Ryugazaki's Study

My name is Rei Ryugazaki. I've been living with my boyfriend, Nagisa Hazuki, for nearly a year now. Thanks to the help given from you readers, I was able to build up the courage to ask out and maintain a relationship with him. Things are going wonderful, I couldn't be happier! If you do have any questions, however, please don't hesitate to ask.

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Entry #300

So here we are, the final entry.

Well, the possible final entry. We may show up again in a few months or so, but that is a possibility, and not a definite. 

Anyway, I thought for the final entry, it would be worth mentioning what we’re planning to do in the future. If I’m not able to mention it as the days go by, I still think it would be nice to show you all the effects of this year.

Nagisa and I are planning to get another kitten, perhaps even a rescue cat. We think Mimi would love some feline company and we’re already in the process of asking our Landlady if we have permission to get another cat. We’ll find out soon enough, hopefully! 

We’ve also got plans to travel. It’s perhaps a ridiculous dream but we would love to visit many places of historical or scientific interest, although this seems like a long term dream, after we’ve saved up a lot of money, it’s still at the top of things we would like to do.

As for our relationship as a whole, I think it’s clear to say that we’re planning on being together for a very long time and, although it may be a little too soon for any big steps in our relationship, some conversations may or may not have taken place about such things.

Even though we do have a clear idea of some of the things we’d like to aim for in the future, it’s still to be determined. In my opinion? It doesn’t matter, just as long as our future contains each other.

So, all that is left to say is a huge, massive thank you for paying attention to this little section of our lives. We’re so glad you were able to join us for it! -Rei Ryugazaki, Nagisa Hazuki & Mimi the Cat

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Entry #299

Last night, Nagisa and I had a really wonderful date. I would go through everything that was good, but that would take much too long! Instead, I’ll tell you a short story about our trip on the way home:

We were walking a short distance to the bus stop and decided to make a bet. Nagisa was telling me that he could, without a doubt, carry me there. Now, with an injured ankle, I thought it would be impossible. What I had forgotten was that time when he carried me through to bed and I couldn’t figure out if he was just strong or not. That was quite some time ago now! But yes, it’s confirmed again, Nagisa is very strong. Don’t worry though! We were very cautious by the side of the road, and Nagisa was adamant that his ankle was feeling better, so no worries!

During that walk to the bus stop, we ended up taking a detour. Weirdly enough, we found a park similar to the one that we used to go to all the time back at our old apartment. It was so peaceful. We spent a good hour or so, in the dark, talking about our past year together. It’s amazing how much we could remember. The story about finding Mimi, the monopoly game we used for studying, the picnics, Nagisa finding my confession letter, everything. We talked about it all while lying on our backs in the middle of a dimly lit park, his head next to mine.

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Entry #298

Class wasn’t too bad. I did have a fair amount of people asking to sign my cast but that was Nagisa’s doing. He gathered a few of his history classmates and now my leg is covered in history puns! 

Anyway, in other news, Nagisa’s taking me out for dinner tomorrow night! I’m excited to go since we’ve mainly just been having takeaways recently. Nagisa’s got the transport all set out already, so I don’t have to worry too much about being in pain while we go, although I am feeling a lot better!

I was sat on the floor for quite a lot of this afternoon. Mimi was incredibly playful today so Nagisa and I sat opposite each other (I was propped up and he just made sure his ankle wasn’t trapped) and we rolled back a little catnip ball in between us. Mimi went mad for it! 

Even though exams are coming up, domestic life in this way has become such an easy routine to fall into. It makes me happy to know that I don’t have to change this once I leave university. I live with Nagisa. I’m dating Nagisa. Thoughts like this never fail to make me smile.

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Entry #297

I know I’ve got to go back to class properly tomorrow, and I have no idea how that’s going to go down. I’ve had a couple of messages from people asking me if I’m okay and whatnot, but the majority don’t seem interested.

Not that I’m complaining! Of course, attention was not what I was looking for when I stepped out into the road, so I’m not affected by the lack of messages. What I am worried about, however, is the attention my cast is going to bring. Nagisa’s already written on it (he was desperate to write a little note on my calf, right where I can’t see!!) and wants me to see how many names I can get on it. I’m not expecting it to be too bad though, but we’ll see.

On another note, I realised how attentive Mimi is when you’re injured. Nagisa too, actually. I moved my leg wrong and made an odd squeaking noise but within seconds, both Nagisa and Mimi were rushing over to me. They both had the same cautious looking expression and both had come over to check if I was alright.

Just the sight of them both was adorable enough to make me feel better (the kiss from Nagisa and the nuzzle from Mimi helped too though!).

