One very long dream

I dream a lot I love many things

[tosharchives]

i have the kind of melancholy that attracts me to large bodies of water.

[pmamtraveller]

"Beneath The Golden Willow"

Ed Perkins.

[sofnaskinder]

Pikachu doodles to destroy artblock

[naaami]

give! her! the! ketchup!!!

(commissions open for pokemon paintings)

[thereissomethinginthesky]

I am trying to reconnect with the concept of ‘friends’ after it was getting lost under ‘work’, ‘dog’ and ‘partner’. I am talking to 5 friends at once - maybe a bit ambitious for someone who is restarting but hear me out. I have sealed the deal with 3 friends. 2 of them I have made weekend plans for the next two Saturdays and then another lunch plans this week with potential follow up outings. 3 out of the 5 had a reached out to me! It was like God’s plan. One of them, I had bumped into one of them in Kinokuniya. when I dared to break the mould and hang out with one of my friends. Then months later God planned another seed on his side and he stumbled across something that remind of me and that’s when he reached out. The other random contacted me? It’s must have been more than 10 years now. I met him when I was doing university exchange in japan. I tried to speak to him in Japanese. And then my third friend, I bumped into an Indonesia restaurant. I came back from Bali and a colleague had told me to continue the feeling so I decided to get Indonesia food. Everything is connected.

[miamlsunshine]

[mollybeenoel]

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[thereissomethinginthesky]

I feel anxious to go to sleep because when I wake up it will be a new day and I will have to go to work

[thereissomethinginthesky]

I miss the weekend. I love being with my family.

[thereissomethinginthesky]

It’s 3:15am I can’t sleep. Thinking about work. See my dog on couch. I touch her paw. I think I annoyed her. But she nudges her head to my hand. I squeeze her hairs on her head like a thick rich carpet. I lay my head on her chest. I listen to her heart beat 💓

[thereissomethinginthesky]

I can feel myself aging. I have reclining hairline on my left which makes for a bald triangle. I knew it but didn’t know how bad it was until I took a photo… i was with my family and partner on a start of year road trip to the mountains. I thought it would be fun to take at the same spot I did with friends that I no longer talk to now. I remember it being autumn back then many years ago and it’s summer of 2024.

I saw the photo and saw how obvious it was. I feel the obvious. I feel that spot getting balder and balder whenever I try to push myself to give a little more… give a little bit more to work, give a little bit more to my relationship, give a little bit more to studies, give a little bit more to giving a little bit more.. I tell myself it’s ok. It will be over. But I brushed my hair this morning and out came a sheet of black hair.

[thereissomethinginthesky]

I fought and I fought and soon my body gave up

[thereissomethinginthesky]

I have been listening to podcast about Russell Brand and the allegations against him. Thank god. It’s finally coming out. It’s so messed up that a few years ago, his behaviour was ok. It was funny. The minority who thought it wasn’t ok, was thought to be ‘too serious’. Thank god it’s coming out.

[thereissomethinginthesky]

I came back from Korea a week ago. I forgot what’s it’s like to not have financial goals, not be dictated by office politics and not to think so hard about the future. I was reminded of what it is like to afford things, to take care of myself, having fun, being part of 21st century participating in shopping and trends. I loved being with my baby baby 💓

[thereissomethinginthesky]

I have been feeling anxiety and unsafe lately. I am being left out at work. Comfort food has gotten to a new level for me. It’s not just about food but the feelings I get when I eat the food. I ate chicken and salty fish fried rice yesterday. It was my dad’s birthday and when went to the usual - the Hong Kong ‘cafe’.

He said I chose my dish well. I usually don’t choose chicken and salty fish fried rice. I usually go for my crispy chicken with tomato rice but something pulled me to this dish. When the dish arrived, my dad didn’t even ask me if he could have some. He just scooped a whole heap into his spoon. I took my first bite. It was exactly like my grandma’s. I haven’t eaten the dish for approximately 4years now since she passed away, maybe longer since she did not live with us in her final years. I didn’t even know the dish had a name.

[thereissomethinginthesky]

I am I officially old now? Maybe because it was covid and not going out but when I go to the city I see all the uni kids hanging out in big groups. I feel kinda envious. I was once one of them.

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