Just a slightly less confused girl in this still messed up world

Lydia... 21. My rollercoaster of a life presented to you fine people in the form of a messy and sporadic blog. Enjoy!

[fuckyourcabbage]

[ink-and-oceans]

“Do you ever just get hit by heartbreak, or sadness, or painful memories, or just regret? All of a sudden you just can’t breathe. As if there’s this toxic darkness enveloping your brain, stopping all thoughts, slowly killing your mind. The worst is when there’s so much, you can’t even cry. It just burns you until you ache.”

— tara love / can painful even describe this feeling

[aidashakur]

“6 months from now I will be in a different situation.”

Speak it into existence.

[thunderclapsandlightning]

I fucking hope so

[thunderclapsandlightning]

So I found out I can write on my fireplace. I asked my girlfriend to send me a quote each week to remind me of something I often forget, so I can write it on there. This was the first one. I like this project already! 

[quotemadness]

A beautiful woman is a beautiful woman, but a beautiful woman with a brain is an absolutely lethal combination.

Prabal Gurung (via quotemadness)

[hplyrikz]

Life is too short for shitty sex and bad relationships. So go find someone who fucks you right and treats you how you deserve to be treated.

(via hplyrikz)

[wordsnquotes]

One of the greatest regrets in life is being what others would want you to be, rather than being yourself.

Shannon L. Alder  (via wordsnquotes)

[psychofactz]

[fyp-philosophy]

The world would be happier if men had the same capacity to be silent that they have to speak.

Baruch Spinoza (via wordsnquotes)

[wordsnquotes]

I’m not very good at putting my feelings into words. That’s why people misunderstand me.

Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood (via wordsnquotes)

[cherrybam-blog]

[hplyrikz]

Clear your mind here

[quotemadness]

Can you remember who you were, before the world told you who you should be?

Danielle LaPorte (via quotemadness)

[thunderclapsandlightning]

I Guess I’m Back

Not really sure how I have ended up back on here really, other than that it’s 1am, I can’t sleep and no is awake to entertain me. 

Reading the last posts I had on here was a blast from the past. So the last time I posted something on here was 14 months ago. Who knew so much could change in a year. Back then I was dating a guy, a guy who I knew was bad for me, a guy who I knew I was only with because it was long distance and quitting after only a few weeks seemed like a cop out.  Mentally, things weren’t exactly ideal, he made me feel bad for not working out or for treating myself even when he wasn’t there to see it, he made me feel worthless and put me back in 14 year old me’s boots (they were worn out, trodden on, beaten up and bullied boots).

Anyway, fast forward a year. I ditched him. things were looking up. I became friends with this girl, this gay girl. we talked all night and texted all day, we met up and I immediately was confused, I mean in my head it was just friends chatting, but then we met up and I was like “OOH SHIT!” I like her, like I like like her. WHY? NO? I’M NOT! AM I? ..... Turns out I am. 

After a lot of internal arguments I came to terms with who I was, well to be honest, I’m still working on it, but I’m getting there and finally beginning to love who I am (that’s a first for me!)

Anyway, long story short, I came out to my family and friends and overall I am the happiest I’ve ever been and I think I may have finally found the one for me.... and it’s a girl! (Who knew? I mean, I didn’t till a year ago..)

So we will see how this goes, I mean its not like anyone noticed I was gone anyway, but lets get some more gay on this blog shall we?

[gilrlikegirl]

[thedeeepquotes]

[top-lyrics]

perfect // ed sheeran

[thepsychmind]

Fun Psychology facts here!