[thenagisaenigma]

good luck on your exams!

Thank you very much! I’m going to take this opportunity to wish everyone else who also has exams or projects good luck too. We’ll make it through!

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Update

So, this isn’t a post tonight, but I thought I should talk about a few things.

We’re nearing the 300th post and I’ve been running this blog for a full year! A lot has gone on in this year, including parties, accidents and our wonderful relationship! I couldn’t be more thankful. Most of what has happened is down to you.

Thank you, all of you, for all of your support over this past year. I honestly mean it when I say we couldn’t have done it without you.

The plan here is that we will take it to Entry #300 and from there it will either be the very last post or the blog will go into an extremely long hiatus. This is due to a large amount of exams that I am going to be facing very shortly, and even after that, both of us have a fair few projects to work on. We’re not sure what the plan is once all of that is over. 

In the time between this update and the 300th post, we will answer any questions or anything you want to know. 

Thank you once again for all of your support, you’re all wonderful.

<3

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Entry #296

Nagisa here again. I wanted to explain about the nightmares.

I’m sorry I didn’t tell you about them, but I had one sometimes two a night. Most of the time, the reason I didn’t mention it was because I felt selfish. Talking about my nightmares when Rei was in hospital felt wrong. I didn’t want to draw attention to myself like that. It didn’t feel fair.

Rei knows about this, and he soothed me from thinking that I was selfish. We sat together for ages after he found out, with him hugging me and telling me that it’s not selfish to talk about things that are bothering me. It did make me feel a lot better, but I don’t remember a lot of the nightmares now. I just know that I’m usually frightened when I wake up. There was obviously one about the accident, but then plenty more about hospitals and roads. It’s all a mess. But Rei knows how to comfort me. He woke me up last night by taking my hand and speaking to me softly. When I did wake up, he was already shuffling closer to hug me. He’s so sweet to me, I’m so happy he’s home.

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Entry #295

Alright, I’m feeling a little better today. Apologies for my previous couple of entries, it’s been a rough couple of days and I’m only just becoming readjusted now. Let me try to tell the story from my perspective, now that I’m a little more aware of how sentences work.

As you already know, we were on our way home and I had that cold I was talking about. Nothing too bad, just I kept sneezing. One of these times, I sneezed so violently that I threw my hat off of my head. Nagisa was in fits of giggles about it, and I was too until I looked up and saw that he was out on the road. I saw the car out the corner of my eye and just reacted. I remember stumbling forwards and I must have been shouting for him since Nagisa stated it in his version of the events. I hugged him and turned him, trying to put him back on the pavement. Obviously, that didn’t work. I don’t remember much after that and I woke up in the hospital confused and disorientated. 

I couldn’t talk for a while, I think I was in shock. The nurses were very kind though, they were always there to support me and help me out. Seeing Nagisa was, of course, wonderful and I was very upset when I slept through his first meeting.

Anyway, now to the present.

We’re both doing well now, although we can’t go for our walks for the moment, and we’re both finding it difficult to travel to and from places. We’re dealing with it okay though, it definitely isn’t a downside that we’re together. At the moment, I’m lying back with my head on his lap and sometimes we’ll catch each other’s eyes and smile. I asked him about the nightmares too, but I’m going to let Nagisa talk about that tomorrow. He’s alright though, I have permission to wake him in order to calm him down. 

I’d like to confirm that I had no ill feelings towards Nagisa at all, not for being in danger and not for being unable to show up either. It’s been a tough situation, but we’re both managing and we’re both managing together. It’s good to be back!

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Entry #294

Please excuse my writing if I becomes confusing. Nagisa has pointed out to me that I keep losing my focus mid sentence and I’m finding it difficult to follow the same point. That could be due to the head injury or due to my lack of sleep. Either way, please bear with me, I will try my best!

I’m feeling a lot better after a night of good sleep in my own bed, but I’m a little concerned for Nagisa. I know he blamed himself for the whole accident, but I didn’t expect for him to be so affected by it. During the night, Nagisa was tossing and turning, complaining about me and asking over and over again if I was alright, even while he was still sleeping. I think this has happened while I’ve been away, but this makes me feel even more concerned since I was not here to help out previously. I think Nagisa’s been suffering from nightmares without telling anyone this week.

I know he definitely hasn’t told you lot, I’ve seen the posts, and so I wonder if he has been keeping this bottled up. I’ll find out when I can, I don’t want him to continue upsetting himself while everything is okay. I’ll get back to you all when we have a chat about this, I’m sure everything will go fine!

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Entry #293

It’s Rei again. Hello all! I hope you’re all doing okay!

