Things That I'll Never Let You Do To Me

[thingsillneverletyoudotome]

I felt so much pain when we broke up.

I thought I was broken.

Then I reconciled with you.. again?!

And you ditched me again.

🤮🤮🤮

[thingsillneverletyoudotome]

Looking back now I think about how controlling you were.

I was in an abusive relationship and oblivious. Kinda had some doubts but didn’t want to cut my losses.

I left him, then went back. Then he left me. I thought he loved me but isn’t that what we all think.

I’m scared, embarrassed, upset, angry and it makes me feel sick.

I feel sick.

[synqra]

[recaption]

[thingsillneverletyoudotome]

Hey. Emmi loves Dynasty too. Drama on tv. She loves you more. She cries when you leave. They all cry when you leave. They miss you. They love you.

I love you too.

J told me today I display all the classic signs of being in an abusive relationship. We’re you abusive after all that? I miss you. I still miss you. Maybe I’m mental. Maybe I’m brainwashed.

I told her I’m trapped. I have no choices. I’m stuck. But it’s cos I’m in Accrington. Three dogs. One job. One gal. Maybe I’m scared. Scared that I’m alone. Scared I’ll never feel love. Scared I’ll never have a family. Scared I’ll never stop these meds. Scared I’ll be here forever stuck. I think I’m scared. I don’t think I’m abused. I love you but I’m scared. I’m not scared of you. I’m scared of being trapped.

[love]

[thingsillneverletyoudotome]

I’m tired and fed up. I love you. I still miss you. I care about you.

You were my best friend. Every job was fun with you. I wish I’d cuddled you more and been able to remember our last hug better. I thought I’d still have at least a million I love yous to say to you. I guess I was right about loving you more.

You just feel so far away from me now. I wish things were different.

[thingsillneverletyoudotome]

I'll never let you drive my car and crash it then tell me to find my own part to fix it cos you don't have time, but it doesn't matter cos you'll pay.

[thingsillneverletyoudotome]

I'll never let you call my dogs "rats".

[thingsillneverletyoudotome]

I'll never let you take me back to yours whilst your girlfriend is calling you on your phone.

[thingsillneverletyoudotome]

I'll never let you tell me that I should dress more like "those other girls" otherwise your "eyes will start to wander"

[thingsillneverletyoudotome]

Tell me that you don't like my hoodie when I barely know you

[thingsillneverletyoudotome]

I'll never date you when you're still dating someone else.

[thingsillneverletyoudotome]

I'll never let you tell me that I lost my job cos my hair is a mess and I wear no makeup

[thingsillneverletyoudotome]

I'll never let you tell me that my car's a piece of shite, when you borrow it all the time and don't pay parking tickets on it.

[thingsillneverletyoudotome]

I'll never let you tell everyone I've put on piles of weight while you've been away.

[thingsillneverletyoudotome]

Take someone on a date when we’re trying to work things out

I’ll never let you go see a movie, get a starbucks and go to pizza hut in one day with a girl that fancies you when we’re trying to work things out.

I’ll never let you go see a film with a girl at the cinema when she’s already seen it cos she wants to please you.

I’ll never stay quiet about you pretty much dating when we’re still together.