I look at this small blog/ little journal that is this and it somehow makes me feel at ease. I tend to fall back on this when I go through episodes of depression. The posts remind me on here of how I made it through past episodes. I came out of it good and happy. Sometimes reading back on these feels trivial but still relevant. It’s like being in a Time Machine. It’s been more than a decade of having this and yet very small things here lift me up. It encourages me. So if future me is reading this at some point, listen. You’ve gone through this before and you picked yourself up. You have amazing support behind whatever you do and have many angels watching over you. Be confident in yourself and take it a step at a time. It feels overwhelming at first but it subsides. You feel like panicking and feel like running but stand your ground. You will make it. I promise. You are smart and braver than you know. Be proud you made it this far through all the mental hurdles that have stood in the way. Most importantly you are loved. You may feel alone through many things but many people love you are here. Never ever forget that. Your brothers, you sisters your family, and your wife all love you so so dearly. Let that give you courage. Let that push you forward. I know you’re very emotional. I get emotional just writing this sometimes. But we need it. We need to remind ourselves of our worth when we are scared of the unknown. At this point I’m rambling but you get the point of this. Be brave and remember we love you and we are proud of you.
