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welcome to me trying to keep myself accountable tika - 19 - she/her

[shamebats]

"it's just stress" oh thank god, it's just the silent killer that slowly kills you, perfectly harmless, no need to worry

[poughkeepsiesjr]

but also imagine you've spent 30+ years successfully repressing any trace of homosexuality from your outward persona and then the second you leave town everyone you know starts calling you a faggot behind your back when you can't defend yourself against the allegations. I'd be so pissed

[chronicowboy]

eddie would never do anything illegal. eddie has ballroom dance trophies.

[idiotsinkdaisies]

buddie dooming is so funny. to me. sorry they haven't shoved their tongues down each other's throats yet... do u remember how buck's bi awakening was Eddie's New Friend? do u remember how eddie had an episode about choosing joy and it ended with him opening the door to buck? guys. they are throwing hints at u. stop dodging.

[muddiedfoxglove]

sorry im. okay imagine buck is watching his trash tv. and its dancing with the stars. and eddie wanders in and hes standing watching it too (as dads are wont to do) and then he starts Critiquing Their Form and buck whips his head around like. um. what the fuck are you saying rn.

[halflightlove]

the facetime call at the firehouse really confirmed to me that buck walks around on the phone with eddie nonstop and everyone at the 118 knows all of their business

[chronicowboy]

living happily in my world where maddie had to listen to her brother meltdown about the implication of being in love with his straight best friend and just. took a picture of him. in his adorable little housewife apron. and went. hmm i wonder who would enjoy this. and sent it to eddie. who she never speaks to. and eddie seeing a text from maddie and freaking out. lunging for his phone only to see a beautiful picture of buck practically glowing. and he's like :) thank you maddie :). and then he sets it as his little contact picture for buck. and he's just smiling to himself for the rest of the day.

[buddiesbuddiess]

jobless, gay, his new house falling apart, his long distance boyfriend fucking other men in his old one, breathing in hair gel fumes, wearing plaid…. SOMEONE FREE HIM

[stolenkissesdiaz]

crying rn cus why is the eddie in el paso arc just showing the audience how much of eddie’s partner buck really is outside of work LMFAO like oh u think these two are just coworkers? LOUD INCORRECT BUZZER!!! he’s supporting eddie reestablishing his relationship with chris. he’s supporting eddie while he’s in hell with his parents. evan ‘words of affirmation’ buckley is the glue holding eddie diaz together in texas rn.

[glorious-spoon]

every once in a while i'll be going about my day and remember he was a RENTER. and he's STRAIGHT. and i have to start cackling again.

[buddiesbuddiess]

I think the reason season 8B feels like a fanfic is because we have already imagined a hundred thousand different ways Buck and Eddie could get together. We’ve already exhausted every single possibility out there. Watching them get together in canon was always going to feel like fanfiction, because whatever scenario the writers come up with, we have already imagined a thousand times over.

[fiona-fififi]

Current headcanon: Maddie and Eddie don't really know one another all that well. They like each other plenty and get along well when they're around each other, but they just don't get many opportunities to interact with one another. When Buck's with Maddie, it's usually a sibling thing, so it's not like Eddie would join them, and even when they're at the big 118 get-togethers, they just tend to gravitate toward other people—Eddie always by Buck's side, and Maddie chatting with May or Athena or Hen and Karen because Maddie sees Buck often enough on her own, so she's going to branch out at the gatherings.

So she and Eddie mostly only chat casually in passing; they've never really had a chance to build any kind of distinctive relationship. And Maddie's only really seen Eddie and Buck together with Christopher at those big get-togethers where Chris is often more interested in hanging out with Denny and Harry, and sometimes Buck's in the mix with them, but it's always seemed like just Buck helping to entertain the kids.

So Maddie's only really ever heard about Buck's relationship with Christopher secondhand, and Chim likes to tease and exaggerate, while Buck loves kids and gets overexcited sometimes in a way that causes him to maybe embellish a bit.

So Maddie's always kind of assumed Buck's just a glorified babysitter helping out a friend when it comes to his relationship to Christopher.

Until one day, while Eddie's working dispatch and he and Maddie happen to be on the same shift, Buck agrees to take Chris and Jee both for the day, and they all decide it would be easiest for Buck to meet them at dispatch right before the shift starts, so he can get both kids at once. (And Maddie's maybe a little bit nervous about her childless little brother watching Jee and Christopher at the same time, but she figures Chris is eleven, so he'll probably be fine).

So they all meet in the dispatch parking lot, and Maddie hands over Jee, but not without first handing Buck an overly stocked diaper bag complete with a list of emergency phone numbers she's sure to draw attention to and giving him a five minute rundown of Jee's favorite toys and games and what to do when she's cranky and everything else Maddie can think of to make sure Buck knows how to keep Jee happy and comfortable, even though Buck has watched Jee on his own dozens of times.

Only to then watch Eddie tell Chris he loves him and that he'll be home for dinner before just. handing him over to Buck.

No instructions. No fretting. Not even a bag to go with him.

And Maddie's heard the stories of Eddie and his thorough emails and his concerns over summer camp and his general parental protectiveness that she can absolutely relate to.

