after watching Zhen Huan, Ruyi and Yanxi I get Ruyi's exhaustion on such a fundamental level because what the fuck is the point of protecting yourself from schemers and accusers? As soon as one of them loses influence/dies another crops up again. The emperor is guilt tripped into having basic trust in you for a blissful 1 month before he's back to his usual bullshit. Rinse and repeat until the dude kicks the bucket or get killed by one of you. You desperately wrangle you or your ally's kid onto the throne to make sure the new emperor isn't someone out to make your life hell as a result of generational grudges. You then watch the new emperor become a piece of shit reminiscent of your toxic husband as every human weakness gets exacerbated into a moral failing by his environment. You spend the rest of your days trapped in the forbidden city surveying the dozens of new gen harem women with a watchful eye while your relationship with your children potentially falls apart around you. you die of old age in a harem that's by this time became a train wreck, half a dozen grandkids prematurely in the grave, man on the throne completely unrecognisable to you

















