I am officially dropping Serah Farron, moving skypes (again), and permanently leaving tumblr. I have not been on tumblr recently, and I’ve been far too distracted with real life obligations to do so. I would also rather chase my goals and other such than spend time worrying about a character I don’t want to even write for.
Those that are interested in staying in touch with me — well good question. I do have snapchat, skype, a phone, email, twitter, etc. I don’t think I’ll be giving this information out to most people, simply because I haven’t really connected with most of you anyways.
Thank you all so much for your support and farewell.
maybe this is a lil’ explaination for my absence, an attempt to reach out for support, and possibly a little bit of creative impulse.
Of course I met a boy - but not just any boy. I can sit there and explain these conditions but I will not. By far, his respect, connection with me, and affection thus far has been the most beneficial relationship of any kind I’ve had. Of course, being 19, people will accuse me of simply being infatuated - but I don’t care.
I’ve had no one. Nobody ever etiher been in the position to give me the support (i.e. long distance), or really just didn’t give a fuck about me, or simply got 2 pages in and gave up. Of course, given how much communication in terms of what we want and where we are emotionally both with each other and in the world at the moment signify to me this is a healthy relationship. After everything I’ve done for myself, after all the shitty things I’ve lived through - I deserve this. I deserve this healthy relationship.
And it means so much for me.
With that explanation given, things haven’t been sunshine and rainbows. I have struggled with my demons - the fear of being abandoned, left behind, or tossed aside because I am too much.
His mother has been sick, and he’s been struggling with that. He hasn’t directly told me yet, as he is with her, but of course through a friend of his parents (also known as the family I live with,) — she will be dead within 2~5 days.
I did not expect it to come so fast or so soon. I had hoped for things to grow between me and him before then, so at the very least I could meet her. I’m not sure why exactly, but I suppose it’s something along the lines of ‘This person is so beautiful to me, and they are perfect. You raised him. Even if you weren’t the birth mother, or were the father, I want to meet you. At least once’
And I don’t know how deep this small (think like a potential seed, or perhaps it’s just a pebble. ) sorrow I carry now will grow. WIll it go away in time? Or will years down the road I will think to myself ‘I never got to meet you — but thank you’
I’m not sure how to feel or what to say or do for him. I’m not disturbing him, I will let him come to me. He’s connected with me on the fact he’d rather keep his sorrows from burdening me/and or close to the vest still. Even an act of simply saying ‘I cannot tell you yet’ is an act of trust, he trusted me to accept that’s how he felt, and to simply be there for him. It may not be the ultimate reveal, but they are not always needed.
Take me along to where you are.
I’ll be like the wind and breathe quietly.
Take me with you, where have you gone?
I’ll open my h e a r t and cross over time.
★ — independent self insert / oc.
▲ — serious roleplayer who wishes to both explore personal issues & have fun !
♚ — multi-fandom&crossover friendly.
♪ — well developed ocs&self inserts friendly.
♥ — mult-verse ! however currently not open to romantic shipping.
✎ — open to all post formats.
independent snow villiers. written by kiki — a 19 year old girl
with a fierce love for fnc and far too much time on her hands.
multi-ship, and verse — otp is snope, but greatly open to any
ships with chemistry. serious&crack. free chocobo chick with
any interaction. limited time offer. invalid in the district of
academia and the void beyond. void where prohibited.
remember when xiii was released and all the haters were making neckbeardy posts about how the company was doomed to fail and fall into backrupty
5 years later their website is crashing due to the high level of traffic its getting just to preorder an mmo expansion and they remastered a game originally just made for psp in japan because of the high level of western interest in it.
i’m interested in how many of those people have made a complete 180
DIAMOND: Is finding a soul mate important to you? Do you even believe in them?
“ I don’t think it’s something you can simply find — if you will find somebody whose heart connects with your own, that’s fate. I believe in fate, that everything despite the harshness of the world and reality, that we will be where we’re supposed to be, and who we’re meant to be with. “
I don’t think soulmates exist — we chose who they are. We chose and put effort into those we connect with. And most really excellent connections come through simply being open to the other, and willing to experience and accept new things. I also don’t believe there is one person for everybody else, so much as there is many. There are many people you met on the journey of life, along the waves, however how long you choose to stay with each is up to you. Everybody I’ve met and I’ve loved and since lost — I don’t consider them ex’s, or people that deserve regret or hate, our paths simply split separate ways. Something via harsh feelings, sometimes simply life whisking us away into other directions. I love them all nearly, and I always will. That sort of person you will always meet, some people would refer to them as a soulmate, but I don’t believe in the concept as such. Bythispointwhatamieventalkingaboutomfg
“ I do know I’m very strong, and I have a lot of positive things and things to be happy about — but I’m not vain about them. I am who I am, and no better than anybody else. “
About a three to a five! I have lots of self confidence issues, but I’m growing to know I’m a really fab person, and be so confident in myself. Sometimes that comes to comparing myself to others, but I try not to do that. ;w;
EMERALD: What’s a food that by just the scent could revitalize your energy?
“ There was a perfume that I smelled one time a while back — it reminded me of a certain scent, one that I had encountered meeting Vanille in my endless dream. I don’t know what it was, or what it was called, but it was fruity. It was the kind of scent that said ‘no matter how far apart we are, we will always be together’ and I’m sure if I smelled it again, it would remind me of the hope I held in my heart to see everybody again. “
MUN CAN’T REALLY SMELL TBQH. i like the smell of certain cigarettes oops but that’s not a food —
It’s Meme Monday! Send a name or two to one of your fellow group members! This week’s theme is based on「GEMSTONES!」 Keeping in tradition of munday, these questions are for both mun and muse!
GARNET: Do you tend to constantly doubt yourself?
AMETHYST: Do you have any addictions? Are you a drinker? A smoker, perhaps?
DIAMOND: Is finding a soul mate important to you? Do you even believe in them?
PERIDOT: Do you suffer from insomnia? Are you a light or heavy sleeper?
AQUAMARINE: What makes you feel safe? Do you have any special trinkets that you use for good luck?
EMERALD: What’s a food that by just the scent could revitalize your energy?
RUBY: What is the ultimate gesture of total trust?
MOONSTONE: If you could elimiate one event from your whole life, which event would it be?
SAPPHIRE: What do you do to clear your mind of unwanted thoughts? What helps you relax?
OPAL: On a scale of 1 to 10, how vain are you?
TOPAZ: Are you somewhat of a control freak?
LAPIS LAZULI: Are you happy with the person you’ve become?
These are for Magick Point members only! Have fun!