But with Buck? With Buck, Eddie just. gives him Christopher.

And that's when Maddie suddenly realizes that everything she thought she knew about her brother's relationship with Eddie and Christopher is wrong.

Because there's only one person in the world she would ever hand Jee over to like that, and that person is her child's father.

And, well, things get a lot more interesting with that revelation.

[fiona-fififi]

Current headcanon: Maddie and Eddie don't really know one another all that well. They like each other plenty and get along well when they're around each other, but they just don't get many opportunities to interact with one another. When Buck's with Maddie, it's usually a sibling thing, so it's not like Eddie would join them, and even when they're at the big 118 get-togethers, they just tend to gravitate toward other people—Eddie always by Buck's side, and Maddie chatting with May or Athena or Hen and Karen because Maddie sees Buck often enough on her own, so she's going to branch out at the gatherings.

So she and Eddie mostly only chat casually in passing; they've never really had a chance to build any kind of distinctive relationship. And Maddie's only really seen Eddie and Buck together with Christopher at those big get-togethers where Chris is often more interested in hanging out with Denny and Harry, and sometimes Buck's in the mix with them, but it's always seemed like just Buck helping to entertain the kids.

So Maddie's only really ever heard about Buck's relationship with Christopher secondhand, and Chim likes to tease and exaggerate, while Buck loves kids and gets overexcited sometimes in a way that causes him to maybe embellish a bit.

So Maddie's always kind of assumed Buck's just a glorified babysitter helping out a friend when it comes to his relationship to Christopher.

Until one day, while Eddie's working dispatch and he and Maddie happen to be on the same shift, Buck agrees to take Chris and Jee both for the day, and they all decide it would be easiest for Buck to meet them at dispatch right before the shift starts, so he can get both kids at once. (And Maddie's maybe a little bit nervous about her childless little brother watching Jee and Christopher at the same time, but she figures Chris is eleven, so he'll probably be fine).

So they all meet in the dispatch parking lot, and Maddie hands over Jee, but not without first handing Buck an overly stocked diaper bag complete with a list of emergency phone numbers she's sure to draw attention to and giving him a five minute rundown of Jee's favorite toys and games and what to do when she's cranky and everything else Maddie can think of to make sure Buck knows how to keep Jee happy and comfortable, even though Buck has watched Jee on his own dozens of times.

Only to then watch Eddie tell Chris he loves him and that he'll be home for dinner before just. handing him over to Buck.

No instructions. No fretting. Not even a bag to go with him.

And Maddie's heard the stories of Eddie and his thorough emails and his concerns over summer camp and his general parental protectiveness that she can absolutely relate to.

But with Buck? With Buck, Eddie just. gives him Christopher.

And that's when Maddie suddenly realizes that everything she thought she knew about her brother's relationship with Eddie and Christopher is wrong.

Because there's only one person in the world she would ever hand Jee over to like that, and that person is her child's father.

And, well, things get a lot more interesting with that revelation.

[apple-bottom-jeansx]

I am a WHORE for “the love is requited, they’re both just idiots”

[livingincolorsagain]

the idea that they might be going with the unrequited feelings route, even if it’s for a little bit, is so so funny to me. yes it’s horrible from buck’s side. from eddie’s side however it’s hysterical. To Me. like. yes buck, i put you in my will and made you the legal guardian of my son when i die. and didn’t tell you about it. until a year later when i almost died and you saved my life then said it should’ve been you. yeah it’s because i know you wouldn’t refuse. yes buck, i counted every single second you were dead. yes i couldn’t even look at you while you were on that hospital bed. yes i reached out for you when i thought i was dying. yes i saw my son and you when i needed something to give me strength to fight and get back to my family. And More. So Much More. i did all that Heterosexually.

[pumpkinpietimb]

Ok I need everyone to understand that Buck and Eddie are both products of their upbringing. Buck was a child of neglect, which led to him having abandonment issues. While Eddie was a child forced to grow up too fast, which led to him having hyper-independence. Two different kind of traumas. Two different kinds of trauma response. Which would require two different kinds of help.

Buck and Eddie help each other overcome these things and because they are two different kinds of problems, the way they help will ALSO be different. Ever since they met, Eddie has always been there for Buck (don't even fight me on this) and Buck has always given Eddie what he needs. It will look imbalanced, but it's really not. They both need SOMEONE in their lives, just in different ways.

Buck doesn't need someone to take over his lease, or to take care of his son, or to help him figure out childcare, he needs someone to Not Leave Him Alone. Eddie doesn't need someone to tell him he's not expendable, or to be reassured he's trustworthy, or to be promised he's not going to be abandoned, he needs someone to Give Him a Helping Hand. And the moment they became friends they have been those SOMEONES to each other.

They are each other's persons. Equally.

[livingincolorsagain]

feeling very unwell because eddie has never called buck his best friend before in all years he has known him (hanging out with his buck today. christopher’s buck) and the first time he does, the one time we see him say it, sees him claim buck as someone who is something to him, it’s in a confessional, and he hesitates. he pauses.