I finally broke down and did it.
He passed no judgment on me whatsoever, and that was such arelief for me that I slept so very well for the first time in a very long time. Â The only people that knew about my malady were my family, Evie, Rina, and now Nolavar. Â I wanted to tell both Vielynne and Azuriann about it at some point, maybe even Lilthessa for our days out as friends or even Saffyre so sheâd know if I had a day where I wasnât feeling well and couldnât make it for lessons. Â One thing was for certain: Â I didnât receive the usual âhow could you be so reckless?â or âyou have no right or reason to interact with anyone with such an afflictionâ banter that I have received from the limited few that Iâve spoken to about it before. Â I would tell the members of the Magistry maybe one day, I think both Elenaris and Kaevia and Kyla deserve to know about it since they are more than just acquaintances; they are becoming dear friends and people I can rely on when it comes to my overall place in our society. Â
Nothing about what happened to me holds any bearing on anyone save for me. Â Itâs MY health, MY heart, and, even if itâs not in the best condition currently, it still loves and hopes just as everyone elseâs does. A runeblade could never take that away, I donât care how damned or possessed it may be. Â After discussing this with him, he was immediately forthcoming on something that had afflicted him during his time in Icecrown. Â If it wasnât for Safronaâs constant courier work for my family during my abduction, my condition wouldâve gotten worse.
I wonât lie, it was completely frightening and something I wasnât expecting to see from someone I love so dearly.  Mayhap time will help heal his suffering and Iâm sure the knowledge that I stand by him in all endeavors does help some already.  No matter what, it will come to pass that I will be more than happy to spend the rest of my days at his side, for he is the only one outside of my family and closest friends who loves me regardless of how weak I amâŠand how weak I can be.
Proof of this came in abundance the other evening when I met with Lossenor for the first time since the House Frostmoon tea. Â I was highly concerned because he was such a large supporting member of the Coalition of Houses, House Fireshard being the lead house and people he seemed to support. Â However, it was unclear as to what he needed. Â I couldnât tell if he had wished to meet with me as a Magistrix or a friend. Â Outside of the manor, Nolavar and I awaited him as I had received a missive stating he wished an audience with me. I was very excited for this as it had been quite a while since I had seen my friend last, but upon arrival, the first paragraph from his lips dictated a different kind of feeling, one of dread.
It came to pass that he had allied himself with people who are currently under inquiry regarding vigilante justice within Silvermoon, and that he alone was the sole reason why the Undead hadnât removed Silvermoon and Quelâthalas from the face of Azeroth. Anger was within my chest as he spoke with such confidence, but I bit my tongue to keep what I really truly wanted to say from coming to light.
He spoke of the founding of his new organization, the Chimera Corps, and what their purpose was in relativity to Silvermoon and the Sinâdorei. Â I told him that the allegiances he sought were quite treacherous but my warning fell upon deaf ears. Â It was not even quite yet after he finished proclaiming his achievement in such a boisterous, arrogant tone that an old friend of Nolavarâs had arrived. Â I will not mention her position only because she seems dear and I donât want anything to happen to her, but the words that were exchanged between she and Lossenor were heated, and it caused me to immediately seek Nolavarâs hand in comfort.
With that said, Lossenor left the Daeârienne estate property angered and quite on edge as if he had just made an enemy out of me. Â I stayed silent as my friend rode away, but I couldnât help but feel so much relief as he left with no parting words. Â Heâll realize soon enough that the allegiances he seeks will only result in his downfall. Â Be that as it may, I donât want him to think that Iâd forsake him. Â I think he is very misguided by the tyrannical actions of certain organizations, but, in all honesty, Iâm not sure what I could do for him should he find himself in a difficult situation.
Nolavarâs hand on mine was a luxury that was afforded to me during that conversation, and I would not take it for granted as he will not always be near me when situations get hostileâŠthough I can only hope he might.  Reality sets in once more when it comes to matters of the heart, and sometimes things happen beyond our control that we donât ever wish on anyone, even our worst enemiesâŠmeaning that, no matter how much we try to be in each otherâs presence, I know something will come along eventually to prevent that and I can only hope that nothing happens in our absence from one another.
Hopefully soon Iâll be able to tell the Magistry about what Iâve discovered, but try to keep those close to my beloved out of the conversation. Â The Blood General seems as if she can be trusted, and if she has Nolavarâs trust, then she has mine. Â I just hope that Lossenor doesnât cross her path on a bad day.
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