Unique and unrepeatable.

Trichotillomania can be cruel. It can choose to shape you instead yourself and you often find yourself getting lost in it. Don't. Don't let that happen. Yes, you can have the worst days imaginable but you don't have to let it control you! :)

[theinevitablehappened]

Say hello to my various patches. So it took 3 years for my huge bald patch on the crown of my head to grow back. This re-growth was destroyed in less than a week. These are some of my less bald areas, all while I’m covering it up with the hair at the front. go me. The third pic is a collection of tiny tiny hairs growing back on my crown.

[theinevitablehappened]

What's funny is that when the Doctor started pulling out hair, I too, was doing it. What are the chances huh? TV and hair pulling? Never heard of.

[when-my-car-had-sound]

isn’t it awesome when your carpet is 50% carpet and 50% of your own hair

[theinevitablehappened]

Bald patch here we go again!

[wanttobutdontknowhow]

Having a mental disorder makes you see the world in a different way

You notice things normal people don’t

Like the faint scars on people’s arms

The emptiness in their eyes

The way they smile with their mouths but not with their eyes

The anxiousness they feel when having to eat in front of others

Just little things most would look over

but you notice

Because they’re just like you

[theinevitablehappened]

So I was completely, actually that's a lie, I was ALMOST completely pull free today. Just the occasional strand of hair that didn't feel right. But, gotta say, that's the least I've pulled for over 3 months now.

:)

[theinevitablehappened]

What's this I hear about CoA??! Hells to the yeah!!

[tmisource]

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[astrotheyge]

when you spell a word so wrong that spell check is like i dont know what to tell u man

[theinevitablehappened]

Whenever I hear someone say “I’m so bored I could rip my hair out” Or “I’m so angry I could rip my hair out”, IT FEELS LIKE A FREAKING SLAP TO THE FACE!

[theinevitablehappened]

Journal

Well, I don't know how many people will see this. But if even one person can see this and think 'yes, she gives me a little hope', that will be enough for me. 

I'll start off by saying I am NOT an upset person. I have trichotillomania, but I've let it be a part of me. If you ask my friends, they would say 'Well, she's definitely lively alright.' I think, in my opinion, that the way of realising what trich is, is by accepting it.

So, I found out about trichotillomania when I was 13. And when i really thought back, the age I remember starting this was when I was 11. I spent a couple of months stressing out so much and this led to more pulling due to stress. I had one of the most depressing summers ever. This was because I did nothing for 7 weeks, just had my laptop, and the internet can have some pretty depressing stuff.

I had this online journal to get my feeling out on, and people were allowed to reply back to me. Hearing one of those responses wasn't the nicest feeling.

But then, I went back to school, and I finally decided I wanted to not feel like this anymore. And boy, can I say that the person i told was an incredible listener. When i broke down in front of her, she didn't judge me. She was probably thinking 'I wouldn't have thought she was going through a rough patch'. The next few months were agonizing.

She was going to get me help to talk about what was happening to me, and how it was affecting me. But things weren't going my way, letters lost in the mail, them rejecting me for some reason. And that was when she told me to speak to my parents.  

Ah, my parents. I think when i finally told them that they had a daughter who found pleasure in pulling out her hair in situations that are stressful for her, they were pretty much denying it. My sister laughed at me. 

Mum and Dad told me that they will sort things out, like they could sort everything in my life out. They took me to a hypnotherapist. That was fun. All I remember is a VERY comfortable chair. I went a few times, and yes, it helped but not to an extent that I completely stopped. That is what they thought. But we all know its not like that.

A few friends know. But I want to keep it as a few. 

But after that therapy session, and when it didn't work, i stopped trying to force myself to take my hand off my head and just to let it go.  I think when I finally accepted that it was okay to cry myself to sleep when I've pulled clumps out, and that its okay to find that I pull my hair unconsciously during class.

I'm not saying that I rarely pull out my hair anymore. actually my desk and keyboard is covered in hair as i write this. I've stopped hating myself for it.

So with that, my ask is open, and I'm pretty positive that this won't go anywhere but if there is someone there that got to the end of my VERY long story that needs a little cheering up, I'd love to help.