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Humble Beginnings

My whole life orbited around you. And regardless of whether that was right or wrong, I existed that way. I felt like it was you who made me exist, the way you touched me, the way you held me, and I inflated to occupy the space I had spent my whole life shrinking from. You fit like a puzzle piece around me, holding me close until your scent was the blanket that let me fall asleep, and your touch was the warmth of my beating heart, a reminder of all that was good. You were what I had never felt. What I had always needed. And what would break me? Once I had locked myself to you I never intended on letting go, like how ivy can become parasitic to the tree it hugs so tight; I forgot to let you feed yourself first. It led to pain…that key I had fit tightly into my heart wrenched itself out, slowly, day by day, until I was left with a cavern in my chest that screamed how alone I was; every day you stepped away, thought a little less about me, loved someone else a bit more. For all I ever wanted was someone to unequivocally love me as much as I had loved them…and you gave me that, then swiftly tore it away, even worse, when I was already dying. How I managed to grasp the sinews of my body and hold them together in the light of fire and blood and tears and darkness of not waking up for weeks, I do not know. I did, but I don’t know if I ever returned to my body - dissociated now - and still, most nights, I can’t fall asleep because of you; my body has not yet healed from the shock of losing what it had finally needed after all those years of loneliness. It all happened so fast. I still crave you - and hate you.

januaryjaguar (via wordsnquotes)

500lettersforyou

I think in a sense, you always love someone, I don’t believe that any amount of distance, silence or time can break the bond between two hearts. I believe that once you find love with someone, that stays with you - forever. But the hard truth of that is, forever is infinite and that means they can treasure your love and kiss your lips until their very last breath, or.. the version we’re most familiar with, they can rip your heart right out of your chest and kick it to the curb without even giving your eyes a second look. And that my darling, is the harsh reality of love, it’s infinite. Whether you want it to be or not, it never goes away once you find it.

Excerpt of a book I’ll never write (via 500lettersforyou)

meafteryouu

And I break my own heart by always thinking about you and how I wish you would miss me too.

It’s not only your fault, is it?

listen to my new song

#SoundCloud #music #MilkieeSA

yeezusquotes

Kanye West Addresses Hip-Hop’s Homophobia In 2005

bxbs

I feel this from my soul.

therealmilkiee

Me 😔

celibacy

In the middle of sex he stopped to tell me that he loved me, then he slapped my ass and said “back to business.” I’m going to marry him.

therealmilkiee

Yasss😍

babaflex

Jay Dilla’s last show in Paris, France! I will never forget that night, the artist was close to death and he took the mic like it was the most important thing in his life! UNFORGETTABLE

therealmilkiee

😢