ME.

I'm done, this is who I am

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IF I die

Dear to who reads this, 

know i lived a harsh life. a life filled with love, hate, and pain. but thats not why I'm here to talk about. I'm here to talk about a love. 

i wonder how people you love can lie to your face and now i know. they just do it. 

you do things for the people you love for a reason, but at the end your worth is nothing. 

so if I die, it won't mean a thing. 

its crazy when u think of death, all of these good memories start coming in. 

12/30/17

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did i fall in love with you? 

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Lie.

its coming to kill me. 

ever time you lie, its another knife stabbing me. Soon I will be all bled out with nothing left to feel. 

im in pain. 

whats the point? why do the things you know will hurt me? 

why?

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from the vault

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am i the dark one letting you go and move on. 

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All of the sunsets that I took that inspired me to enjoy them the way you did.

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HIM.

I met the greatest person in the world, he is my best friend and my other half. He made me shine, he made me laugh, he made me feel silly all the time. This great person's name is Joel. There are things that happen and we always wonder why they do, but all we can do it move on. Tonight I let the person I care so much about go. I couldn't be anymore happier to end it the way it did. But I believe in faith, I believe that maybe we can meet again and fall in love, maybe. All I know right now though, is I love him. I think I will always love him.

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Our Story

When I first saw you, I saw how cheerful and energetic you were. I told myself, “ I want to be his friend and be like him.” Eventually I did. 

The most amazing memories I will cherish is...

1. Coming back from lunch, we turned up formation by beyonce and you got on top and i got on your hood and kian, peyton and i, all started jamming out. 

2. The time when we went to the soccer game at Allen. God damn it was fucken cold, but hey that was the time we learned stuff about each other. 

3. When we went to that burger place. That was literally the coolest place ever. We could not stop laughing because I was so bad at horseshoe. 

4. The time when we were coming back from your choir banquet and we went through a tunnel so I stuck half of my body out. I gave you a little heart attack, but that moment, I felt so free. Like nobody could stop me.

5. May 23, the day we agreed, “ yeah we like each other.” I remember we got out of my car and you walked to my side. I was holding your hands and i was looking down. We made some small talks and then we both asked each other “so what are we?” There we admitted me like each other and started dating. Right in the moment, I looked into your eyes and then we slowly leaned in and kissed each other. That first kiss was the most magical feeling I’ve felt.

6. The night when you come back one weekend and we were watching the starts. We were talking about stars and then we saw a shooting star. We got silent, well i did, then you leaned in and then it was another magical moment. Every moment I was with you, it brought a wonderful feeling.

These memories may be small or big but they will be something I can never forget.

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REASONS.

There’s always a reason why things happen. Whether is the good or the bad. Things happen .

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CLINGY

Today I was told that I'm one of those clingy girlfriends. Am I really? I guess I can't help myself loving you but sadly today is one of those night that I'll cry myself to sleep. I want you, I miss you, I need you 😪

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LOVING.

Loving someone is a lot of work, but when you find that one person, loving them is worth it...No matter the situation. It's called fighting for something or someone you deeply long for.

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You can only keep things to yourself for a certain amount of time till you can't handle it anymore....

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....

I want you always. I will never stop wanting you, but here's my problem. I feel like I want you to much. I need you always and when I don't talk to you, I have to be strong. I'm not trying to be that over power girlfriend but I can't help it. I keep everything to myself because I fear that when I do say something you might leave. I keep it to myself and cry myself to sleep, because I don't know what else to do with that feeling. I'm not trying to be that girlfriend who: Checks on you every second. Track you. Have you hang out with me and not your friends. Tell you, you can't do stuff. OR Ask you, it's me or your friends. I hate people like that because one I know were it ends up. It ends up in an unhappy break up. But I can't help it. I care so much, that sometimes it hurts. I.... feel... like... I've never loved anybody so much till you.... and I'm scared of loosing you for being to much.

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"Love is when all your happiness, and all your sadness and all of your feelings are dependent on another person..." So I love you ;)

U just can't be replaced-gnash

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How do you love someone so much? "My heart skips a beat Every time we meet. My smile spreading from cheek to cheek. You kiss me And it makes me weak."

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FRIENDS.

It's always nice to have someone who understands and is going through the same thing as you. When both of y'all feel down, y'all are there to help each other. Thank you Ariel for being there.