Unstable angina

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[troysivan]

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1:34 am [01/22/2018]

Back at it with my unusual sleeping habits. Normal seems pretty fucked up.

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5:23 pm [4/10/2017]

It’s not that I’m too good for anyone, it’s just that I’m too broken for anyone. I can’t seem to put into words the feelings I have. I tried asking for help, but deep inside I know... nobody can’t help me. Not even myself. Maybe I’ll just get used to this. The feeling of being broken, the feeling of not getting anyone to fix you. Somehow I realized, maybe I’m just not for anyone. Maybe I’m destined to walk this path, alone...

[quase-heroi]

[queertasm]

[grunge-top]

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fvck feelings.

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Bagong Gising S02Ep02.

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Casual sex and alcohol, I thought these things would help.

The void within me can’t be filled.

I’m fucked up in every corner.

I try to forget, but I can’t.

I long for something.

I thought it’s love.

I just thought so.

What to do?

Help me.

I can’t save myself...

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2016 was a really shitty year. I hope 2017 would be great.

Cheers to all of us who made it through! :D

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a e s t h e t i c s

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Conquered Mount Sembrano’s Summit 3!

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Be a better version of yourself.

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Paradise. Mt. Sembrano. 10.31.16.

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I found someone else while I was finding out whom I’ve become...

[cocvino-deactivated20160219]

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Note to self.

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So close yet so far, just like you...

Rough edges, rough memories...

Unexplored spaces, unsaid thoughts...

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9/21/2016

You’ve set a time and a meeting place. I’ve waited for a while. My heart is pounding, trying to assemble the words in my mind. Don’t really know what to say and to expect... Then finally, you’ve met me personally. Thank you, thank you hearing me. I need this closure, this personal encounter. It’s a bitter-sweet ending. I thank God for all the things that happened, the things that happened to us... Even though our chemistry only lasted for a while, I know that we really had something. If only I could take away all the pain that you have experienced, I’d do it. Just to let you stay in my life. Probably one day our paths would cross again and we’d be able to give “us” another shot. Maybe in the next 20 years? or maybe after you finished medicine. I don’t really know. I don’t want to expect. I’d just go with the flow. I’ll just let all this pain go away slowly. I’d endure all the days and years that would come by without you, without you being my other half. We agreed, agreed to stay friends, keep in touch with each other. We know this is for the better, rather than being strangers again.

Thank you, thank you for making me happy in a short span of time. I know it’s hard for the both of us. And you’ve said it yourself, I deserve better. Even though I deserve better, I don’t want anyone else. Because I know you deserve the love what I am trying to give. Falling in love is a chance, but staying in love is a choice. You chose to not continue what we had because of the pain inflicted to you by your family. I’ll understand your choice even though it’s very painful and hard. I just really hope one day, destiny or faith, perhaps?... Would give us another chance. You’ve also told me that you’ve tried to moved on before me. Now, it’s my turn, my turn to move on away from “us”. But then again, let me say this one last time. I love you. I have always loved you, even you had pushed me away. Thank you for being a wonderful chapter in my life...