To Those Who I Loved - A Collection of Poems

[theloverpoems]

There I was

Sitting in the rain

Weeping with Mother Earth

For I have made the same mistake

That I have made 100 times before

There I sit

Ignoring all the signs

The universe has shown me

I weep tears of sorrow

For I have wronged myself

I have ripped my own heart out

Giving it to those who do not want it

I have failed myself

I do not love myself as I thought

Of course I don’t love myself

If I continuously give myself

To those who do not love me

I weep tears of joy

For he will be the last one

To receive my heart and throw it away

I will love myself unconditionally

I will guard my heart

Until someone who loves me

As much as I love myself appears

I will be listening Universe

I vow to listen.

- b.b.

[theloverpoems]

i was the women

walking in my dreams

i was my own soulmate

i just had to surrender

and let go

to find my true self

b.b.

[theloverpoems]

i had to fight myself

not to do anything

to help that women

that shouldn’t be

i should not have

to hold back

from helping

another human being

my heart shattered

i didn’t think my heart

would shatter again

but it did

b.b. (in another lifetime - peace corps)

[theloverpoems]

i am a damsel in distress who actually needs saving but when i call out for help noone is there to catch me ... not even myself

b.b. (11/30/17 - past thoughts)

[theloverpoems]

maybe i want him

because i know my options

are thin

my chances of finding her

are running low

he can see past

everything that makes

other people cringe

but is he like the others

does he just want me for my body

b.b.

[theloverpoems]

it’s happening again

another one has chosen

to chase after her

after having me

i scare men off

i guess thats what

im best at...

i just want a man

who wants to make love

to me - all of me

no compromises

a man who just wants to chill

talk about life

and fuck

is that too much to ask for?

b.b. (the truth is out - sequel)

[theloverpoems]

he is the only one who accepts the real me and now my emotions are a jumbled up mess i thought i was gay but now i find myself thinking what it would be like to be with him

b.b. 

[theloverpoems]

i let you go

because i didnt think

i deserved such a love

when everyone else

has been nothing but cruel

taking my love for granted

now, i dont know

if anyone will love me

the way you did

b.b. (deepest regret)

[theloverpoems]

everything that i used to do with her is what i look for  in everybody else  is it possible  to have more than one soulmate

b.b.

[theloverpoems]

my dreams  and reality are mixing i cannot tell what is real anymore

b.b.

[theloverpoems]

i am on a path to bettering myself to improve my self-respect self-love self-esteem self-confidence  and ill be damned  if i let anyone get in my way of loving myself this time i will  not stop until i have reached  true, unequivocal happiness

b.b.

[theloverpoems]

i have a crush on her and she mocks me flirts with other girls  in front of me what am i supposed to  do with that

b.b.

[theloverpoems]

how did it become so upside-down when did i become the chaser why has everybody stopped chasing me

b.b.

[theloverpoems]

she gets seven, eight different men texting her each night some of them my past lovers

b.b.

[theloverpoems]

she said they always come back maybe for her but not for me they treat her like a Queen and me like trash

b.b.

[theloverpoems]

it hurts

to know that

the men i have laid with

really want to be with her

the Queen

noone ever really wanted me

i was the last option

now everyone will know

that we talk

the queen and the pawn

and no man will ever

talk to me again

for fear they loose

a chance with the Queen

b.b. (the truth is out pt.2)

[theloverpoems]

i fucked you

then left you

you automatically

started talking to her

my best friend

i was never who you wanted

i was just a way to get to her

but what you dont know

once you fuck me

youve ruined your chance with her

i am poison

b.b. (the truth is out)