Angle of Inclination

Jackson Kennedy "There is something miraculous in the way the years wash away your evidence, first you, then your friends and family, then the descendants who remember your face, until you aren't even a memory, you're only carbon, no greater than your atoms, and time will divide them as well."

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

Dad?

[johnny-kennedy]

Huh? No…I’m just…resting my eyes…what’s the matter son?

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

...

[Jackson moved into the tent and sat down in one of the corners of the tent, glancing down at his hands, he began.]

..I'm sorry I said I wished you weren't alive and mom was here instead of you... I was just angry because I can't do anything you need me to do right and I feel useless... Everyone's got something they can do and my.. my skill-set doesn't doesn't.. apply into anything anymore.. I didn't mean it though... I'm glad I've got.. you.

[He looked up but restrained himself from hugging his father knowing that the man would only probably view it as a sign of weakness.]

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

Dad?

Are you asleep?

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

I'm so tired.

[johnny-kennedy]

Well looks like you’re shit outta luck kid because mom’s not here… and she’s never coming back.

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

I'm so tired.

[johnny-kennedy]

Watch your god damn tone with me boy. You should learn to show me some fucking respect. I’m your father. You will do as I say and if I tell you to get your shit together you will GOD DAMN DO IT! I’m GLAD you’re sleeping in the RV tonight I don’t even want to look at your right now.

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

Well, I don't want to see you either! I wish mom was here instead of you!

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

I'm so tired.

[johnny-kennedy]

I don’t know Jackson? DO YOU? I feel like I shouldn’t have to be asking you this question right now….

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

How can you say that? You really think that, don't you?

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

I'm so tired.

[johnny-kennedy]

It’s not that you CAN’T do these things Jackson it’s that you don’t TRY. If you put your mind to it, or maybe put a little effort in every once in a while then you’d be able to do thing but you don’t, You just give up. You’re quitter. You’re my god damn son, you should POSSESS the ability to be able to do these things. I try my best with your Jackson but I swear some times it’s like pulling god damn teeth!

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

You think I don't try?

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

I'm so tired.

[johnny-kennedy]

Well I just like to make sure that you know. Everyone here has to do their part for the camp. I’m not trying to be mean to you Jackson, I say the same thing to everyone here. And book smarts won’t get you anywhere here boy.

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

I know! I KNOW! You keep telling me, dad! I know! I'm sorry I can't run as fast as you or jump two feet in the air or even hunt for a goddamn wild animal! Book smarts is all I have so frankly, when you push me to do this I'm at a loss but I try anyway. And often fail. Maybe that's why I'm not sleeping well lately, because I just keep on failing every stupid task you give me!

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

I'm so tired.

[little-charlie-rose]

Well, I would think so. It’s too bad we don’t have tea, that’s what I used to when I couldn’t sleep.

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

Tea is amazing and I do miss it lots. If I were a bit more... I don't know, skilled... I'd try and hunt down some tea.

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

I'm so tired.

[ikemonroe]

I don’t know…maybe? I should probably try and go to the doctor, yeah? -laughs- I count whatever is I can think of and that never works for me. I guess I will try and do it the old way where I stay up a long amount of hours and make myself exhausted. So i can just pass out. 

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

Or maybe you should try company. I heard that sometimes it helps to have someone with you. A friend or whoever... It's comforting, I guess.

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

I'm so tired.

[noah-cassel-deactivated20140525]

Can’t sleep?

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

Yeah, I guess I haven't been getting as much sleep.

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

I'm so tired.

[dead-runner]

Well, you’re kind of small, Jackson. I wouldn’t worry about it. I’m absolutely sure. You stay here for the next couple of nights, okay?

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

Thank you. My dad.. he just, kind of makes me nervous. I feel like I'm not doing enough, and he's always running around doing a million things. You know?

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

I'm so tired.

[johnny-kennedy]

It matters because I want you to be spending your time productively. Not wasting it on pointless activities. You know we all have to pull our weight equally around here Jackson.

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

You don't think I know that? You've been drilling it into my head ever since we left mom and Jasmine behind.

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

I'm so tired.

[little-charlie-rose]

Hmm… Have you not been sleeping well?

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

I haven't been getting as much sleep. That might be it.

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

I'm so tired.

[johnny-kennedy]

Well if you’re not reading then…

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

What does it matter?

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

I'm so tired.

[noah-cassel-deactivated20140525]

What feeling?

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

Of just.. general restlessness.

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

I'm so tired.

[ikemonroe]

I really don’t know. After a long night of night watching I can usually fall asleep like a baby but I haven’t been for the past couple nights. It’s really starting to get on my nerves. 

That actress chick…she’s got some great stuff, man. I haven’t done my hair in a long time, and she offered.

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

Maybe you've developed insomnia. That can't be good. Did you try counting sheep and all that?

That's cool. It suits you.

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

I'm so tired.

[dead-runner]

Maybe you should attempt to get some restful sleep and you’re probably not getting that in the tent. You can sleep on the RV.

[thesquarerootofjackson-blog]

Are you sure? I don't want to.. take up space and stuff.