My Memory Vault

Carissa, 23, and I will conquer the world.

[theunsayable]

You never have to apologize for being yourself. If you ever do, why?

[theunsayable]

Nobody will ever really understand.

and that's okay.

[theunsayable]

someone who understands your love language >

[theunsayable]

I love me better now.

[theunsayable]

Ever look at someone and think, "oh that's why."

[remanence-of-love]

[theunsayable]

No words. Just hands that will hold you real close, eyes that won't look away. Company that is as warm as this cup of coffee that doesn't taste the same. This one's sweet, not bitter. Just how I like it. Conversations that we do not want to end and just lazy afternoons we want to remember. I don't know about you, but, I'll hold yours once I'm ready. For now, here's your cup of coffee. 🐻

[theunsayable]

Imagine meeting someone who listens. Imagine being looked at like you're the only one he could see. Imagine being prayed for. Imagine being thought of. Imagine being the happiest and by that I meant the genuine kind that makes you look forward to every little petty thing. Just imagine.

I finally have that.

Now it makes sense why it had to hurt that much witht hem. Now the sleepless nights are early goodmornings and the painful goodbye's are genuine hello's and the pain in the heart are now butterflies in my stomach.

I prayed for this. I prayed for you. It was answered. Doesn't matter if it took you so long 🌙

[theunsayable]

Glad you came.

[theunsayable]

I knew I didn't love you anymore cause when I looked at him I did not think of you. When he looked at me, I did not think of you. When he brushed his fingers against my hair, I did not think of you and oh if I only knew I'd be looked at this way, I wouldn't have thought I could afford to lose you.

and the days string along, and you're still gone and he's here and who would've thought I deserved to be this happy. Who would've thought I could?

[theunsayable]

Happy that you are.

Love, you deserve the world. You deserve everything that isn't me.

And that is why I let you go.

[theunsayable]

Let me lose you one more time.

Just one last time.

Let me breathe in the reality that we tried and we failed. Let me feel you slipping through my fingers and let me ask, is this what we fought for?

Is this how easy people change their minds? Their hearts?

[theunsayable]

as I close my eyes tonight, my heart is a less heavy. My mind is clearer and it took me awhile to realize that it was only heavy because you were there and it wasn't clear because you messed up my mind but now that I'm no longer in love with you, my heart isn't heavy anymore, not angry anymore.

I close my eyes and I still do not miss you and I remember this was the day I feared the most but right now I feel like this was the day I have been dreaming of.

[theunsayable]

Not again.

[sourgum]

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[mugrosopirata]

[theunsayable]

Parts of me you cannot unsee. Parts of me that you will see in her presence. Remnants. Parts of me that won't unfold with anybody else's. Parts of me you will keep looking for and cannot be found. Parts of me I will never share. Parts of that will always be held closer to my heart. Parts of me you can never have. NEVER AGAIN.