theo

14 TW ED writer and artist

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this acc is for normal thoughts but @kystheo is where i get 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴𝔂 (/j i just have no filter over there also TW ED)

(I AM NOT HEALTHY PLS I AM MENTALLY ILL)

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bro i keep watching scary shit at like 2 am then not being able to sleep till its light out, like the game “welcome to the game” bc ill pause and read every paragraph on the websites in game and scare myself

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putting down all the stories i have in my head (1)

ok so theres one called RRTW (rodrick rules the world) and i have it pretty planned out but tbh i just dont wanna write it,, i think its too childish and overdone. it has rodrick, the mc, at like 13 or so and in his world there are powers, like magic. everyone has them and awakens them twice usually at like 9-10. rodrick did it, and first there was nothing. no powers. then the second awakening, he could heal small cuts and thats it. he couldnt do much and his parents reproduced for the purpose of having a powerful child so rodrick was their little disappointment. his (dead) older sister was super powerful and would go on goverment grade missions, and his little brother is also very strong at just 8. so hes like jealous or whatever and also blames himself for his sister’s death. ANYWAY back to the actual plot, when he wakes up at 7 like any normal day, things seem like, off. he goes outside and nobody is using their powers. did i mention this entire world thrives off magic and cant function without it? yeah so this was weird; basically everyone walking and doing stuff like a human from our world would. he goes to school and things there are even weirder; when he has to spar with someone in p.e, their powers aren’t working, but rodrick’s are. his teacher pulls him aside and cuts a small incision into her finger and has him heal it, then promptly sends him to the principal’s office.

inside the principal’s office is a ton of other kids. theres: Nicole Nakamura, Roselle something, Madison something. Zahir Trauhan, Weijun Cheng, Jaime smt, and Shelby smt. if it says “something” for their surname, that is because i forgot it, its been so long! anyway he finds out that him and that group of teenagers are the only ones with working powers and according to a prophecy they must go like, north or east i forgot to get to the great oak tree and find out whats wrong with it. the great oak tree powers the world population’s magic btw.

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i wanna make my blog’s name my pen name but i also dont want people to see me being sick when i debut

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gOOOOD ill overshare all i want then look at it a day or 20 minutes later and tell myself to shut the fuck up and delete it all. but not here. not tumblr. im keeping this shit here so i can laugh at myself in a few years

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thinking about how i got called into the office for my creative writing on how bad i want to fucking kill myself

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every cry for help i let out is in vain and i often find myself praying to every god that they’ll take pity on me end my pathetic life

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im just a stray cat that wanders through allies and digs through trash to find low quality food with holes in it. i get into fights with blind cats but they never get any scratches, it’s always me who’s hurt. sometimes a car hits me when i cross the street, and as i bleed out on the asphalt yowling with my mouth closed, everybody watches. every blind cat with two working eyes ignores my cries, because what good is a stray cat who can’t even meow?

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man nobody fuckin likes me

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i wouldnt kill myself but i don’t really want to live either. i wouldn’t be mad if tomorrow i didn’t exist. i wouldn’t be mad if one day i went to sleep and didn’t wake up. i wouldn’t be mad if a car hit me. i wouldnt be mad if something crushed my bones and snapped my neck in half. i just wouldn’t do any of that myself.

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gale prolly sleep with this

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im trying to figure out if i should have deep ass thoughts on here or post the things i think of when im taking a shit at 1 am