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He/Him || Uncoordinated Chunky Himbo || But I Got Good Thoughts

[cass-cass-cass]

Super Sensory Friendly Slow Eating Dish for Sushi, Wet Food, Dry Food for Doggirl Catgirl Foxgirl or Puppygirl

[thoughtfulqueerwizard]

Bro how tf am I supposed to be forgaing for native edible plants and and laying on my back staring up at the sky feeling my mind finally fade into quiet relaxation if I'm supposed to be inside staring at a computer for 8 hours every day to make "money" to pay "rent" with.

[thoughtfulqueerwizard]

My trans nb gf/bf texted with no prompting

"Tragic: the doggirl who's also a little vampire-coded has trauma around biting"

[thoughtfulqueerwizard]

Topa: "I once heard Doctor Finn say that if you wake up in the middle of the night and there is nothing to keep you from falling asleep again, it means you are happy. I think that maybe... I am not happy."

Kelly: "You don't sleep well?"

Topa: "I always feel as if... there is something wrong with me. But I cannot tell what. Lieutenant Malloy says many people my age feel this way. Perhaps it is normal."

[thoughtfulqueerwizard]

I confronted my abusive dad with some of his past behavior and asked for an apology, because he kept saying all the right things and claiming to have changed and grown, and I like a fucking idiot fell for his fucking manipulative and narcissistic bullshit.

As soon as I asked him to acknowledge he had hurt me, both mentally and physically, he denied it, couched his response in hypotheticals like "if" he had really punched me in the head like I claim he would be begging forgiveness. Then asked IF IT WAS AN OPEN HAND OR A CLOSED FIST. Then launched into a diatribe about how I'm really the person who need to be accountable and take responsibility for my life.

It may sound like idk, funny, or really easy to identify him as an abuser, or maybe you even hate me for being pathetic and engaging with him. Idk. I hate myself for doing that. I just wanted a family like everyone else seemed to have, where your parents actually loved you instead of being too sick mentally to know how, and then blaming you for your life being shit.

Happy holidays guys

[thoughtfulqueerwizard]

anybody else's parents sick a wellness check from the police on them for their birthday? No just me? Yeah that's what I fucking thought. Fuck my fuckin bullshit life

[thoughtfulqueerwizard]

Anybody elses mother threaten to leave them on the side of the road while they were fighting? Ya know the routine, she'd pull over, scream at you to get out, you tell her "we're on the highway" she goes idfc and screams until you start to believe her, and then right as you're about to get out she just starts driving again like nothing happened.

No?

Just me?

I fucking hate it here

[casual-haterism]

"heh. if you claim to be a MAN then why do you talk about WOMENS issues"

idk maybe because when i was born someone wrote f on that fucking piece of paper and then i was seen as and therefore treated like a woman and formed some opinions about how women are treated

also are you implying that like. men shouldn't care about womens issues or something.

[pussyronin-deactivated20260120]

got roped into no knight november they took my armor and my halberd and all m,y cool livery with the heraldic beasts and they sold my noble steed to arbys and now im just walkin around in the mud kicking rocks or whateveer

[thoughtfulqueerwizard]

So did your parents claim to love you and then treat you like shit compared to your siblings or is it just me?

[thoughtfulqueerwizard]

What kind of fucking future are we making for the next generation when AI or paid spam bots that gleefully advocate for stronger use of force against protestors on every news video is an expected part of the social environment we find ourselves participating in?

How is any person supposed to find a model for developing empathy, or even stay empathetic if every person screams "fuck you got mine, wish you died, ha good these people were hurt" type comments when they disagree with you?

I'm so tired of this fucking world. We don't deserve to progress as a species if this is what our progress is. Fucking try sentience again with another lifeform, one that isn't seemingly biologically predisposed to violence.

[thoughtfulqueerwizard]

How do these "marriage is between one man and one woman" purists feel about T4T couples where one's AFAB and the others AMAB?

Seriously, like are they so against queers that even a straight passing queer couple upsets them? Are they like happy? Or do they just hate queer people on such a deep level that it doesn't matter if we behave according to their ideals, they're upset that we even exist?

I've been thinking about this recently, and I'm fortunate enough to not have any first hand experience trying to answer this question, but what are your thoughts?

[boydecapitation]

fucking someones mouth with ur tdick is very underrated. like fuck what i would give to tie a pretty boy down and tell him to open. hold his head back by his hair and grind against his tongue. even better if he has a vibrator strapped to him -- or maybe just being filled by a dildo of my choice, not getting fucked, just feeling torturously filled, clenching around it, trying to shift under me to feel it move inside of him

[thoughtfulqueerwizard]

Anyone else have constant intrusive thoughts of self harm that scare you but you're pretty sure you're not gonna act on that also prevent you from getting or seeking help for fear of being forcibly committed?

Like I experience shit on a daily basis where my first reaction is genuinely, "I fucking hate myself and wish I were dead" or "I'm such a piece of shit why haven't I KMS yet". And I want to, like the thought is in my head, and usually I'm able to get through it, sometimes I self harm in small ways, sometimes it's a non-self-harming but still necessary coping technique like bending a pen until it's flexy, or writing down my thoughts that second onto a scrap of paper and tearing it up.

But it happens almost every day where my reaction to awkwardly interacting with people or talking to them makes me feel like this and think this way and I just end up everyday feeling like I want to die, or ruminating on everything I've been through that I still haven't dealt with

I want to see a therapist, but my last one told me I needed a higher level of care than he could provide, and recommended intensive outpatient or inpatient treatment, and I'm scared. I'm scared I'll lose my job if I do need to go into a hospital and scared I'll be abused/mistreated/misgendered. Both my parents fear mongered about "being committed" and how awful things were in there and you better handle your shit or else we'll lock you in there and throw away the key. I just want to not think about killing myself all day over talking over someone in a conversation. I want to be able to deal with my anxiety on a human to human level with a therapist I trust who understand the shit I've been through rather than giving up my freedom and trusting the American healthcare system to fix me

[guerrillatech]

[thoughtfulqueerwizard]

Nothing like the one parent you thought was supportive of you and your gender identity calling it and body dysmorphia (like fucking c'mon its dysphoria) a "cognitive distortion" and saying they "love every version of you" and that you "have a hard time with your perceived feminine traits in yourself".

She says this in the same breath as telling me she's not transphobic

[thoughtfulqueerwizard]

My mom told me I can't tell her when I'm suicidal, because that's "making threats on my own life" and that she would go radio silent because of it. So that's how my day's going