okay I know I said in my last post I was retiring this blog offically and I am I swear this IS the last post. I was just looking through my archives back in 2013 shit like that. Its crazy how much things have changed. Its crazy how much my relationships have changed. Its crazy how things are never how I would have ever guessed. Because I’m extremely cliche and I’ve realized how much I love to look back on things and see where my emotions are at certain points of my life, this blog is going out with a bang. So here ya go you 1k followers that don’t actually care about my rambly posts anymore...
As hard as change is, I know its good for me. Over the past couple of weeks I’ve started to work towards being someone I actually want to be. Before then, I was always searching for acceptance from other people. Even when I tried so hard not to, I was. I could not be happy without that acceptance. But now, I’m learning to accept myself for who I am, and I’ve realized the more confident and accepting the more I feel confident around other people. In the past couple weeks, I’ve tried so many new things, met so many new people, and stepped out of my comfort zone. I want to continue this habit into the new school year, which I get to start in less than 20 days. I’m going to put everything I have into my RA position. I’ve recently learned some valuable lessons that I cannot wait to exemplify to my residents through my actions. I’ve recently begun focusing on fitness in a level I never have before. I want to become that competitive confident athlete my high school self could never imagine myself as. I want to play more inter murals and become more focused on frisbee. I want to get out as much as I can from my business fraternity. I want to strengthen the already solid friendships I began to develop last year. I want to meet new people. I want to be continue to be known for my positive spirit and noted that I tend to always be smiling. I want to leave the legacy I intended to. I cannot wait for all that the rest of 2015 brings, I know its going to be good. I want to continue to focus on myself and my own confidence. I want to take more risks, have more lunch and coffee dates, go on more adventures. I want to continue to live in the moment. I recently deleted all of my social media for the duration of my time spent in New England. I’ve realized how much happier I am when I’m not caught up in everyone else's lives. Obviously I want to be involved in my friends lives, but not to the extent that it hinders me from focusing on me. But ya know major shoutout to the tumblr for helping me get through highschool, for being a creative outlet and a safe place. However, its no longer a safeplace, its become toxic to me and often shuts down on my personal happiness. So to any of you followers that arent actually reading this happen to find my new blog, props to you I’m excited to start a new journey with you random internet people I interact with my reblogging and liking your posts? Idk the internets kinda weird but kinda good at the same time. I don’t think I’m even making sense anymore. I”m really tired. Good night world sleep tight, and to future liv who’s probably reading this post a couple months from now, you rock xoxoxoÂ
