lucy 🐰

SW/ 179.7 CW/ 138.0 GW/ 120.0 5’7. not pro anything. trying to be happier, trying to recover. stay safe babes.

[thinglore]

guess who needs to get her self control back?

[chloeeatsfood-deactivated201905]

Food Rule & Rituals

Eat only half food on the plate

Use small plates

Never drink calories

Drink 1 big cup of water before a meal

Eat the veggies only

Cut food into pieces

Look at the calories number

Walk for 1 hour after a meal

No snacks

Drink after 3 bites of food

Eat in your room

Hide the food you didn’t eat

Chew at least 20 times

Touch your stomach to feel if it’s expanding

Watch fat people eat or look at disgusting food when you eat to not eat

AM I THE ONLY ONE THAT FEELS LIKE I CAN’T BREAK ANY OF THESE?!

[thinsundays-depressedmondays]

⭐️What I learned about fasting.

Ahh, fasting! Recently I’ve fasted for 2-3 days and then liquid fasted for the rest of the week and here is what i found out about fasting that lasts more than 24h.

✨When u fast for more than 24h the morning after ur stomach looks so flat.

🍁The next morning your stomach will growl loud enough for your whole classroom to hear including that cute guy you kinda like.

✨You’ll not be that hungry anymore.

🍁You won’t be hungry because of the nausea and headache.

✨Your skin will look pretty and pale.

🍁The circles around your eyes will grow darker and become steeper.

✨Your senses will heighten.

🍁Most sounds will irritate you, most scents will make you nauseous.

✨You’ll feel satisfied because ur losing weight.

🍁You’ll be to tired to even care by the end of it.

✨You’ll be happy.

🍁You’ll want more.

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🌼Everything has pros and cons, I can’t tell anyone which one weights the most thats your decision.

💕Stay safe everyone💕

[starving-but-thin]

✨Curvy thinspo✨

- for those of us that cannot lose their curves no matter how much they starve (i.e. me lol)

[350cals]

Eating disorders are a really really dark place.

[delicatee-jiminn]

i really really want to recover

but i really really want to be skinny

… do you see the problem?

[absent-ghost]

[thinglore]

Update: 1/19/19

I’ve been trying to recover. I’ve been eating so much & I guess I’ve been more alive. I’ve been more energetic and I don’t feel so weak and depressed. I love feeling happy but I’m terrified to step on the scale because I know I gained :/ but like three months ago I was attempting to try on a pair of my younger sister’s blue jean shorts on (she’s super skinny & I think the shorts are a size 6?) and they wouldn’t even go up my thighs. Tonight I tried them on again and they fit me so well. Like I was shook,, I didn’t realize I’ve lost so much weight.

But even when I feel happier now and trying to recover, these fucking thoughts won’t leave. The little voice in the back of my head that makes remarks everytime I eat or see my reflection, it’s still there. I want them to leave. I pray about it and I pray that I can feel better & see myself differently than I do now, but I’m definitely not as happy as I want to be :(

I really really hate my body. I want to keep losing weight but in a better way because being miserable and all absolutely sucks and I ain’t about that life !! I guess I’m going to start exercising more and continue moderating what I eat & eat healthy.

Im terrified to step on the scale. I know I gained from a week of eating “normally.” I really fucking need to get fit before next school year. Recovery is a journey I’m about to take. Fuck eating disorders. Yeah I still have bad eating habits. Yes I still have terrible thoughts. Yes I’m really fucking hungry, I’m human.

Im tired of being sick and I’m sick of being tired.

I think last weekend was my wake up call from God to recover.

I think my mom threatening to send me to a mental hospital was my wake up call.

I don’t know what to do. I want to be happy.

Sorry for ranting :(

[kpopandbones]

When someone tells you that you’re just doing it for attention

[itsnoahmatthews]

Welcome back piggie,

we missed you.

Workout routine:

•30 bicycles

•30 push ups

•50 squats

•60 crunches

•20 leg lifts (each leg)

•100 sit ups

•20 lunges (each side)

•2 min plank (cry)

•1 min wall sit

Walking:

At least 5500 steps

Workouts are to be finished after every meal I don’t give a shit if you’re dying.

[aesthetic-thin]

Please let me look like this by summer☀️

[iwannabeaskinnybich]

How did you lose 10 lbs in a week!

Alright, a lot of people have been asking me about this so I’ll just go ahead and answer it here :)

Day 1: 600 kcal

Day 2: 500

Day 3: 500

Day 4: 300

Day 5: 300

Day 6: 300

Day 7: 300

Some of my food diaries are already on my blog

I didn’t exercise at all except for some mild stretches

Drink green tea and water religiously!!

Take your vitamins if you need to!!

Stay safe lovelies 🥀➰✨

[candlelightskinny]

don’t eat

don’t eat

don’t eat

don’t eat

DON’T EAT

you don’t need the food nor do you really want it. don’t eat it.

[thinglore]

1/13/19

So I’ve been really sick. Every time I stand up I black out and I’m really really nauseous. I fainted last night getting out of the bath and had an anxiety attack. I’ve barely been eating and when I do I vomit :/ I’m not sure what’s wrong with me but I really hope I get better soon. I took my iron and some meds and I’m feeling kinda better, just still super dizzy. My face looks so much thinner and the whole weekend I’ve been really pale and my lips are whitish blue. I’ve never felt so terrible like this :( my birthday is in 2 days, I really hope I get better by then !!! I had a peach earlier, a few tortilla chips, and maybe three bites of chicken noodle soup. Trying my best not to eat heavy things, I’m scared I can’t keep it down :( ughhhhh being sick fucking sucks!!

[paleangle]

I am attracted….

[thatskinnyhoney]

[ezratherexie]

Wow I’m in the mood for some uh…

Fucking skinny