Even though we're back together... I'm still healing. I hate Oregon. I hate Oregon for taking you away. I see your sisters pictures and I'm immediately taken back to a place of sadness. I still feel like maybe there are some things we need to iron out. I still don't fully trust you when you say you love me or that you want to spend your life with me. It hurts sometimes to be in your arms, because what if i lose you tomorrow? I still think about when you told me "We say we make a great team... but we don't." And is that something you still feel? Is that something you want to continue doing? Do you want to move forward in a place where we barely function together? I love you and want to be with you... but I'm so fucking scared.