Daddy

Sw: 215 | Cw: 211.4 | Gw: 160 | Ugw: 140

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

[thick-and-bone-s]

fall would be so much easier if i were small

[thick-and-bone-s]

trying to decide if i’ve really have been gay this whole time or if my ed has fked up how i feel about female bodies

do i wanna fck? do i wanna be?

crisis

[freeat55]

Why I want to be thin:

So that my face shape changes from egg to a sharper outline.

So that I can wear old clothes that got too tight on me.

So that I can eat what I want without judgement from others.

So that I can feel more confident.

So that I can take up less space.

So that clothes feel baggy on me and not tighten on my fat.

So that I have less or no cellulite.

So that I can wear shorts for the first time in years without feeling self-conscious.

So that I can run and be active in public.

So that I can believe guys when they say they like me.

So that I can put up my hair because my head won't look too small with my body.

So that I can buy clothes I felt too insecure to wear.

So that my friends will take pictures with me.

So that I don't stick out in my friendship groups.

So that I stop being compared to skinnier siblingsm

So that I don't sweat so much.

So that I can wear even bad clothes and still look nice.

So that I don't have to eat in a deficit anymore and can eat at maintenance calories.

So that I can go outside without being paranoid about people's stares.

So that I can slouch in public and not have my stomach stick out.

So that I at least have a nice body if I don't have a nice face.

So that I can finally delete this tumblr one day because I won't need it anymore.

[godshideouscreation]

i hate myself and want to die but also i am so full of love and i want to spread light but i’m tired of the two conflicting versions of myself fighting. 

[memeuplift]

[thick-and-bone-s]

oh to look dainty in baggy clothes instead of like a blob

[thick-and-bone-s]

I genuinely feel like people would like me better if i were skinny, like the more i gained the less people wanted to associate themselves with me

and you ask me why i hate myself?

[thick-and-bone-s]

i promised myself i was never going to go over 200lbs, then i got happy and thought i recovered

what a mistake

[thick-and-bone-s]

The only thing i actually want for my birthday is to not hate myself when i look in the mirror

but is it really my birthday if i don’t cry over how fat i’ve gotten over the years?

[prisoninq]

why cant i lose weight as easily as i lose friends

[sadgirsstuff]

Thinspo

[thick-and-bone-s]

i am so fucking sad right now everything is collapsing i don’t know what i’m supposed to do i want everything to end now so i don’t have to deal with tomorrow

[b30mgyu]

my ed: youre fat so stop eating okay 😘😘

also my ed: youre already fat so just eat more it doesn’t matter anymore 😐

[thick-and-bone-s]

i wish i could eat an ice cream sandwich without the calories 😀🔫

[ck-eletoc]

[dedfairyboy]

reblog if you’re constantly torn between wanting to say fuck it and eat whatever you want and wanting to starve yourself till you die