Thin Is All I Ever Want To Be

Weight loss is the goal

[thinisallieverwanttobe]

I’m 25 she/her. I’ve been doing this on and off since I was ten. I love my dog and reading.

My favorite low cal meal is fruit and a monster ultra.

Like to do crafts to keep my hands busy when I feel like eating. I’m currently working a needle point for laundry, making my baby a blanket , making a lacy cover up. I’m trying to learn how to knit. I also like to write.

My current bmi is idk atm let me give birth lol

Cw: 186.2 (pregnancy weight gain was brutal)

Gw1: 180 - new lipstick

Gw2: 160 - nail polish

Gw3: 150- a book series

Ugw: 130- new dress

I may go lower depends on when I get there. My ugw when I was 12-16 was 90

[thinisallieverwanttobe]

I didn’t need to hear someone say what I’ve been thinking about myself.

[thinisallieverwanttobe]

I should probably to all toy dr about getting on antidepressants.

I feel like I’m completely failing at everything. I know I was depressed before hand and hated myself but it’s so much more now.

I feel like no one really want me around and I can’t do anything right. All I’m good for is providing milk for my baby. Hell I can’t even burp her! Poor thing is constantly gassy and o can’t even help her.

Fat and useless. All I can do is be a cow. 🐮

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

[thinisallieverwanttobe]

My only happiness that’s isn’t tied to my adorable boob barnacle 

[thinisallieverwanttobe]

Bc!

Hating how my body looks. Not even just after baby, I just hate my body period.

The belly, the love handles, back fat, jiggly arms.

The only thing I’ve ever like is my butt.

I have to get this body in order

But hey at lest my hair is longer

[thinisallieverwanttobe]

Got to love pregnancy. Jk hates every part of it. At least I have a cute baby now. But I also have weight to lose. I got up to 201 😭😭, but now two weeks after birth I’m down to 186.2. Ten more pounds to get to pre pregnancy weight. Then I have to get back on track with weight loss.

Mentally not doing well at all. Low key want to sh rn but doing my best not to.

Just set down to figure out my bmi and make a workout plan

[thinisallieverwanttobe]

One week till I give birth! I can finally start losing weight soon. I really want to breastfeed but ik I have to eat like crazy to keep a supply. Hoping I can just work it off and feed off the weight.

I gained like 30 pounds 😭😭😭 most of it was in the third trimester too! Bitch how?! Jk ik how I’ve been eating like a pig 

[thinisallieverwanttobe]

Morning sickness is kicking my ass. I’m now ten weeks and still throwing up daily. It got so bad I had to be put on medication to subdue it. It’s helping but I’m so tired of throwing up.

I’ve lost like ten pounds so 🤷🏼‍♀️🤷🏼‍♀️ I think I’ll start gaining soon since I’m actually keep food down now

[thinisallieverwanttobe]

Morning sickness is killing me. I can barely keep anything down. On the bright side I can’t have carbs or anything fried or I will throw up. Had a miscarriage scare Saturday but baby is okay and firmly in place.

The bloat is crazy

Bc warning

[thinisallieverwanttobe]

Anyone have weight loss tips for pregnancy?? Ovi I don’t want to hurt the baby but I also don’t want to gain a ton of weight.

[srsfunny]

Free us from this cycle

[thinisallieverwanttobe]

I fucking hate my job. It’s been hell all week. I want to quite

[thinisallieverwanttobe]

I swear I was fucking manic for two weeks crashed and became manic at the next day. Just crashed again and I feel like shit. I kinda hate my life atm and I hate myself more. I’d kill myself but can’t.

“Why can’t you kill yourself? To pussy to try”

Nope never have been to pussy to try. I’ve al had someone or something I cared about that needed me alive. I don’t technically have that but I am pregnant and I refuse to end a pregnancy without it being necessary so fuck me ig.

Im happy im pregnant its what I’ve wanted for years. Im terrified of losing this one too.

My life is in pieces and I can’t even starve.

FUCK.

On the bright side I have lost weight in my time away. Not a lot but it works.

[ebonydrew]

we (YES WE) ALL losing 10kg this september 🤣✌️

[thisissonotme]

hey girlies !! as someone who has been on edblr for quite a while here is a tip on staying safe

never, and i mean never send pics of urself to a creepy ana coach. 10/10 times they are a creepy old man who prays on young vulnerable girls and want to take advantage of them.

another one

if someone comments "dm me" on one of ur posts, for the love of god dont.

[thinisallieverwanttobe]

Wow. That’s all I got to say

I told my husband I want a divorce because he’s a cheating, lying, lazy, useless bastard. he spent several days begging me not to and for us to work it out. There’s nothing to work out I’m over being used and abused.

Our friends tore into him Tuesday for it.

I then fucked the leader of our friend group and fuck that was the best sex of my life. We’ve started a sweet relationship.

I adore being around him. He feels like comfort, protection, peace, love. Like the hopes and dreams of a summer day

I’ve also been eating very little.

Oh! Changed my hair again

[thinisallieverwanttobe]

In the past week I’ve spent 5 out of 7 days high off my ass. It’s been great mentally. Work is a bitch and I want to quit but I can’t cus I’m an adult with bills to pay.

My marriage seems to be falling apart

And I can’t deal with any of this shit rn.

I think I’m going to just ignore it all. Focus on working out and getting through work everyday.

But fucking hell I’m over not losing weight I legitimately can’t lose rn idk why four days after going extreme I stoped losing, I’ve loosened up but still not losing.

[cureofwellness]

✨ reblog if ✨

You have an eating disorder but it doesn’t look like you do.