Still dreaming

Status: Happy

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Almost there, youpipay <3 @zomichiii https://www.instagram.com/p/Cptbc-dvMM1/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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🛫📸🎥⚡ (at NAIA3 International Airport) https://www.instagram.com/p/CoGUtr1PRdL/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Took more than a hundred photos this weekend at Rev Major and only had very few for myself. I was in the moment for the most part. It was an unforgettable experience! Every Rev Major event is hype and keeps getting better. I miss competing but I love supporting our players more to reach their dream <3 #FightForPBE #PlaybookEsports #RevMajor2022 https://www.instagram.com/p/CisbhYHpr1T/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Starting my Day 2 Rev right. #RevMajor2022 #nozomixkevin (at SMX Convention Center Manila) https://www.instagram.com/p/CioWwJ4pasZ/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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And that's gonna be it! Had a blast in yesterday's Road to Rev Major event. Me and @tingmats were amazed by the skill level of the Pampanga FGC. It was definitely something else. Thank you to GG Truck, Gariath Concepts, SM City Pampanga, and Cyberzone for having us and to all who attended and participated. See you next in Dasmariñas! 📷 @mountaingamerph (at SM City Pampanga) https://www.instagram.com/p/CgHAUO8pppF/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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What's up, slappers? O M G. Thank you @titosteef for this wonderful bass guitar and amp. I'll definitely take good care and have a really good time! Epic! #bassguitar #slappers (at Mandaluyong) https://www.instagram.com/p/CfjgDPqJq0u/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Had a blast hosting / shoutcasting the Road to Rev Major Kick-off event together with @tingmats Thank you to all participants who gave the event a great show and the event organizers (GG Truck, Gariath Concepts, Eastwood City) for making this all possible. Offline FGC Events are all coming back! What are you waiting for? 📷 @supermaruu #Hosting #Casting #DoItAgain #RevMajor #GGTruck #GariathConcepts (at Eastwood City) https://www.instagram.com/p/CfBAUB-J8hf/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Let's fall in love all over again #stratocaster #electricguitar #guitar https://www.instagram.com/p/CdlQR2tJ-r4/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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"Love is the only word to describe what we've been through together." A lot has changed ever since. I never knew what true love was until I met you. Every day I always tell myself how lucky I am to have you. #nozomixkevin https://www.instagram.com/p/CbmEHYCJG-m/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Hitting the gutter all day #bowling (at Quezon City, Philippines) https://www.instagram.com/p/CbkCBRiJMVR/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Midnight snack? @coffeelicious14 #food (at Mandaluyong) https://www.instagram.com/kevinmando/p/CY4cUw6Pl_w/?utm_medium=tumblr

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I just can’t wait

The future has been very bright for me these past few months. I really can’t wait to have the freedom with her to enjoy limitless things. Even with a very simple life that I have, I tend to just savor moments that deprived me from my childhood. Everybody have challenges that probably questioned their existence. I have been there and I’m pretty sure somebody else did, too.

Right now, I’m just looking forward to the things I really care about. Surrounding yourself with the right people and mindset has pushed me through boundaries of what I think is being successful. Everything is coming around and pretty much all I could think about is what life has to offer.

Although I’m still anxious about what life I can give to her. Sometimes, her expectations couldn’t be met with just the things I care about. I still strive to become twice a better person or probably even more. But I’m just focused on what I love the most.

And that’s her.

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Exhausted

I’m tired of being told what to do all the time. I grew up where pretty much everything is restricted. I feel anxious and stressed all the time that I have to put up with everything being thrown at me. I tried being resilient every time I could but there are just times that I’m fed up with pretty much all the things in the world.

I acknowledge and listen to everyone if they have any feedback; taking note of every little thing that I could improve on or at least work on as I go with surviving the day without dying inside. Maybe it’s just me that’s the problem that I’ve lost my self-esteem in commanding and I just agree to everything, wishing that it will all be fine someday.

Why does it have to be like this? Where something good is happening, there’ll always be something bad that comes next as soon as you smile. Why can’t we agree to disagree? Why can’t we just talk about things and meet half-way? Why don’t expect something from you but you pretty much expect me to be a different person?

I’ve always tried to find what makes me happy. Nowadays, it’s just peace and silence. Love, on the other hand, has become really subjective. It has been different. Its course has changed from being proactive to reactive. I’m honestly getting tired of everything but we just really have to move on...

That’s the way it is...

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Day by day

Our journey towards our goals and dreams has been nothing but challenges and opportunities. Right now, with how the world is going through a lot, I tend to focus on what I can do day by day for a sustainable future.

I can say that I'm lucky to have Nozomi with me supporting what I do. It feels so refreshing to have someone who reassures you that your future is going to be filled with happiness. With all the things happening around us, I'm just glad that I'm going to be stuck with the perfect person that I'm ending up with.

Lately, I find that time goes really fast and I have been taking it for granted as to how I work. It's been working out (I hope). I just can't wait for the time that we can be together again...

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@nozomikaneko 💙💙💙 https://www.instagram.com/p/CVK78YcJryy/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Happy Happy Birthday @nozomikaneko ! To the person who made it all happen for me. Thank you for being there all the time and kept on supporting the things I do even if things get tough. Soon, we'll get to celebrate all events together again. I miss you! I owe you another cake <3 #nozomixkevin #happybirthday #lovelovelove https://www.instagram.com/p/CTMmmX9JvPd/?utm_medium=tumblr

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What?

Do you think the world owes you a favor because you think you're being 100% real and frank? Do you think your lack of assertiveness and being dominant to someone who actually cares makes you right?

The thing is, why don't you ask yourself the same question? Is it always me that causes the problem? Or problem always arises because that's what you think I did? There's a huge difference.

The problem is, you only think what you think is wrong or right. You take advantage of situations you think you have the right to. You always take the route where you being right is always the way. Otherwise, you'll just threaten me with something that I can't handle and you'll even boast about you're capable of doing something really bad as if the world owes you.

Is it really me who's toxic? Or am I just feeding on your venom?