Devious Intent
It seems my sensitive nature has changed. I find myself lusting after a married woman who is ready to cave to mine and hers carnal desires. So much for true love and seeking the right way. I seem to have lost all interest in that path. Lust is more fun anyways. I seem to thrive best pursuing what I want, regardless of how sinful or against my old beliefs it is. I really seemed to have changed into this person whom only desires whatever it is they want, despite any moral shortcomings. I know that I'm using this girl, I have no intentions of stealing her completely, but I do love how easy it still is to cause someone to cave on their foundation for me. Some things never change. I highly doubt true love is attainable for a majority of relationships around my age anyways. After having mine robbed, there's only one thing to do; follow the trend and enjoy the ride. I do enjoy the thought of borrowing this girl. It reminds me of no matter how deeply someone claims to care about someone, they're just that much easier to bend to your will. I'm sure this is what happened to the woman who claimed I was her everything as well. Those who think they're in love are just obsessed until something interesting to them pops up in their life. It's not possible to really love someone young, only to obsess over fantasy. I break all the rules of relationships now, knowing that if there really is a woman who is that endearing to her committed relationship, I'll be proved wrong. It seems however, everyone has their secrets. I enjoy doing these things, chaos is fun and a risk worth everything, yet nothing at the same time. It's incredibly hollow, yet satisfying in the moment. Oh well, no one said the road to hell wasnt enjoyable, despite the looming end that can be seen.
