"Yeah I'd probably get ripped to shreds by the dogs idk, I don't think I'd know to run in the beginning and probably couldn't target the head in time so really I'd probably die brutally right then and there, but if I actually managed to get into the dungeon maybe something with the crow mauler? idk it's generic but yeah"
"Mm... Personally I believe I'd managed to sneak by until accidentally being parasitized by the flower... :) If I was lucky maybe I would commune with Rher..."
"Freak... But also I guess that's somehow possible for me too if you squint at it.. I'd want to be doing necromancy in the dungeon and that means touching dead bodies"
"Maybe you would die by a corpse strangling you... Who was only pretending to be dead... :)"
"Nah I'm too good. They'd fail my coin attack"
I take back Kura using the law of might - he is fundamentally opposed unless he's in a situation like KHON (much like Kageaki!) however; I do think, somehow, ironically, Mylah fits the law of might more. which is insane
She makes no distinction from friend or foe so the law of balance doesn't take hold. I really need to play around with a setting like this because that could be so much fun
However I do find Mylah.. hard to rationalize being in a situation that would demand the law of might, she's incredibly passive and a general helping force. Which can be bad depending on who she's helping
(and also she wouldn't be a perfect law of might character, if she killed her mom and dad she'd probably be forced to kill Charlie and Beedrill)
Maybe I need more characters who get fucked up with it... Valkeh is kind of a Chachamaru if you squint at it. Maybe I make Valkeh more Chachamaru
Airis wouldn't be constrained to any particular law other than the want to survive, which could make her really interesting in a setting like this as someone who you have to strike down, and Azriel(CORRUPTIONS) (the clone baby not Tempest's kid) (don't worry about it) could theoretically be a vessel for the law of might, but again a matter of vengeance, he has the world which has wronged him - then again he could act like Hikaru and get someone else to kill his -
actually he does this, he forces Windin to murder him, so I guess that solves that
I take back Kura using the law of might - he is fundamentally opposed unless he's in a situation like KHON (much like Kageaki!) however; I do think, somehow, ironically, Mylah fits the law of might more. which is insane
She makes no distinction from friend or foe so the law of balance doesn't take hold. I really need to play around with a setting like this because that could be so much fun
However I do find Mylah.. hard to rationalize being in a situation that would demand the law of might, she's incredibly passive and a general helping force. Which can be bad depending on who she's helping
(and also she wouldn't be a perfect law of might character, if she killed her mom and dad she'd probably be forced to kill Charlie and Beedrill)
Maybe I need more characters who get fucked up with it... Valkeh is kind of a Chachamaru if you squint at it. Maybe I make Valkeh more Chachamaru
Airis wouldn't be constrained to any particular law other than the want to survive, which could make her really interesting in a setting like this as someone who you have to strike down, and Azriel(CORRUPTIONS) (the clone baby not Tempest's kid) (don't worry about it) could theoretically be a vessel for the law of might, but again a matter of vengeance, he has the world which has wronged him - then again he could act like Hikaru and get someone else to kill his -
actually he does this, he forces Windin to murder him, so I guess that solves that
I still contemplate going back to my draft and making Shoka the daughter of an oni and a synchronizer, especially for how horrifying it would be for her story - however I do think it's thematically elevated by the fact this technically wasn't necessary (not that oni and synchronizer relationships are either but I feel having more paper thin excuses can be effective) and also I fear it'd be treading on stuff Tsukihime already said with very little to add
Maybe if I come up with something better I'll revisit it but for now I'm quite content with her current story (it is also admittedly easier to translate to other aus lol)
I still contemplate going back to my draft and making Shoka the daughter of an oni and a synchronizer, especially for how horrifying it would be for her story - however I do think it's thematically elevated by the fact this technically wasn't necessary (not that oni and synchronizer relationships are either but I feel having more paper thin excuses can be effective) and also I fear it'd be treading on stuff Tsukihime already said with very little to add
Maybe if I come up with something better I'll revisit it but for now I'm quite content with her current story (it is also admittedly easier to translate to other aus lol)
Something "being in your nature" is bullshit and you know it. You KNOW all of this is wrong. You actively don't fight any of this, you let it pass over you. Just don't think about it, right? You're nothing but a monster, and it'll all go away when you finally die? Fate predetermined; this is your destiny? You can't change, this is how it is?
