self-destruction

gedanken, die mich täglich begleiten. nicht relevant aber für mich wichtig irgendwo festzuhalten.

[teilzeitgeliebte]

Because in the end people will always choose that one person, that makes their heart beat even if it’s going to hurt.

[theoriginalconfusion]

on one hand i still love you on the other hand i hate you because you made me feel special but you've never felt special about me so the whole time we spent together was a lie, i guess that means my memories and my feelings for you are a lie as well. so i never loved you and never will, but what i hate about you is, that you made me feel a way noone ever did before and now i don't know if i will ever find something like this again, can i even love someone who truely loves me? i've never loved someone who loved me back and you make me doubt that i ever will. i hate the way that you pop up in my mind and make me think about you, because you ruined me and my soul, you ruined my belief in love.

[regular-love]

Good things take time.

[theoriginalconfusion]

Sometimes I ask myself why this always happens to me Again and again First of all I try so hard to not get attached, but Once I start catching feelings Once I start to open up, Show my vulnerable side, the built up walls are breaking down In this very vulnerable moment all of a sudden They decide to leave

I wonder why I truely stay to myself all the time, but maybe that’s not enough. Than I ask myself Maybe I am not enough

I’m about to lose myself again Fears and insecurities are coming right back I’m building up my walls again I’m not myself anymore So who am I kidding I keep smiling but inside I’m dying

And maybe one day, I won’t be able to do it all Again and again And I’ll stop believing Believing that someone won’t leave Believing that someone will stay

[theoriginalconfusion]

Ain't no reason

There ain’t no reason things are this way. It’s how they always been and they intend to stay. I can’t explain why we live this way. We do it every day.

Preachers on the podium speaking of saints. Prophets on the sidewalk begging for change. Old ladies laughing from the fire escape, Cursing my name.

I gotta a basket full of lemons and they all taste the same, A window and a pigeon with a broken wing, You can spend your whole life working for something, Just to have it taken away.

People walk around pushing back their debts, Wearing paychecks like necklaces and bracelets, Talking about nothing, not thinking about death, Every little heartbeat, every little breath.

People walk a tightrope on a razors edge. Carrying their hurt and hatred and weapons. It could be a bomb, or a bullet, or a pen, Or a thought, or a word, or a sentence.

There ain’t no reason things are this way. Its how they’ve always been and they intend to stay. I don’t know why I say the things I say, But I say them anyway.

But love will come set me free. Love will come set me free, I do believe. Love will come set me free, I know it will. Love will come set me free, yes.

Prison walls still standing tall. Some things never change at all. Keep on building prisons, gonna fill them all. Keep on building bombs, gonna drop them all.

Working your fingers bare to the bone. Breaking’ your back, make you sell your soul. Like a lung, it’s filled with coal, Suffocating slow.

The wind blows wild and I may move. But politicians lie and I am not fooled. You don’t need no reason or a three piece suit, To argue the truth.

The air on my skin and the world under my toes Slavery stitched into the fabric of my clothes Chaos and commotion wherever I go, Love I try to follow.

Love will come set me free Love will come set me free, I do believe Love will come set me free, I know it will Love will come set me free, yes

There ain’t no reason things are this way. Its how they’ve always been and they intend to stay. I can’t explain why we live this way. We do it every day.

[roses-inspiration-deactivated20]

Alles was eine Frau will, ist ein Mann der ihr zeigt, dass sie etwas besonderes für ihn ist und es immer sein wird.

(via roses-inspiration)

[imhierundjetzt]

Das ist das Problem mit dem Schmerz. Er verlangt, gespürt zu werden.

John Green (via in-fin-i-ty)

[failing-society]

it physically pains me to think of you loving her the way you shouldve loved me.

—(via failing-society)

[theoriginalconfusion]

Ain't no reason

There ain't no reason things are this way. It's how they always been and they intend to stay. I can't explain why we live this way. We do it every day. Preachers on the podium speaking of saints. Prophets on the sidewalk begging for change. Old ladies laughing from the fire escape, Cursing my name. I gotta a basket full of lemons and they all taste the same, A window and a pigeon with a broken wing, You can spend your whole life working for something, Just to have it taken away. People walk around pushing back their debts, Wearing paychecks like necklaces and bracelets, Talking about nothing, not thinking about death, Every little heartbeat, every little breath. People walk a tightrope on a razors edge. Carrying their hurt and hatred and weapons. It could be a bomb, or a bullet, or a pen, Or a thought, or a word, or a sentence. There ain't no reason things are this way. Its how they've always been and they intend to stay. I don't know why I say the things I say, But I say them anyway. But love will come set me free. Love will come set me free, I do believe. Love will come set me free, I know it will. Love will come set me free, yes. Prison walls still standing tall. Some things never change at all. Keep on building prisons, gonna fill them all. Keep on building bombs, gonna drop them all. Working your fingers bare to the bone. Breaking' your back, make you sell your soul. Like a lung, it's filled with coal, Suffocating slow. The wind blows wild and I may move. But politicians lie and I am not fooled. You don't need no reason or a three piece suit, To argue the truth. The air on my skin and the world under my toes Slavery stitched into the fabric of my clothes Chaos and commotion wherever I go, Love I try to follow. Love will come set me free Love will come set me free, I do believe Love will come set me free, I know it will Love will come set me free, yes There ain't no reason things are this way. Its how they've always been and they intend to stay. I can't explain why we live this way. We do it every day.

[verblasse]

[speaking-vogue]

Let us not take this planet for granted. I don’t take tonight for granted

When Leonardo Dicaprio pulls the most emotional acceptance speech at the Oscars, talks about the enviroment and makes you cry of pride (via speaking-vogue)

[theoriginalconfusion]

Sometimes I ask myself why this always happens to me Again and again First of all I try so hard to not get attached, but Once I start catching feelings Once I start to open up, Show my vulnerable side, the built up walls are breaking down In this very vulnerable moment all of a sudden They decide to leave

I wonder why I truely stay to myself all the time, but maybe that’s not enough. Than I ask myself Maybe I am not enough

I’m about to lose myself again Fears and insecurities are coming right back I’m building up my walls again I’m not myself anymore So who am I kidding I keep smiling but inside I’m dying

And maybe one day, I won’t be able to do it all Again and again And I’ll stop believing Believing that someone won’t leave Believing that someone will stay

[bornonvenus]

[vergiftete-seele-deactivated201]

Ich habe Angst positiv zu denken, aus Angst, dass sich doch wieder alles zum Negativen wendet.

… (via depressivundwertlos)

[samisoffthewall]

[theoriginalconfusion]

Sometimes I ask myself why this always happens to me Again and again First of all I try so hard to not get attached, but Once I start catching feelings Once I start to open up, Show my vulnerable side, the built up walls are breaking down In this very vulnerable moment all of a sudden They decide to leave I wonder why I truely stay to myself all the time, but maybe that's not enough. Than I ask myself Maybe I am not enough I'm about to lose myself again Fears and insecurities are coming right back I'm building up my walls again I'm not myself anymore So who am I kidding I keep smiling but inside I'm dying And maybe one day, I won't be able to do it all Again and again And I'll stop believing Believing that someone won't leave Believing that someone will stay

[hplyrikz]