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MADE YOU THE VILLAIN [ELLIE WILLIAMS]
MY HOUSE IS ON PRETTY GIRL AVENUE + EVERYTHING ELSE ABOUT ELLIE WILLIAMS
DON'T ASK TOO MANY QUESTIONS...
ABOUT THE UNKNOWN DIVINE
Bugz ♋︎ 18—she/they ˎˊ˗ Ellie Williams enthusiast. obsessed with the pitt (2025). lesbian with a major lack of talent that doesn't include daydreaming.
THIS IS MY ONE CONFESSION
My beautiful angels; @bambi-luvs @shadowmythe @liztreez
send me your niche topics / conversations that you've been having in your head so I can tell you that you're not crazy, just feral like me !
Finally got some time to sit down and work on issue. No 3 for The Auditory Hallucination. May was a crazy month that left me grappling with reality for more sleep after univ exams.
Happy pride month to all the queer people in the world, you are so insanely beautiful on the inside & out !
This Issue is particularly chit-chatty due to cinema having some great runs, plus tiktok people being dumb and always culture appropriating Mexican culture. On the bright side, I've been listening to a lot of new commentaries on film, so expect an earful (issue) on that and probably a journal entry on working retail.
some more of our favs before i go work the night shift!! (kms.) swearing, use of y/n, mentions of stripping, “angel” being used to address reader, ellies a perv insta reels.. super short :p if there’s anything specific you want to see within this au, send a request!
part smau, part written series. no collective storyline, just the chaos of you and your smokeshow roommates. reader is wlw and doesnt have an explicit race, job, or look. imagine yourself! i do take requests for this collection! send em my way!
“I don’t think a relationship is what I want, y/n.”
You stared at Ellie from across the apartment, refusing to blink, even when your vision was blurred with tears. The kitchen light that Ellie was under showed her guilt, like she was starring in a play about fucking everything up.
Your charger still sat plugged into the wall beside her bed, and the shampoo from her shower was still fresh in your hair—when Ellie suddenly decided to end you like it meant nothing.
"You don't think?" Your voice cracked under the weight of reality. "Ellie, look around us." You spread your arms towards her apartment like it was some sort of evidence.
"This whole fucking thing is a relationship, els. I stay here every weekend without fail, and your friends call me your girlfriend—and you don't correct them, because you want it to happen."
Ellie's jaw tightened, and you sucked in a shaky breath—trying to stop the anger that was clawing its way out of your chest before it consumed you whole.
"but the second it becomes real, the second that I actually ask what the hell we are—you 'don't think it's what you want?'"
"Y/n—"
"No—"You shook your head. "No—don't do that. Don't act confused, Ellie."
The tone of your voice lost control as you went on.
"You think Dina doesn't see it? You think she stopped flirting with you because she suddenly found Jesse more interesting than you?"
A bitter laugh escaped your lips without even meaning to. "Dina stopped because she saw me with you—because she saw the way you looked at me and thought that you weren't heartless enough to fake 'whatever' we are. "
Ellie scoffed at you, her face blushing red instantly.
"you don't know what you're talking about, y/n."
"Oh, I know exactly what I'm talking about, Ellie." Your chest heaved. "Everybody does." And your tears finally spilled over.
You pointed towards the framed photo on the shelf, a photo of Dina grinning beside Cat, Ellie had shoved it halfway behind a stack of records—like hiding it somehow made her lingering attachment to Dina, less obvious.
"Everybody sees how fucking pathetic you are for her, Ellie!"
Ellie's expression turned cold.
"Shut up."
"No, you shut the fuck up, Ellie." Your voice shook angrily now. The anger and heartbreak tangling together until it became one feeling, that you could barely breath through.
"if Dina told you to jump, you would ask how high before your feet even left the fucking ground."
"that's not true."
"Oh, that's bullshit." you shouted. "you're still in love with her, Ellie. You revolve your whole life around whether or not Dina might finally look at you the way...—I look at you!"
Ellie dragged both hands through her auburn hair with a frustrated groan, pacing around the kitchenette once before turning back around.
"you sound fucking crazy right now."
You laughed at Ellie. A laugh that sounded so ugly and so broken to even be yours in the first place. Tears slid down your face even faster, forgotten by the coldness of the apartment.
"Crazy? You wanna know what's crazy, Ellie? Letting somebody hold you every night, kiss you like they mean it, tell you that they need you, and still acting shocked that they fell in love with you."
Ellie looked away.