You don't deserve the peace that comes with death. You know that. Face your guilt with some fucking dignity, Kura. Live with it.
Pick yourself up by your bootstraps and for once in your fucking life, be kind. People are multifaceted beings. You care about people and you're terrified of that wall of aloof isolation crumbling, because that means you'll have to *really* confront everything.
Take initiative. Prove yourself wrong. You're a fucking murderer and you can never take that back, but you can at LEAST do something with your life. Drag your sorry carcass out of your stupor and DO SOMETHING good.
Knowing you though, you'll read this and delete it. Won't respond because you're scared and angry. I want you to prove me wrong and come face the music. You pathetic, sniveling coward.
I Am Tired Of Reiterating Myself.
For Your Information I Rarely Delete Asks Unless They Are Truly Worthless. Deleting Something Has No Value To Me Other Than Removing Opportunities. Is That Understood?
Nor Does "Fate" Or "Destiny" Have To Do With This Idiotic Filth. Higher Beings Can Have Their Plans And Create Scenarios Accordingly, But They Can Always Be Fought Against, And I Adamantly Refuse Such Notion.
However That Doesn't Mean There Aren't Things People, Concepts, Pokemon, What Have You, Aren't Born With. If You Clipped The Wings Off A Wingull, Can That Be Considered A Life? Are They No Longer A Flying Type?
Make No Mistake, This Was My Choice. Even If I Was Born Evil Or Whatever Drivel I Write, Or Try To Explain, I Could Have Chosen To Die Before I Decided To Get Worse.
You Have Sorely Mistaken This World If You Think Life Is A Punishment And Dying Is A Reward.
Life Isn't Some Punishment Unless You Have Become Devoid Of All Purpose, Like Beedrill. It Is A Blessing, And The Act Of Dying, The Total Removal Of Any And All Control Someone Could Have Is One Of The Most Heinous Things You Can Undergo.
That's Why What I Have Done Is So Heinous And Unforgivable.
Have I Explained Myself Enough Thoroughly? Does It Need To Be Reiterated That I Don't Feel Remorse, Or That I Chose To Do Everything I've Done Deliberately? There Shouldn't Be Sympathy For People Like That.
But That's Things You Have All Seen And Read Before, Isn't It?
So, Allow Me To Reframe It.
This Isn't In My Nature At All And Is Instead The Product Of A Malformed Will.
What Exactly Does That Change? I Never Gave People Like Me That Courtesy, Why Should It Be Extended To Me? Because I'm Oh So Pitiful?
Life Is A Gift I Have Robbed Many Of. Likewise It Isn't Something I Deserve Either, I've Known This For A Long Time.
Furthermore Even If I Were To Somehow Embrace The Goodness Of It All, How? The Things That Have Bothered To Show Me Kindness Get Hurt Because Of My Personality. There Isn't Anyone I Truly Care For Because Of My Selfishness And Cruelty.
That Isn't A World I Can Cross Into, Nor Should I. That Mistake Left People Even More Hurt And It's Why Paris Is As Messed Up As He Currently Is.
Perhaps I Am A Coward, Perhaps The World Is All To Unknowable To Understand, Perhaps I've Lost Any And All Understanding Of The World While Trying To Put Together A Puzzle From It's Scraps!
Do Something Good With My Discarded Life Is It? I've Tried. The Best Thing I Can Do Is Removing Myself Entirely! I've Tried! Paris Doesn't Let Me. Cocytus Comes Back. Beedrill Asks Why I Haven't Killed Yet. Mylah Asks If We're Still Friends. Various People Keep Treating Me As A Friend. Gwen And The Moon Keep Watching. Missing Posters Are Put Up.
Yes! I Am A Coward. We Both Know I'm Incapable Of Doing Something Truly Good. So Why Don't You Let Me At Least Attempt Something And Disappear Forever? I'll Rot Away Where No One Has To See Or Care!
