She had a sense of being past everything, through everything, out of everything, as she helped the soup, as if there was an eddy- there -and one could be in it, or one could be out of it, and she was out of it. It's all come to an end, she thought, while they came in one after another... And meanwhile she waited, passively, for someone to answer her, for something to happen. But this is not a thing, she thought, ladling out soup, that one says.
Raising her eyebrows at the discrepancy-that was what she was thinking, this was what she was doing- ladling out soup- she felt, more and more strongly, outside that eddy; or as if a shade had fallen, and, robbed of colour, she saw things truly... Nothing seemed to have merged. They all sat separate. And the whole of the effort of merging and flowing and creating rested on her... and so, giving herself the little shake that one gives a watch that has stopped, the old familiar pulse began beating, as the watch begins ticking- one, two, three, one, two, three. And so on and so on, she repeated, listening to it, sheltering and fostering the still feable pulse as one might guard a weak flame with a newspaper... she began this business, as a sailor not without weariness sees the wind fill his sail and yet hardly wants to be off again and thinks how, had the ship sunk, he would have whirled round and round and found rest on the floor of the sea.