tiny ghost

[theghosters]

m-my lord, m-may I?

No.

combusts in release.

[theghosters]

Also oooo introduce me to the ghosties.

my ghosts come and go as they please, sometimes i dont even get to know their name, but all is good. my good friend ghost n°4 is raphael, who i insist isnt really a ghost but who am i to judge (bonus fact he sits on my desk in a painting, he likes it quite a bit). lily is such a sweetheart but is very shy with people she doesnt know, and loves tending to her garden (imaginary or otherwise). hubert is the very opposite of lily and is often the grumpy old man who doesnt really want to teach you how to woodwork but gets frustrated when you dont know how to do it, so he helps you anyway. i dont know when he died, he doesnt really talk about anything other than woodworking, but he is a welcoming presence, to me at least. there are other ghosts i have talked to here and there, but most dont really talk about themselves, as is their right. but that's it for now!

[theghosters]

Holy shit you post alot.

for a long time, even though i was pretty into scrolling on tumblr i never really posted anything, not like i didn't have anything to say, but more like i was afraid of public perception. but as i grew older (im 22 now) i found that posting my thoughts, experiences, questions etc... did more good for me than just scrolling and liking posts. but i keep forgetting posting this much so i post again only to find i've somehow amassed about 33 posts. i've learned through posting and commenting (even if it might feel like a natural or trivial thing) to get myself out there professionally, personally, or otherwise. thanks for the ask!

[theghosters]

I adapted to too many people and too many places that I lost who I am.

[theghosters]

I dont even think my mom likes me as a person.

[theghosters]

JAYWALKING???? WHAT EVEN IS THAT??

I sometimes forget that jaywalking is illegal in america (or that it exists) (jaywalking not the country) (it's confusing i know), like it's so silly and funny i can't take it seriously. but you gotta understand where im coming from, my country does not have a law against jaywalking, and a few years ago like 3 to 4 yo the gov tried to issue a law that said if a pedestrian crossed the street away from the crosswalk they were fined 25 bucks (not gonna say the currency so y'all can guess where this is), but we the people found it so ridiculously funny and silly that we didn't take it seriously AT ALL. and the thing is the amount of money you were fined changed depending on how far you were from the crosswalk. so if you were like 5 metres away you "payed" like 15 bucks. and the closer you were the less you paied lmaoooo. so soon videos spread of elderly people who for the most couldnt see all that well so they kept getting fined lmaooo. and it's not like a system where they got it mailed no no cops where stopping them and telling them in public they had to pay like 10 bucks (and for you muricans it's like if a cop stopped you and said you have to pay a dollar for jaywalking lmaoo) so these lovely citizens would laugh in their faces and it was just the best thing ever to happen. i dont know if the law changed or something but i know that cops dont give a fuck now and you can jaywalk IN FRONT OF A COP AND THEY WILL NOT SAY A FUCKING THING.

[theghosters]

I just realised that every main character we've had in bridgerton (the tv adaptation, did not read the books yet), be it the bridgerton siblings (daphne, anthony, colin, francesca and benedict being the ones that are married) simon, kate, penelope or sophie, all of them have a dead father. Like everyone of them. The bridgerton siblings' dad dies of a bee sting, simon's dad dies just before he appears in season 1, penelope's dies in season 1, kate's is dead way before, same as sophie. I only noticed it now in the middle of dozing of from watching drawing asmr that we do not see a father figure (penelope's dad doesnt count cs he's not a good father imo) except in flashbacks like anthony or sophie. Huh.

[theghosters]

meow

no more food for you. you are not becoming an eldritch horror that mimics a cute cat at my expense.

[theghosters]

MORE ON GAY CRUSHES

last time we talked about me figuring out i had a crush on a friend who introduced me to the world of manga. she was this emo esque girl (because she liked to mix easthetics) who was super cool and known to be atheist (minding we were in a private school in a country that was primarily muslim). anyway i still think of her to this day, she was a fun person.

but the thing is i've spend almost my whole life believing i was aroace based on the fact "no one would find me attractive to date me". this was something akin to the national anthem, i know it by heart, i will never forget it, but do i think about it? not really. it was more like a fact i learned in basic physics and incorporated into my daily life, like what gravity is, or that my cousin Throckmorton is a sick ass skateboarder. but why did i believe no one would find me attractive?? fuck if i know, that's another thing to discover. EITHER WAY, now that my brain has somewhat developped into what looks like a brain? that has not previously been chucked at a blender, i find i have discovered the world of people. WOW SPECTACULAR.