But That Isn't Possible Either. No One Permits Those Actions. Because You All Believe Life Is Some Fucked Up Form Of Punishment When It Isn't.
I Don't Know Why You Keep Trying When You Know There Isn't Any Reason To. Nothing Will Change As You've Already Extrapolated.
Maybe Focus On Someone Else, There's Others More Worth Your Time And Willpower, Others That Could Tangibly Change. If My Predictions Are Correct, This Mess Will Correct Itself.
If I Am Using Death As Some Form Of An Escape I Can At Least Assure You There Won't Be Much There. An Empty Dull Void With Nothing In Particular.
I Don't Know. Understand This However You Like. I'm Tired Of Arguing. I Don't Know Why I Am Truly, It's Never Going To Amount To Anything Meaningful. HahHah
All I Ask Is Not To Be Pitied.
I am tired of reiterating myself.
For your information I rarely delete asks unless they are truly worthless. Deleting something has no value to me other than removing opportunities. Is that understood?
Nor does "fate" or "destiny" have to do with this idiotic filth. Higher beings can have their plans and create scenarios accordingly, but they can always be fought against, and I adamantly refuse such notion.
However that doesn't mean there aren't things people, concepts, pokemon, what have you, aren't born with. If you clipped the wings off a wingull, can that be considered a life? Are they no longer a flying type?
Make no mistake, this was my choice. even if I was born evil or whatever drivel i write, or try to explain, I could have chosen to die before i decided to get worse.
You have sorely mistaken this world if you think life is a punishment and dying is a reward.
Life isn't some punishment unless you have become devoid of all purpose, like Beedrill. it is a blessing, and the act of dying, the total removal of any and all control someone could have is one of the most heinous things you can undergo.
That's why what I have done is so heinous and unforgivable.
Have I explained myself enough thoroughly? Does it need to be reiterated that I don't feel remorse, or that I chose to do everything I've done deliberately? There shouldn't be sympathy for people like that.
But that's things you have all seen and read before, isn't it?
So, allow me to reframe it.
This isn't in my nature at all and is instead the product of a malformed will.
What exactly does that change? I never gave people like me that courtesy, why should it be extended to me? because I'm oh so pitiful?
Life is a gift i have robbed many of. likewise it isn't something I deserve either, I've known this for a long time.
Furthermore even if I were to somehow embrace the goodness of it all, how? The things that have bothered to show me kindness get hurt because of my personality. There isn't anyone I truly care for because of my selfishness and cruelty.
That isn't a world I can cross into, nor should I. that mistake left people even more hurt and it's why Paris is as messed up as he currently is.
Perhaps I am a coward, perhaps the world is all to unknowable to understand, perhaps I've lost any and all understanding of the world while trying to put together a puzzle from it's scraps!
Do something good with my discarded life is it? I've tried. The best thing I can do is removing myself entirely! I've tried! Paris doesn't let me. Cocytus comes back. Beedrill asks why I haven't killed yet. Mylah asks if we're still friends. Various people keep treating me as a friend. Gwen and the Moon keep watching. Missing posters are put up.
Yes! I am a coward. We both know I'm incapable of doing something truly good. So why don't you let me at least attempt something and disappear forever? I'll rot away where no one has to see or care!
But that isn't possible either. No one permits those actions. Because you all believe life is some fucked up form of punishment when it isn't.
I don't know why you keep trying when you know there isn't any reason to. Nothing will change as you've already extrapolated.
Maybe focus on someone else, there's others more worth your time and willpower, others that could tangibly change. If my predictions are correct, this mess will correct itself.
If I am using death as some form of an escape I can at least assure you there won't be much there. An empty dull void with nothing in particular.
I don't know. Understand this however you like. I'm tired of arguing. I don't know why I am truly, it's never going to amount to anything meaningful.
Hahhah all i ask is not to be pitied.
okay not to ocpost again but the worst thing about having an oc is sometimes they become The Character to you. and you need to talk to someone about it like wow I can’t stop thinking about The Character… but in order to do so you have to like sit them down and explain everything about your oc first. and then it’s just you explaining your writing ideas. i need to talk about them the same way i would talk about any random character i love to someone.
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