over it . Its worth the read . come chill , lets start a book club , talk conspiracy theorys, smake a jay and talk real world shit,

[theforgottenstrengthofawoman]

My mother died when I was six. I dont remember much of her I have some good memory's with her .Rest wasn't pleasant .As in she was hardly around or she was in hospital due to cancer or complications from drugs that she wouldn't quit .Even though she had 8 kids with different daddy's and none wanted to take care of them.I remember always being around a bunch of people all the time . its just alot of memory's in and out from then. I knew very young I was gonna be the best mom I can possibly be and protect them and love them .I never got from her or any woman for that matter . well really from any adult . I was hated and the black sheep . this page is gonna be a lot of story's up and down . All the things I've experienced in life so far that people out there possibly can relate to and we can help each other out . Even share story's and topics of life etc . its a safe place . if anyone ever finds my page . but any who check out todays playlist below. Have the day you disserve Peace

[theforgottenstrengthofawoman]

So listen........ lol . what I'm about to tell you may sound a bit odd . Crazy bonkers in fact . But all true .So when I was a teen my dad has this pitch black green eye cat . Her name is midnight. She was beautiful and since I felt some what drawn to the witchy ways I thought we would bond so fast . I in fact was wrong lol . Know that I didn't know my real father for no more than a year before he died .But he was at that time one of my best friends other than my brother Justin. yall this cat hated my guts and everything my grandma stood for. The entire time she and I shared a house she tormented me lol . How you say ???This cat was evil lol we lived in a town house she would wait at the end of the stairs hidden so when my foot hit the bottom she would start ninja attacking my ankles out of know where . One of my chores was to keep the litter box clean . This cat pooped everywhere but the litter box .Every freaking time . She did that shiz on purpose .Ok lmao your still not convinced lol . Midnight always was around my dad . I'm pretty sure she wanted to live in his skin . she would spiderman crawl up the walls just out of know where . I would be dead ass asleep and roll over and all I see is midnight in my face . like scared me so bad I did a survival smack and may have cussed . But it was dark as hell and all I seen was eyes . You cant blame me for that lol I seen pet cemetery . There was so much more that she did but lets continue this only my wild life . So some Dr Phil shit whent down and I ever seen that cat again good ridden . I guess when and how my dad died and the other book of traumas I call life. I forgot that cat . Years go by . I mean I'm grown and have kids just remember this mean ass cat who tortured me lol. Me and this cat whould of thrown dukes if it was a human lol. One time her meows said something about my mama.I swear on my life lol . bahaha I have witnesses they seent it. Im not crazy ...I'm illleterate. bahaha. So continuing on I'm a dog person always have been. I have had the privledge of loving some amazing dogs in my lifetime so far . That I will forever love. Well I now have 5 kids I know dammmnnn .My Boys are 16 and 13 . My daughters are in heaven. tragic accident with my youngest daughter when she was 18 months old. my twin girls were born sleeping . Yea these posts will be stories of my life good and bad .. My oldest son wanted a cat so he got this tiny adorable kitten white and black and speckled. about med size . Her name is Ari . I babied that kitten . As she grew I noticed she stopped cuddling or doing kitten things . well weeks go by and years Ari starts climbing the wall top and slide to the bottom in the random times of the day and night . she kept litterally eating all the animal food in the house lol she still sit at my door way that is across hall from my sons , no Ari sits looking at me in my bedroom door way.for hours stareing at me , I'm like dude um something is broken or loose in this cat . just continue stuff she does and the older she gets the more she becomes a terrorist lol.Then I realized Ari is midnight recarnated and she is back to terrioze me and haunt me . I look up on the couch with this realization and she was waiting for this moment guys for 3years . I said midnight and she stairs . my dads cat is haunting me . well anyways later peeps . Till Next time .

[theforgottenstrengthofawoman]

Growing up I was forced into Christan faith . I personally seen the horrors that drugs and lies and all the spider web spread bullshit. I decided that I wasn't going to live my life like that . Am I perfect no . I have lied and cheated , had a zanex addiction ,etc .I asked for forgiveness and he did . I live my life right by him as close as I can.I know my right from wrong I have been taught that since childhood . so point to all that Is. When you live your life by God truly somehow your life just falls into place . The hard choices ,The fights , The stress with kids, Just life ( the devil )will guide you wrong , lie to your face. Make you look like the fool and the truth is you are . Because you knew better than that?? Lets be honest and real were adults .He will find so many ways to tear your down with obsticals and bs . Some even pop out of no where . You just gotta take that pain that anger the devil caused you and make it turn you into a baddie mode . Lift that body off that hard ground smile and tell him. Not me you got the wrong one . Always choose God. Bc he is looking at his daughter and son saying that's my kid . Stand up to the devil he really isn't that scary . He is just a lier in some temu clothes with a bad attitude . Don't wanna say it but I will F boy material ladies and gentleman . When you see past the lies and the hurt . You see the truth which will ALWAYS come out . Also know I'm not saying God don't love you bc you don't believe in him . He does weather you choose him or not . All he wants is to love you and guide you to him . To choose truth over evil .No matter how good the devil makes it bc as I said back to fuck boy in the end .everytime you will look like a fool and hurt with your feelings .My flaw is I see the good in people and even if they have ugly heart. I still look for the good bc people change .I changed so I know it to be true . Then you realize yes some people change for the good .But also some people wanna change that they are happy and content being said and miserable . The people that are made that way and will never see their own problems or fault in there situation.All that hurt and pain they have been threw or raised that way .They spread it to everyone around them . So that just spreads like a virus .But we all gotta choose happiness and growth,success .For you and your loved ones . its nessary to cutt out the toxic and love them from afar .this is the lesson I had to learn the hard way . Even tho my brain is programed to go the negative bad way and only see the negative .I CHOOSE GOD. He takes everything I cant handle and this girl can handle a lot and get threw anything . But when its a hard day and I cant handle the world .He does it for me . when I need someone to keep my head thinking right he shows me .Ever since I CHOOSE him its like a game to see who can fix the situation first. I don't have to worry myself sick on situations he has already handled and put the decisions in motion . I just got to remember that everything is on his time and his speed . Not mine trust in him he will show you how capable he is .Do I have a military love and realashionship with God? No will I ever do as others to say ? That how im supposed to love him to have him in my life ? Also no. I know my relationship with God isn't perfect I've messed up big time . I commited willing adultery 2 x . one deserved it. I know I'm working on that healing .But no matter how aweful and disgusting him and they are God will handle them as it should be .But I'm still learning and growing and healing . But for the ones who struggled like me .Just know he is there and its just as simple as choosing him and letting go . Mel Gibson once said when he was making the passion of the Christ movie . They asked him why make a movie that is so truthful that it makes people uncomfortable and emotional? He said with a straight face of hope that