would you like to know what else i've discovered?? that THE FUCKING CRUSH I HAD ON THAT FRIEND WASNT EVEN THE FIRST? NOR THE LASTTTTT. so this brings us to why i want to write this one, i remember i had this friend in highschool who was very shy and basicaly only talked to me and another girl i did not know. but when i got to know her she was pretty funny and sarcastic. one day everyone's on the hall for a break between classes and she starts talking about how some girls have such pretty asses for some goddam reason, and she begins to watch the girls passing by and rating their asses?? i dont even know why she did it but it was pretty funny AND HOTT. so i start asking her what made a girl's ass pretty, and she said "well that have to have a nice and rounded shape, and they have to be big" lmaooo so then like the smart person i was at the ripe age of 15 i ask her what about me, and without hesitation or much looking at my ASS SHE TEARS ME APART AS SHE TELLS ME "NO YOUR BUTT IS TOO SMALL". i cried silent tears that day.

the only possible anecdote about this is that now at 22 i have a fucking FAT ASS THAT I DO NOT WANT AND MY MOM LIKES TO MAKE FUN OF MY FAT ASS SAYING I CAN YOUR ASS FROM A KM AWAY. please does anyone accept ass donations i am suffering here.

[theghosters]

A friend of mine asked me today why i love reading bl so much and i couldn't answer him at that time, but it just dawned on me that it's because if i were to read straight romance i would eventuelly crave living it and it would make me lonely again, but bl is something ill never live in real life so no matter how much i read it fiction will always be fiction. And sometimes that's all i want.

[theghosters]

So we live on the 4th floor right, and the neighbor on the ground floor has this big garden and stuff and he has a FUCKING TON OF PETS. Like 8 to 9 cats, 3 dogs, and 2 turtles. So yeah, a FUCKTON. Anyway the point is our appartment has 3 windows that look over his garden and one's in the kitchen. One day my mom calls me to hurry over and she tells me to look out onto the garden and i kid you not one of dogs is whining and howling and i dont know why??? And my mom says that the turtles were eating and the dog wanted to play with them but was sad because the turtles didnt answer him. Turtles cant speak, and he was sad because they didnt howl like him.

[theghosters]

So dreams are like the brain's version of AI.

[theghosters]

HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY TO ME AND NOT TO MY FUCKING ASS UNI WHO SCHEDULED EXAMS FOR 2 FUCKING WEEKS RIGHT NOW. WHY COULDNT THEY WAIT UNTIL AFTER JAN 1 FOR EXAMS??? HUH?? HUH???

[theghosters]

For most of my life that i remember (continuous depression plays hide and seek with my memories) i thought i never had a crush on someone. Then at 20, i was like hey i am aroace!! Fun. BUT THIS MORNING I AM SUDDENLY AWOKEN WITH MEMORIES I DID NOT RECALL. I HAD A FAT FUCKING CRUSH ON A GIRL. that really explains how now at 21 i've been noticing girls a fuckton more than i've ever noticed guys. Cause my logic with me being aroace was hey i've never had a crush on boy EVER so i must be aroace. BUT NOW GIRLS ARE EVERYWHERE

AM I GAY????? IS THIS GAY PANIC??????

more to follow!

[theghosters]

I mean it's crazy how humans ghost me when I, A HORD OF GHOSTS DONT DO THAT. YOU HAVE TO THINK ONE DAY THAT IF GHOSTS DONT DO THAT THEN MAYBE YOU SHOUDN'T EITHER

my twink for the love of god if you send me a text and i answer dont wait for literaly ETERNITY to text me back. This will not make you evolve, YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY TWINK

[moldspace]

a school of weird fish

[partanaava]

i have a big salmon

(terrible photo because i got excited)

[theghosters]

Proceeds to take the most perfect pic of a salmon with four legs.

[theghosters]

Hmm i wonder how a padded room feals like? And that strait jacket looks so comfortable!

Ghost n°4 : no. no no. YOU dont wanna know. But the socks *chefs kiss*