It was more than perfect when I read those posts on my best friendās 50th birthday . It is going to take huge courage for me to take the leap but I choose to believe in myself . The recent life encounter really made me think and reflect . What does life mean to us ? What is the life about ? What should we do and what we want to do certainly has the gap . We often ignore the gap and do what we should do . Letās call it the middle life crisis . At the age of 44 , I decide to go back the university to pursue another new qualification that I have always have my eyes on . I really donāt know how this is going to turn out and I am not sure what is going to lead me . But ultimately, when we choose to immigrate to another country for whatever reasons , having the freedom to make choice about our life at any stage has always been the root as I believe .