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[timeforcherryl]

What am I doing? Is it insufficient?

Yes, it is insufficient.

What more can I do?

I can do more?

I should able to do more?

我伤心，是因为我还不够好

二十年前就在希望自己做英雄

现在依然是狗熊

我真的很失败

却不可以，也没时间，在这个失败的感觉多逗留

只能不停往前走

因为时间，默默地，悄悄地，把大家的时间都带走

走了，就回不来了

走了，就没办法改变了

改变是唯一最大的希望

每天都在希望，今天的这一步是否更靠近

靠近一切，大家所希望看到的，一切。

[timeforcherryl]

不管順境逆境都是人生的經過。

[timeforcherryl]

最近的我，有苦难言。 是钱是越来越可怕。 毫无退路，感觉不踏实。 压力很大，大到无法呼吸。 就像一直被监督，担心做错事。 没自信。怎么办。。。

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I do wonder.. Will I regret more using the limited amount of cash I have for vacation rather than to learn the skills I yearn? I want to learn many things. People say due to monetary limits, I probably can't do it. But I would really want to tell everyone, money is not the limit. It's time. If you have enough time, a human could try anything or everything. The sky is limitless but time is limited.

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It all started with a simple lozenges...

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I am happy to say from day 1 November 2014, I hv made progress n finally can be awake at 5.30am. Tomorrow morning I'm sure I can add in my workout schedule!!

[timeforcherryl]

When you say you don't want, do you know yourself, when saying it, do you truly don't want it or is afraid of it more?

[timeforcherryl]

或许该逐渐变哑巴，嘴上，心里。

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Sometimes when there's nothing to read on hand u just read anything you see so you would not get a sudden mental breakdown..

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I failed..having an apple caremello cake right now at cedele and feel a flue is coming by.. )= later still gonna climb stairs..today's food leaves craving in me..need to change to find suitable food..

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I need to sleep, I should be sleeping but I don't feel like it. I'm really tired. How many times has it been in the whole month of August? Why am I torturing myself? What have I done wrong?

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Everyone wants to be a good person, and when he/she does something they feel guilty, they will find reasons to justify..it's actually scary on the minute time they suddenly change opinions..

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My family is the main thing in my life and so I thought my friends being nearly as important. The older I am, the more fragile each relationship is and the more care is needed to protect it. In the end I realized, the reason for me to go back home has now reduced to my remaining family members. I find people because I feel lonely, some things are told to the friends that were once close to each other. However, close, when used in another way, it means shutting you out. I'm upset but I'm more grateful for all the past and present that brought me here today.

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The early morning rain = my current emotion

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Determination and perseverance

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Working Dilemma Purpose Tough choice

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Money

I look at money and wonder why I'm rebellious towards it. It seems that, it's not its fault. When everyone care too much about it, I get jealous. Jealous of what, you may or may not ask, It's something dead, smelly and full of bacteria yet gets more attention than I do. If it's still a tree, thinking it's made by paper, then I feel it's justifiable because a tree, gives many lives. However, that dirty fiber getting more attention than me? No, it just makes me want to spend it away. Reacting, I'm totally reacting and not responding to the facts and what people around me say. I have not much but I talk as if I have owned the world. What right do I have to say it's not justifiable? The world runs using that dirty, smelly fiber I just mentioned.