nevermore // emmeline
Emmeline’s absence had been quelled as much in frustration as it had been in sorrow. Having never been apart for more than a few days in the duration of their lives since the circumstances of their acquaintance, to have her leave - ever the suddenly - created a jolting hole in her life. It was one impossible to replace. Despite the black anger that coiled within her body, she had missed her friend - ever concerned for her welfare. She supposed that was what happened with the lines between friend and a family like figure were blurred, experiences drawing them together, then driving them apart. You could be mad at them - but until you knew they were safe, it was hard to let the rage manifest.
Well, Emmeline had stepped back into camp last night. And now, she was ready to strike out.
The point of her frustration came from Emmeline’s act, which she only could have termed as ignorant. Everyone knew that in times such as these, it was important to say your goodbyes - never sure when that loved one might return. That was not the barrier Emmeline had chosen to break, but the way in which they had chosen to go about it. There were hugs, there were tears springing to Mary’s eyes as she watched their figure grow smaller and smaller, there was talk of a goodbye, a cemented finality that no one could be sure if would be shattered or not. These were desperate times and uncertainty clung to them all like a beast. No. Emmeline had simply chosen to remove her from Guard duty without a word and not inform her of the fact. Realisation had only sprung as she approached Viviennes hut and found its way barred. You’re not on duty. Not ever. Those words had stung.
She supposed the real wound came from the perception of weakness. Mary knew it was a commonly held one, that she needed to be protected, shielded from any and all forms of darkness. What was she supposed to believe, that Vivienne was going to hurt her? The woman didn’t possess a wand. And Mary was not the sheep that had trudged her way up to the Scottish highlands, she was a wolf reborn - even if she had no sense of the matter yet. A few weeks ago, she never would have confronted Emmeline like this - simply swallowing her doubts. Now, she hungered for an arguments, for raised voices - and hurt.
As daybreak waited, so did Mary. It wasn’t as if her day was filled by other worthwhile activities. No. Some got to ward, others were guards - and she just the girl who cooked and cleaned. It sometimes felt as if she did not come to life until the moon replaced the sun and shadows haunted the Port. It sometimes felt as if she was becoming a creature who only revealed itself at night - someone who belonged to such darkness. Pushing such thoughts away, her eyes turned up to Emmeline’s cottage - waiting. Eventually, her patience was rewarded, her figure making its way down the stairs and outside onto the porch.
“Long time no see.” Keeping her voice even was harder than she thought it would be, only able to unleash her inner frustrations now after days of letting them fester and grow. “I heard you got back last night.” Could this be what their friendship had been diminished to?
The sun was just beginning to peak out over the water’s edge, the line that separated the heavens from the sea ready to burn everything it touched, a stark difference from the night sky that had greeted Emmeline’s arrival just hours ago. Port Montrose would be stirring soon and all Emmeline wanted was to lay down to sleep before the regular duties of the community they called home roused them once more.
Heavy feet followed the familiar path towards Cottage Four. Towards bed.
The small collection cotton sacks that Emmeline called a pillow was too soft under their head. The well worn mattress they had managed to scrounge up was not the same as the hard ground they had called their bed for the last couple weeks. Though exhausted sleep eluded Emmeline, their surroundings familiar but too comfortable. To be comfortable while they slept was to invite the nightmares and it seemed their time away had not changed this.
With a sigh Emmeline pushed themself out of bed, notebook in hand, and made a slow beeline for the front door. If they couldn’t sleep they’d at least review the notes they’d taken while they were away. It was the familiar voice that pulled Emmeline’s beyond the dilapidated porch and brought a smile to their face.
“Mary!” The joy in Emmeline’s voice was genuine as they approached their friend and took both of her hands in their own. Idly Emmeline’s thumb traced over the back of Mary’s hand, admiring the contrast between the two tones. “Yes, very late last night, technically early this morning.” Emmeline confirmed with a nod as they looked up into Mary’s face.
“I missed you.”












