I don't know if any of you have actually unfollowed Marina's account but I am not deleting it and nor will it suddenly become another character's account. I just wanted to say I'm sorry, I did not want to give Marina up nor did I give her up because I got bored with her or anything like that. Really she was my favourite to play. Holden is emotionally draining, some of the things I have to write for him leaving me feeling really uncomfortable and even though I laugh it off really it's upsetting. Marina was a nice break from having to imagine all the fucked up things Holden does in my head and trying to describe them, watching videos, reading books in which the same things happen. Eventually it just makes you feel like shit which is why on occasion I am not on his account for days at a time, he's an over emotional fucked up guy.
Still it has been decided that I have been playing Marina inaccurately. I was given the choice of fixing the list of things inaccurate about her or giving her up and auditioning for someone else more like how I am playing her. I am not auditioning for someone else. Personally I have felt very unwelcomed lately and how this was handled has just made me feel even worse. I am not going to fight it though. That would just cause people to get into fights and it would be ridiculous. So I will not be on for a while. I was in tears over this last night and have been in tears over other things that have happened in the last month or so. It is not everyone.
I'm really sorry to Ash mostly about this because she has taken up Violet and I really just can't stand to come on, I will try every so often to get Violen replies done but just seeing the 'unfollow marina lisbon' on the main and knowing how everything has been lately just makes me sick.
Still the main point of this is that I just wanted to apologise to everyone who I've messed up with this. Because of how inaccurately I have played her all the things I have done with her should be forgotten and not asked of the next person to play her to be continued on. Marina now never dated Percy, never went to Rehab, never fought with Tessa about Angus, never went to Prom with Mason, never moved in with Stef, never was friends with any of the Greasers or anyone really, nothing on my bio should be expected of the next person to be continued. These things about her would be inaccurate to the list I was given and I think it would be completely unfair to make the next person to play her have to carry them on.
I am really really sorry. I feel like the worst person to have messed people over.














