Hey, it’s me. AND It’s JUNE. That means that 2016 is halfway over. This year has resulted in my traveling, having had huge changes in my friendships, my work, and my goals. And, most importantly, I’ve been feeling very off recently. So, I decided to make some changes. One of the biggest ones is that I am abstaining this month. I know. But, just go with me on this.
really at my end with social interactions being based around drinking and being with people where the only thing we have in common is drinking.
I also think that beer & whiskey (carbs, wheat) really messes with my stomach when I mix them (say two beers and two whiskeys).
it’s expensive. I’m spending money on drinking when I could be using it to buy a bed frame, double my payments on my student loans, or get that fancy ass haircut that I want.
this will be the most difficult, I need to take some time to bake an allotted amount of bread and not cave when I’m rushed.
I gave up cola back in December, but I’ve been drinking ginger ale and root beer occasionally.
I have been craving root beer so much.
not that that will be difficult at all (or has been). I’m dating, but not in the hopes of getting into a serious relationship. So, sex has been off the table until I’m ready for something serious. I know I’ve never talked about my sex life on here, but as I’ve grown from a 19 year old girl into a 26 year old woman, it’s about time that I shared about intimacy, sexuality, and being more comfortable with that aspect of my life, and being safe, comfortable, and promoting that to my female friends.
I’ve been playing basketball the past 2 weeks with some guys I knew in college, who know more guys in the area. Resulting in sweaty exhausting nights on the court as the temperature rolls from 95 to 89 as the sun goes down. I joke and laugh and surprise them all and myself with some great moves I never felt good doing when I played with a team and a coach in school.
It’s freeing, and frustrating. My knees aren’t used to running on macadam. I bruise like a peach so my legs and arms and torso are covered. I’m exhausted by it, but I feel excited to play when I leave work. And, i think my shooting will improve once i update my contact Rx.
I’m extremely happy with work right now, I got a raise because my job at the Inn will be more event coordination assistant and less guest services. Which is what I’ve wanted for the past two years. Specifically to dip my toes into larger scale event planning. I work around 20 hours a week there, then 10 at my other job, and putting in 60 hours a month doing content creation and consulting for The Publishing House, and small exhibits.
Not being clear immediately with guy friends, who I know have feelings for me, but because I feel like I’m being platonic and clear, doesn’t mean they understand that. Then, standing up for myself because it’s manipulative that they wants something and is getting mixed signals with very platonic activities, but only talks about it with mutual friends, who then tell me. Then they acts like I’m in the wrong. I’m not in the wrong.
I’m an adult, now. Can we not all be self aware and address our feelings, or keep them to ourselves if they make others uncomfortable?
Feel better in my body & with my body. (it’s already happening, i’ve been wearing short shorts and feel great. Also, its sundress season!)
Do something different and fun every weekend.
Vocalize to those important to me, how they make me feel, and extend myself to them. (I missed telling people how much they mean to me, especially since the past year it seems like it was superficial)
Meet new people. I went to a wedding last weekend and it was fantastic, i made friends with an amazing couple, and hope I get to see them in the future.
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