the seas, or maria

//words collected//

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want to remember wish memory held tightly the time spent with you

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inside silent screams breaking over and over then tears, and more tears

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rotating feelings anger, sadness, exhaustion what you left me with

[theseasormaria]

feels like nothing left wide awake 4 AM thoughts trying to let go

[theseasormaria]

an August full moon face the fears and trust yourself let love be your guide

[theseasormaria]

anniversary only I will remember what it meant to me

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you didn’t have to break what was left of my heart leave me more broken

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wish I could tell you the words my heart is screaming all the love and pain

[theseasormaria]

you will heal your heart open your heart even more still believe in love

[theseasormaria]

an early morning the missing you wakes me up how the day begins

[theseasormaria]

will not fight to stay prove your worth, that you matter to them, anyone

[theseasormaria]

it was hard to trust the voice deep inside that said it would be ok

[theseasormaria]

pain has eclipsed me staying low in the shadows some days nothing helps

[theseasormaria]

we were not remnants leftovers from other's pain we were always whole

[theseasormaria]

to feel something else not just the pain all the time emotional drain

[theseasormaria]

another morning anger, sadness for breakfast too many feelings

[theseasormaria]

stayed in the darkness forgot who I used to be when I still felt things