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I really enjoy this subtle parallel that shows Agott's growth

chapter 10 where she couldn't acknowledge the significance of simple contraptions cause her motivation for long was a compulsion to prove her worth that was measured by aptitude, versus chapter 96 she who can now eagerly embrace aspects of life that were previously devalued, needless to say as an extension of agott making peace with parts of herself instead of shutting them down due to introjections.

additionally this growth is directly proportional to the changing concept of coco in agott's world, coco with spells that stick to basics and naturally wasn't as skilled as others (qualities agott devalues), challenges agott's prevailing beliefs and triggers many vulnerable parts. agott's rejection of parts of herself and her rejection of coco came hand in hand. after all the reason coco was so harshly pushed away in early scenes is because acknowledging her with all the things she stands for was threatening to agott's deep seated foundations.

as is seen in these early scenes, and many others

though of course as any challenge to deep seated beliefs does, if one can face the conflict and contradiction head on and find the courage to keep on it is then transformative, thus agott too learns and changes.

the way they introduce each other to aspects of life the other is missing is pivotal for their dynamic and agott's self journey is inseparable from this.

in this way agott's growing love for coco is simultaneously a path to self love

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idk if this is pointed out already but ive been thinking about silverwood as an allegory for post trauma effects. you may finally feel safe and just as you do you'll be struck with something gnawing inside you, the intrusion of an all encompassing experience. there are many parallels between the ways silverwood and trauma ridden systems operate. at first the silverwood is a compensation for the individual's deficits (lack of limbs) essentially a coping strategy that saves the day, though what is a desperate last resort that temporarily fixes things ends up becoming dysfunctional in the long run, as is the case for post trauma maladaptations. silverwood not only in it's role as a coping mechanism references trauma but the general impact of trauma as well. something that writhes under your skin when you feel peaceful like a sense of wrongness and inability to have good things, a parasite that will take over you when you feel content again, petrifying you, consumes you inside feeding on your wellness, something that has long taken root, dwelling, always there, even if you cant name it.

i think the panel below demonstrates this well

I'll probably write more about this and expand it later

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some silly doodles, I will definitely be drawing more of smol orufrey and belda

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some orufrey kitchen sketch to cope with vol16