[thelaughingst0rm]

Maybe I wasn’t persistent enough.

[thelaughingst0rm]

Becoming more and more obnoxious

[thelaughingst0rm]

Suffocating thoughts

[thelaughingst0rm]

Waking up every day with a heavy heart. Contemplating to find validity for your existence. Always wondering what you could have done to turn things around. What you could have done to avoid it all. It sounds and looks petty, I know, but you just can’t help it. Another day to make it through. Another week to make it happen. Another month to survive. Stuck in a loop every single day.

Perhaps I’m just being oversensitive. Overreacting.

I guess something’s just wrong with me or in me. Perhaps something’s just fundamentally wrong. Or maybe even just broken.

[thelaughingst0rm]

Sometimes it’s just easier to just mask your face with laughter, easier to play the fool, easier to just not want to talk about it rather than explain how sad and pathetic your life has been.

[thelaughingst0rm]

The sad part is sooner or later, they’ll forget you. They’ll go on living their own lives. You, on the other hand, will continue to live but will always remember. Always at the back of your head. Everything. 

[thelaughingst0rm]

Sad and pathetic

[thelaughingst0rm]

Once you realize that you are not nearly as important as you think you are to someone, everything becomes easier.

[thelaughingst0rm]

I never really learned how to forgive myself. Perhaps, I never will.

[thelaughingst0rm]

Why do I miss you so much even though we haven’t talked in ages.

[thelaughingst0rm]

Ever had that intense longing feeling while staring at a photo of someone you haven’t seen or talked to in a very long while? 

Di mo naman sia kakausapin pero gusto mo lang talaga siya makita. Just for a moment. Just want to make sure that everything’s fine. 

But I can’t.

[thelaughingst0rm]

nothing but a memory

[thelaughingst0rm]

Tired of being weak.

Tired of being helpless.

[thelaughingst0rm]

I miss her terribly.

[thelaughingst0rm]

7 years 

[thelaughingst0rm]

I’ve made a terrible mistake. I deserve a fate far worse than death. Torture. 

[thelaughingst0rm]

A self-centered, lying, asshole.