"—and then letting everybody see that you would destroy anybody who gets close to you.. just to keep chasing someb—Dina, who doesn't even love you back."
Ellie suddenly snapped. "Shut the fuck up, it's not my fault that you're in love with me!"
And Ellie breathed in hard, like she knew it was useless to protect herself, but Ellie's ego kept her from just standing there and taking it. "I don't know why you expected me to give a shit." She muttered.
something inside of you screamed, like a dog that had a loud bark and a deep bite to accompany its naturalistic sound.
"Are you fucking kidding me!?" You asked.
"You met my fucking parents, Ellie!" You jabbed a finger into her chest." You. asked. to. meet. them." You enunciated every word with another finger jab to Ellie's chest.
Ellie opened her mouth to defend herself again, but you didn't stop for her.
"You held my hand at dinner. You kissed me in front of them. You slept in my childhood bedroom with me wrapped around you, and looked me in the eyes to tell me that you saw a future with me."
Ellie's face twisted with frustration and borderline disgust. "Jesus christ, y/n, that's called acting!" She shouted. "You're so fucking stupid for not knowing the difference!"
For a second, all you could do was breathe—and then the rage inside of you exploded so violently that all you could do was scream.
"Oh, I'm stupid?" You screamed. "at least I'm not some desperate fucking loser sitting around, waiting for fucking Dina like a fucking dog that was abandoned on the side of the road!"
"Fuck you, y/n!"
"No, fuck YOU!" You grabbed the nearest pillow off the couch and hurled it at Ellie's head. "You use people, Ellie! You take every fucking ounce of love they give you and throw them away, the SECOND that you get fucking scared."
You stormed into the bedroom before Ellie could get another word in.
"Where the fuck are you going?!" Ellie yelled after you, but you kept moving.
“Anywhere but here!”
Your hands shook violently as you yanked open drawers and started shoving your clothes into your weeken bag. Shirts. Socks. The hoodie you left here three months ago and so on.
You crammed everything in without folding any of it.
Your toothbrush was still damp from this morning beside her sink. You grabbed it and tossed it into the bag without another thought.
"y/n—"
"Don't start." Your voice came out cold, making Ellie freeze as you zipped the bag so hard that the sound cut through the tense room like a butcher knife.
Ellie's eyes were glassy, red around the the edges.
And for one horrible, ignorant second...it looked like she wanted to stop you, but you swallowed hard, gripping the strap of your bag so tightly that your knuckles turned snow white.
You shoved past Ellie's shoulder hard enough to make her stumble, new tears stinging at your eyes as you stormed through the apartment, and yanked the front door open.
"I hope you like Jesse's leftovers."
B's note: WHEN THE ONE IDEA THAT YOU'VE BEEN REWRITING FOR MONTHS FINALLY CLICKS AND IT STILL DOESN'T SOUND GOOD BUT AT LEAST YOU FINISHED IT AND CAN POST IT😭😭😭😭but on a serious note, I legitimate have been stuck in like null zone of my brain for MONTHS, especially with my university finals that I just finished doing. I'm so grateful to make it through another semester.
I'm even more grateful to be back on tumbld and invest time in my hobbies, even if it means rewriting the same thing a bunch of time!! I'm really hoping that you guys (HOPEFULLY) enjoyed this solo fic that I've been working on since forever in time. Feel free to lmk what you think in the replies or reblogs... it's always appreciated!
was hella listening to loud bark by mannequin pussy for the large amount of time I spent onn this😭so there's a niche reference to loud bark in the fic LMAO!! but please listen to them too!! they are so incredibly amazing!!
bugzzzz hi ml, how r u??? 🥹 i hope the sickness went away
HI NINI ML!!
I'm doing okay for the most part now! I'm still kind of sick with a really sore throat; so I haven't been able to speak as much :( ! Obviously I'm taking it slow—as much as I can with work for now, which isn't too bad since it's just retail!
I've been using all this new sick time to catch up on my favorite hobbies! I started rewatching My Babysitter's a Vampire cause I LOVE a good cheesy show, and planning issue. 03 of my silly zine :p! I also got a new air fryer this weekend! like literally the same day after I jumped in your inbox! + some groceries and snacks since I was running low! literally spent the whole trip listening to American Teenage Prophecy by Kid Sistr
But how are you ml?? what's been going on with you?? Tell me everything you've been up to! if you want :p!
bring back lesbian couple porn that is so intimate—that it makes you feel like a pervert for watching and getting off!!!! #speaking my truth from my bed where I'm very sick and tired from final exams
