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@thundersound
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hiya! i go by any names and any pronouns -- or anything on my displayed profile. still unsure? im a traumagenic OSDD-1b and shame or null is our collective name.
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current fixation: mortal kombat, sims 4, disco elysium, wuthering waves
theme song:
some stuff I made for Valentineβs Day! I tried to keep it generic though so it can be used all year round :-) I hope to make more but no promises! Smaller versions will be in reblogs <3
im okay
always expecting someone
maybe i should try loving myself first?
what is even the definition or qualifications to be able fully "loving yourself"?
always expecting someone
maybe i should try loving myself first?
what is even the definition or qualifications to be able fully "loving yourself"?
being excluded your whole life can make you insane holy shit
my photocard delivery got delayed. unavailable friends. people don't want to go near my ass.
if i die one day im sure no one wouldve care. they would forgot me in 2 days bet.
i can't live without knowing my soulmate... my person
I FUCKING HATE PEOPLE WHO DON'T RESPOND TO.ME AT ALL WHEN I DO!! LIKE I FAST RESPOND AND ALWAYS RESPOND THEIR MESSAGE/STUFF BUT THEY BARELY MIRROR MY ENERGY?!
why none of my friends are online... i feel so lonely.
YEAH LIKE I ALWAYS HAVE FOR THR LAST 2 YEARS? SURPRISING ISN'T IT? FEELING LONELY WHEN YOU'RE ALREADY LONELY?
honestly, i always feel lonely all the time. i get so surprised for being reminded about it everytime. its like... jamais vu. its something so deeply natural to me, yet everytime it feels so new. huh?
im so ashamed of myself. i should've been more a bit positive or be more grateful. nonetheless, i want unrealistic and fast expectations. thats why i never have anything fulfilled in life.
im so sorry. not to you. to myself.
i was about to change. but i can't.
literally thinking about how ive been healing for the past few days. some friends give me reassurance and reality checks and i wantdd to say thank you so much for reminding about it to me everytime. but, no matter how much i try to be grateful or appreciate existing relationshipsβi realize that i always and will never stop wanting things that is out of my reachβno matter what.
i already have friends who willingly to hang out with me, i finally got to buy things on my own, i am still under a roof and covered in blanket in every of my sleep. yet, what im just jealous for... is a true connection with someone. i don't want to downplay or think that my existing friendship is meaningless.
but i wonder when i will be truly someone's person. i want my name to be mentioned everyday, i want them to have a singular thing specialized for me, i want them to match with me everytime. i want us to gift each other. i want us to play games eith each other. i want us to link everytime. i want us to flex pur friendship to others. i want us to dedicade ourselves truly for each other. i want them to become my soulmate. that sounds boring? yeah, but its not when youre actually connecting with someone that deep.
or- im so selfish and narcissistic. such things i am expecting are unrealistic.
...
BUT THEN WHY I SEE MY FRIENDS HAVE "THEIR OWN PERSON"?
i will be forever unexpected and unwanted. i believe it. if you are my friend, STOP TRYING TO FIX ME or telling that "i can be your person!" NO YOU AREN'T. YOU UNFERSTAND THAT IT'S SOMETHING NOT TO BE FORCED UPON? plus, i can never be fixed in any way. im truly sorry but i can't never be fixed anymore.
these words are stuck in my throat, thoughts pushed on the corner of my mind, emotions tucked between my ribs, tangled breathsβfor years. just like a pot of boiling water that someone forgets to turn off the stove.
if i am so unwanted in this world, i can just die. you know?
no one will see that. let alone a response. im suckh a fucking scum ππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππππ
literally thinking about how ive been healing for the past few days. some friends give me reassurance and reality checks and i wantdd to say thank you so much for reminding about it to me everytime. but, no matter how much i try to be grateful or appreciate existing relationshipsβi realize that i always and will never stop wanting things that is out of my reachβno matter what.
i already have friends who willingly to hang out with me, i finally got to buy things on my own, i am still under a roof and covered in blanket in every of my sleep. yet, what im just jealous for... is a true connection with someone. i don't want to downplay or think that my existing friendship is meaningless.
but i wonder when i will be truly someone's person. i want my name to be mentioned everyday, i want them to have a singular thing specialized for me, i want them to match with me everytime. i want us to gift each other. i want us to play games eith each other. i want us to have tiktok streak. i want us to link everytime. i want us to flex pur friendship to others. i want us to dedicade ourselves truly for each other. i want them to become my soulmate. that sounds boring? yeah, but its not when youre actually connecting with someone that deep.
or- im so selfish and narcissistic. such things i am expecting are unrealistic.
...
BUT THEN WHY I SEE MY FRIENDS HAVE "THEIR OWN PERSON"?
i will be forever unexpected and unwanted. i believe it. if you are my friend, STOP TRYING TO FIX ME or telling that "i can be your person!" NO YOU AREN'T. YOU UNFERSTAND THAT IT'S SOMETHING NOT TO BE FORCED UPON? plus, i can never be fixed in any way. im truly sorry but i can't never be fixed anymore.
these words are stuck in my throat, thoughts pushed on the corner of my mind, emotions tucked between my ribs, breaths cutten into thin strips that are tangledβfor years. just like a pot of boiling water that someone forgets to turn off the stove.
if i am so unwanted in this world, i can just die. you know?
im sorry but i am never anyones first choice, not anymore. stop trying otherwise π
i miss hitman so much i wanna rub myself to agent 47s bald shiny head
his puppy dog eyes shall make me do anything he wants
im.. unhappy rn. lol?
