Ponderings and Such @thewildcrafter - Tumblr Blog

It’s been a rainy, overcast Beltane and the “bonfire” in my soul is low. I’ve always struggled with wanting my spirituality to soothe my depression, but usually my depression just makes me feel lousy about my spirituality on top of other things. I’m ready for dull days to be over but I’m also trying to learn to sit in the uncomfortable- the dullness, irritability, apathy. While the earth turns to the season of summer, my life is turning to autumn. I feel out of step, but I’m trying to learn not to rush to fix those feelings.

#beltane #spirituality #life journey

New spreads in my junk journal grimoire

#junk journal grimoire #junk journal #paganism #witchy things #every day witch #spirituality #mini art

I’ve been trying to make more time for the outdoors. My mother was an amazing gardener but I didn’t inherit her inherent knack for greenery. I’ve planted a little wildflower bed as a small first step to a pollinator garden - but my propensity to commit houseplant murder has me uneasy.

It’s been hard to seek joy the past few weeks. Between health problems and the constant state of existential dread courtesy of world leaders, it’s been hard to stay out of bed. I feel like I have to pull joy out of little moments that are just too few and far between. So I’m hoping digging in the dirt will help.

#gardening #nature #outdoors #spirituality

I’ve been reading Dostoevsky’s “The Idiot,” which has led me into doing a little research on Eastern Orthodox Christianity. Coming from the Bible Belt of the American South, my knowledge is pretty limited. One thing that I came across that I really liked was Mary Magdalene being called “Equal of the Apostles.” Having clawed myself away from the misogyny of my old Baptist faith, the idea of Mary Magdalene being viewed not just positively but as an equal to the Boys Club that is the Twelve is just really refreshing.

#mary magdalene #spirituality #religious trauma #religious thoughts #fyodor dosteovsky #the idiot #novels #eastern orthodoxy

Same sky, different sky.

Drove across the southeast the other day. Enjoy some sky pics.

#nature photography #sky photography

Ostara skies. Beautiful day to celebrate the arrival of spring.

#ostara #wheel of the year #nature #nature photography #outdoors #paganism

My Imbolc doodle stitch is complete. I love how it turned out.

#embroidery #doodle stitch #doodle embroidery #yarn art

Embrace the messy.

I’ve always struggled with trying to make an orderly and neat spiritual practice, but my own limitations (chronic low energy, apathy, general untidiness) have wrecked my attempts at a photogenic practice. Which ultimately is for my own good. It prevents me from being performative which as a people pleaser can be my default setting.

So if you have a messy, crafty, sloppy spiritual practice that’s not lovely and perfect lines, then you are not alone.

#messy spirituality #paganism #witchy things #junk journal #junk journal grimoire #spiritual crafting #spirituality