I’m back home again and it’s so good to be out of the hospital. I’ve still got my leg in a cast, though, and it hurts to stay up for too long. 

It’s really good to be home. Seeing Nagisa is my favourite part, obviously, but it’s also wonderful to be free from the single room. There’s only so much you can look at when you’re in the same room for so long. Nagisa’s flowers definitely made the room look much better!

Apologies for the short post, I’m just settling back in. There will be a much longer post tomorrow!

[thenagisaenigma]

OI REI, before drama and shit can possibly start, Nagisa's professor kept him after class because he thought something was wrong with him, so he wasn't ditching ya or anything. Nagisa isn't exactly the most..... idk how to word it but its stress shit, but I'm pretty sure while he fully knows that you were in the hospital and not coming home yesterday? Two days ago? A part of him also is used to seeing you at home and now he's kinda in a funk bible for forgetting to tell you that he loves you.

Don’t worry! I completely understood that it was both difficult for Nagisa to get around and he’s already told me about his professor. I was just happy to be home! He gave me many hugs, kisses and “I love you”s as soon as I was through the door anyway, so he definitely made up for it (not that I was mad in the first place!). Thank you very much, though, I appreciate your support!

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Entry #292

I didn’t get to see Rei. I’m super upset! My professor kept me behind after class to ask me if I was doing alright. I know it was supposed to be helpful and I know my professor was only doing what he thought was kind, but I ended up missing out on the chance to see him since I couldn’t get there.

Tomorrow. Tomorrow I’ll go and see him and that’s for sure. I can’t stand the thought of leaving him again for another day.

Another thing that’s been bothering me is that I forgot to say that I love you when I left. It’s really silly but I just wanted to

Hang on!!! I think Rei’s outside the door with a nurse, I have to go, I’ll talk to you later. I’m sorry for leaving an unfinished post but I think Rei’s home!!

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I'm glad to hear that you both enjoy the arrangement! I'm not the best at making displays and stuff, but I do know what looks nice together

It did look really wonderful! Thank you so much for your help and suggestion!! <3

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Entry #291

I wasn’t able to see Rei today, nor hear from him, due to the amount of work that I’ve had to do. I’ve been trying to get from place to place to run all of my errands, but due to my sprained ankle, it’s taken about three times longer than it should. I wasn’t even able to message him to apologise, which is upsetting. 

I’m going to see him tomorrow though, even if it means I end up missing dinner or lunch, I want to spend time with him. I don’t like that Rei’s been left all alone in the hospital. Hopefully, the flowers I got him cheer up the room a little bit, maybe they remind him of me too, so he doesn’t feel so lonely!

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What injuries does he have, if you feel up to talking about it. If it's too upsetting that's ok. Look after yourself too hun.

It’s less upsetting now that I know Rei isn’t suffering greatly from it, so I’m okay to talk about it. He has a broken leg, a lot of bruising, concussion and his head was cut when he hit the floor, hence the blood loss. In general, he just feels sleepy and aches most of the time, but the painkillers he has been given help him out a lot. 

Also, thank you very much for your concern <3 I’m doing alright!

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Entry #290

I had to wait for ages to see Rei. It didn't help that my ankle was hurting but there were no chairs out in the corridor that I could sit down on. Eventually, they let me through to where Rei was sitting up with a tray of food on his lap and a bright smile on his face. I was over to his side in seconds and I remember wishing I could have smothered him in kisses, but hospitals frighten me and I was worried that I would catch a wire or something like that. When I told Rei why I looked so hesitant, he laughed and explained that he didn't actually have any wires, they kept him in so long because they were concerned about how much blood he lost. Even though it upset me to hear his injuries, the lack of wires meant that I could actually smother him in kisses!! It felt amazing to be near him again! At one point I could feel his hands on my back and, with my eyes closed, it felt almost like we were back at home since we were so comfortable with each other again (thank you nurses for not coming in!!). He loved the flowers, they're beside his bed at the moment, but there is a chance he'll be discharged tomorrow anyway. I can't wait for him to be back home! It all seems so empty without him.

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Check with his brother if Rei is allergic to any flowers, might I suggest Daffodils with Lavender and baby's breathe? It may seem odd but it makes for a lovely arrangement, and lavender is good for relaxation. Normally I would say lillies but a lot of stuff with lillies, even the pollen, is toxic to cats.... sooo yeah.

Lilies are definitely a no go, Mimi falling ill too would be terrible! I called up his brother to ask about flowers but he doesn’t have any allergies. The arrangement of flowers you suggested looks amazing! I really love the yellow and I bet Rei would adore the lavender! I had it wrapped up in a little yellow bow too, thank you for the help!