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Introducing Myself By My...

Cabin - Cabin 7

Hogwarts House - Hufflepuff

Zodiac Sign - ♎

MBTI - EINSFTJP or All of Them

Soldier, Poet or King - Poet

I love this Pinterest Collage Trend Made Me Feels Like Living In Fantasy World Already...

#cabin 7 #hufflepuff #libra #EINSFTJP #mbti types #poet #camp half blood #hogwarts houses #zodiac signs #soldier poet king

I'm studying well and I'll ace the entrance exam of my life.

I'm getting that scholarship, Oble

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‎"I'm all alone."

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‎Whenever I reply those words upon crossing paths in an unexpected place with someone I know after they ask me who I'm with, they're shocked as if I did a crime.

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‎What's with these people? Why someone going out alone is such a big surprise to them? Can't they do that as well? Is that way too bold for them?

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‎Strolling outside by yourself is such a normal thing but honestly, it's rare. I can do that; mainly because I'm not sociable or I just want to be independent without relying on someone's delay or I need to have some me time or simply, I don't have someone to come with me at that particular moment. Whatever the reason is, I'm going out alone with me, myself and I only.

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‎Sometimes that's my choice and sometimes I have no choice.

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‎At some point, I understand why people are mind-blown when they found out about my solitariness—it's not easy.

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‎Disclaimer, I'm so happy spending time with myself being my own person. It's so liberating and so light. However, lately, I realized it's not like that all the time. I also realized, it's boring and at some cusps, my mouth is close most of its duration.

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‎Probably, whenever strangers discover me in solo, they think I lost my mind, I'm rude or perhaps, I'm unapproachable. What's your first impression on someone being on his or her own?

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‎Every time there's a lot of people in public, be it founding anniversary of our province or charter day of our city, I witness several groups, couples or trios. They're enthusiastically chatting each other, joking one another, eating happily, thrifting together, sitting on the grass in bunch, making reels in camaraderie or any other activities does by a horde of citizens. Talking alone is fine, vibing on my own is fine, enjoying in solo is fine but sometimes those are not enough. Suddenly, I feel envy even though envy is bad. I didn't mean to. It just sprouted out of nowhere. Why am I feeling this? I'm pretty sure I'm secure on being by myself. If so, why I'm longing for some companies out of the blue?

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‎I have friends but they're all busy and it's so insensitive to disrupt them. I don't want to suffocate them anymore. We're not teenagers, we're not high schoolers, we're not kids anymore. That's the pain of adulting. Soon, we will have some time.

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‎I have acquaintances but I don't see any reasons to be with them. I even avoid most of them or act like I didn't recognize them whenever I'm about to come across them in public. It's so awkward, if you think about hanging out with people whom you don't have concrete relationships with.

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‎I have relatives that have nothing to do with me. Cousins who I am not close with. Younger siblings that are not in good terms with me. People who know my name and just my name. People around me who don't want to be associated with me.

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‎Maybe one of my friends is right that I should meet some people. Probably I should start joining organizations. Perhaps I should find a job earlier than I planned and meet some colleagues. Seek a love partner? Yikes! That's not going to happen. I'm not interested in romantic relationships.

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‎I'm not an introvert or a total misanthrope or anything as such. I'm just an awkward ambivert who sucks at communication skills. I don't know how to properly bring people. Connections are must and I don't know how to connect.

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‎But meeting new people just for the sake of having companions in outdoor activities is not fair. It's so transactional. It's so conditional. It's shallow. It's not genuine and we're aiming for truthful connections.

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‎There's solitude and there's loneliness— or it can be isolation. I mistake one for another.

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‎Being alone. I guess that it's my punishment for being such a fool who don't know act appropriately around people. The problem is me or the problem in me that I don't know what exactly is. Possibly someday I will walk alongside somebody or anybody else. Until then, let me be on my own. I'm still strong enough to do that. Trust me, I can.

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I need to be erudite and flourish in college unlike what I am in high school.

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just start and everything will follow......

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There's a school shooting in a nearby province here in my country.

I want to partially blame America for that.

#school shooting #gun violence #end gun violence #keep schools safe #education system

Dad Joe, tell me honestly, do you only go to Met Gala just to find a love partner? 🧐

#at least he's happier now though #free joe alwyn #joe alwyn #william bowery #sarah pidgeon

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Jesus christ swifties are insane and can‘t move on. Looking at sarah‘s instagram comment section i see so many swifties being weird. Mind you taylor had matty and now her fiance travis since joe. But to swifties joe can‘t ever move on. They say joe hid her meanwhile we have still seen many pap pics of her with joe so i know that cult just trusts that lie that taylor painted, that he hid her in a basement. Leave him alone omg

Sarah is stunning! Taylor would kill for those big eyes.