1. "The film is not just about the death of Jesus; it’s about the love that led to that sacrifice."

2."The brutality depicted is meant to reflect the reality of sin and redemption.." also

3.I wanted to portray the humanity of Christ, showing His pain and suffering.""The film invites viewers to reflect on their own faith and relationship with God."

when is it the hardest to choose God? or when is the time you feel like the devil pushes you away the most?

My personal answer is when traumatic situations have happened is the hardest .

the devil pushes the hardest when your in a serious situations .CHOOSE GOD/PEACE

Voting ended onMay 4

[theforgottenstrengthofawoman]

I fell down the Bieber/ Gomez rabbit hole .Let me just say that why was this not more of a big thing media wise ? Or was it and I was asleep somewhere?? Well anywho lets talk about it . Yes I like celebrity gossip and news.Selena Gomez and Miley Cyrus was the shit that killed Elvis in my eyes . They was my favorite actresses growing up . Justin Beiber in my opinion well he was just another kid singer to add to the million we already had .My niece was completely obsessed with him ,posters on wall and everything . Well a good ol simple google will tell you that Selena and Justin started dating or being spotted together in 2010. They were on that rewind phase(on and off ) for years then was finally done in 2018. With that info we move to the phase of who's side do you choose Beiber or Gomez ? What was the final straw to end this so in love realashionship ? Back to the Google board we go because internet never lies lol. It says that they split due to long term trust issues , family disaproval,anda mutal realization that they were no longer a perfect match . So with that info we can guess cheating, lieing, throughout their dating span that trust was a recurring problem.Came march, Selena was like yo told you to many times and she told him to kick rocks . Justin was like well ok then I'm gonna go back to Hailey my ex then got married on september that same year him and Selena split in 2018. Now this is were it gets deep so hold on. While Justin was all happy married to the ex .Selena took the split rough as hell by what I have been reading and songs she has released during . Because lets not forget that both him and her are also playing breakup song wars to feed the fans . Will add playlist below just to help place you in the moment . So back to my girl Selena . Seei can relate to Selena so much for one we both have lupis . I know for a fact that lupis is a spur of the moment illness. which means that one second your fine take a nap.You wake up and you feel like dogshit. like my gramer bahhahaha. Breakups are hard .I would have no idea how hard it would be for a celebrity .Also one that is getting hurt and going threw so many emotions . stress, anxiety ,lack of eating , lack of sleep. to much sleep all would put you down so fast . She ended up in the hospital . Some people rumor that it was the split and sudden beiber marriage to Hailey that helped .She received (DBT) Dialectial Behavior Therapy she praised said "life changing" . But this is not the first go around for her she got treatment in 2014 also in 2016 for anxiety,depression, panic attack related to health it says.Justin apparentley said I feel bad for her all looking sad and shit in his car. Justin has always had depression ,anxiety,with also past drug use .But um now that we know what we know what he went threw younger when he was around usher and diddy ,with everything else .I can see where the mental issues come from .He said he generally has his mental health managed .Phew we made it this far you think this would be the end since they was so young when they dated . Justin married Hailey Baldwin in 2018. Selena threw out some hits for closure then focused on her mental health .There is said to be a little heat between the two Hailey and Selena but nothing drastic . Selena married Benny Blanco in 2025. Ill give you a second to take all that google info in ................... I was today years old when I realized that Benny Blanco was in Justin Bieber song lonely that was more than likely some part about Selena and all the things he had been threw. Then Benny and Selena marry and he plays in Selena song forgotten . You know that is about Justin . With all that being said I'm wishing them the best in life .Justin quit being a asshat . Team Selena all the way .Peace out till next time

[theforgottenstrengthofawoman]

Alot of the time the ones that go threw the hard challenges of a abusive or hard childhood .Are the ones that the abuser creates a monster . Then the real world happens and the monster has to decide do I take the road wizard of oz ? Where you can choose the numb, hazzordas ,dark ,cold life that leads to drugs and or prison. Lets not forget tagged in a body bag at your local morgue. where that life will look appealing and the easiest way at first. I promise you nothing good comes from it .Then there is always the path that looks like that can be seen only in scary movies . Its scary but you know you have to rip the band aid off and face your challenge .Because you know that its the right path even though its literally crippling at times .These paths are both equal in challenges . Some people have it harder than others . But why? Many I talk to who have had it hard all agree it just keeps hitting you . why are we choosen ? At what point is enough to the one who created our paths .