Koi.Dreams

A tumblr for gathering my thoughts

[thelonleykoi]

Progression

Life is looking up again and I am feeling far more enlightened than I was last year! A lot of stressful things had been going on last year and somehow those worries have dissipated into thin air. I know that I still have a long way before I can truly be satisfied by the person I’ve become however as of late, I have somehow changed into a more positive, more happier individual and the people I have to thank for that is the wonderful people on the Prince’s Trust. I couldn’t be more grateful! When people say that the Prince’s Trust change you, they couldn’t be more correct! It shapes you into a more, well rounded person and frankly, I’d recommend anyone seeking self development to join the course! I promise you that you won’t regret going on one of their courses!! 

[thelonleykoi]

Insecure

[thelonleykoi]

Late Night Worrying

Recently, a lot of demons have been haunting me late at night. These nagging thoughts of feeling inadiquate and feeling utterly alone, have beaten me down badly as of late. Only tonight have I expressed how I felt to my partener, whom had explained that they had noticed the change in my behaviour. They assured me that they would rather I be honest, to let them see me for who I am rather than masking my true emotions. I feel completely honoured to have a partener as supportive and loving as they are... however after speaking out, I felt rather embarrassed, as if I wanted to hide away again in shame and (metaphorically) going away with my tail between my legs. But looking at it now, these emotions show that I am human and it is completely normal to feel they way I have for the past few days.