It's so hard to say Goodbye!
        Saying goodbye is always hard to do. The semester is over, my bags have been packed, and I’ve said goodbye to Kindergarten. It was a sad day. You would think since I was only in Kindergarten two days out of the week I wouldn’t get attached. But come on, let’s be realistic. Who can’t help but fall in love with Kindergartners. Although I have taught Pre-Kindergarten for about 2 years, I was still a bit nervous about going into Kindergarten.
             I can still remember sitting in front of my computer waiting for the email confirmation on which grade I would be in. Finally the email arrives and I eagerly open it up. I’m searching for my name through the list of my classmates and there, there it is. I found my name. I frantically start scrolling over to see what school I would be attending and what grade I had received. That’s when I see it. Kindergarten. At first I think, oh okay, no big deal. They’re so close to Pre-Kindergarten, that I got this in the bag. After a few hours, all of a sudden, reality hits me. I HAVE KINDERGARTEN. I’m going to a school that I have never been in. I don’t know the teacher. Who knows if she’ll like me? Who knows if she’ll want me there? There is so much to teach in Kindergarten than in Pre-Kindergarten. A slight panic starts to build in me. I revert back to my Children’s Literature class. I remember learning about blending. I start rummaging through my books to find Words their way by Isabella Beck. The book is about selecting words for instruction, introducing their meaning, and engaging students in learning activities that promote both word knowledge and reading comprehension. As I begin to read the book my nerves begin to calm. I felt as if I had a protective shield. Soon the day finally came. Luckily we went into the school the day before the students started. This way we got familiar with the room and our teacher.
             Well, as luck would have it, it was on my side. My collaborating teacher was amazing! She was warm and welcoming. She reassured me that although times can be tough in Kindergarten, it’ll all be well worth it in the end. I went to bed feeling anxious about meeting the students and parents the following day. As the next day arrived, I woke up feeling energized to start the day. I walked into the classroom and started greeting the students and parents as they walked in. The students put their backpacks away and found their seats. Mrs. G. started the day by introducing me, moved on to the rules of classroom, and then the calendar. The week flew by and I observed more than actually doing any teaching.
             The following week, Mrs. G suggested I do the calendar with the students. Why not, I knew the basics for the routine. It was great as weeks went by and the kids got more comfortable, when I would forget a part, they would remind me. It was a great feeling to know they knew their morning routine. The two days I did show up to school I usually did the calendar and language arts with the students. At this time I wasn’t making up my own plans. I was relying on Mrs. G with her plans. It’s an interesting feeling, now when I think about it, doing someone else’s lesson plan. It’s not natural. I would stand up there and try doing the plan she gave me, but I wouldn’t catch their attention in the same manner she would when she would do the lesson. Or even when I would do my own lesson. Part of this could be due to the blood, sweat, and tears teachers put into their lessons. It may sound a bit dramatic, but sometimes when I make a lesson it’s the way I feel.
             When it was my time to make a lesson plan, I had my lesson template out, and I was ready to go. I didn’t think it would be too difficult to input ideas into this lesson plan. I mean come on, it’s a template just add what you need. I quickly learned this was not the case. I had to differentiate between the students. As I read the boxes in the lesson plan template, I simply stared at the screen with a blank expression. My blank expression slowly turned to anxiety. That’s when it hit me. I don’t know how to differentiate between my students! What does it even mean and how could I possible manage to teach a lesson where I would need to change parts of it for every student. It wasn’t until a few weeks later my fears were put to rest. Thank goodness my professor took the time to teach us how to differentiate in the classroom. It wasn’t a daunting task like I thought. In fact, all you need to do for some of the lessons, is change a few words here and there, and you would have different options for differentiated lessons.
             That was my saving grace on that part. As I began to write my second lesson plan I found it easier to implement differentiated instruction for the class. I had set my Science lesson plan where the students would be sorting by color and shape. I made a cube for those students who finished quickly with sorting, and for my students who needed some higher thinking activities for sorting. They would roll the cube and then do the activity stated on the cube. For my struggling students I gave them the option of sorting either just by shape or just by color. This is when I realized, well, I have these different activities for the students, and I have students who have different abilities and who vary at different levels. I need to be able to give proper feedback at the student’s level.
I’ve always wanted to be one to help those students or student who feels as if they can’t accomplish a task. It’s just about finding the right words to make sure you don’t discourage them from their work. It wasn’t until I read a chapter on Adjusting Feedback for Different Types of Learners by Brookhart, that I got some ideas. She touches on how to give feedback to those students who may be struggling. She points out, to help those students struggling is to not focus on the negative part, or what they aren’t doing, but rather to focus on the positive part, what they are doing. I felt by helping the student see they have reached certain goals can hopefully help them see they can reach many other goals. I did have one student who always found it hard to stay on task. However, when she would be doing the task at hand or would complete a task I would make it a point to praise how well she was doing. She would smile at me, start kicking her legs under the table, and continue working hard. This method seemed to work with her.
             So what have I learned this semester after being in Kindergarten? Teaching can be tough, but it’s a matter of being prepared, WELL PREPARED, and not allowing any short comings to slow me down. I know my lessons won’t always be perfect, I won’t always have their attention, and dealing with tough students can be, well, tough. However, those are the students who should be the ones that wake you up in the morning. They should be the ones you want to see the change in, and not to feel defeated by them. What have I learned? That there is so much I have learned throughout my classes with planning, writing, children’s literature, math, science, and social studies. But there is always room for me to grow. It’s just a matter of not being afraid of that growth.
             As I said goodbye to my Kindergartners, I asked them, what was their favorite part of me being with them in class? To my surprise, so many of them remembered the various lessons I did in math, science, or reading. It warmed my heart to know that although I am still learning to be a teacher, they were able to learn from me. It wasn’t until one of my students hugged me and began to cry telling me how much he was going to miss me. A pain jerked in my heart, and I felt so sad leaving them. It was such a sad goodbye, but I promised them I would visit.
             As I look back, I know what areas I need to work on. I also know that I need to look ahead. So, I begin to look forward to my next journey. My internship will be in a fourth grade Language Arts class. I can’t imagine me in fourth grade, but I look forward to conquering my fear of the older grades. Till next year. Where I continue to grow, and learn on my journey as a teacher!