Adventures Of Tin J

High Acceptance Low Expectation Anything under the sun. Someone in love with the world and cosmos Tin

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0031 - 2020

Maybe there are just a few people reading blog posts... Since everyone is into vlogging. 3 years of not writing or sharing my thoughts in here. HAHA! I bet I was just busy making my life work and working on valuable things. 

Three years. A lot has happened. Positive changes. 

2020 - the world is craaaazy! This year changed everything and it all started with corona virus. By this month, August, everyone knows the virus’ name and people are working on a vaccine for this. 

2020 is the year that taught me to look at everything in a deeper level. THIS YEAR WOKE ME UP! The concepts that I knew for a long time, now has a deeper meaning. For example, I believe that everything happens for a reason. I may not know what the purpose is right away, but I know it has a reason that will be known sooner or later. That’s how I function. Now, the realisations I get gives a different feeling. Its like a light bulb moment accompanied with a strong and happy feeling. I haven’t felt that before. Haha. Usually, it would be just be like, “Oh, okay! Got it!” Now, its totally different. I am glad that this happened to  me; I just didn’t expect to experience it. 

There are circumstances that led me to this “spiritual awakening”. I was just concerned with the patterns in my life and I wanted to heal myself from it. I wanted to learn how to protect my own energy. One thing led to another and I didn’t even know what “spiritual awakening” is, until I was experiencing it. Haha!

A friend of mine who is helping me with all of this suggested that I take his class/session about spirituality. Since there is a 5 hour difference and it was done online, my mind wasn’t totally “awake” yet, but I remember wanting to take a nap after it. The nap turned into a 5 hour sleep. It took a lot of energy from me. I remember he gave names and I did some research after waking up. 

Yoww!! Some concepts were just too much that I had to stop. Terms were all new and I had to stop. I stumbled upon a post from Gabby Bernstein that spoke about spiritual guides. That’s where I stopped. Why? Because I tend to see the negative ones. I don’t want that before sleeping. 

Something interesting happened... I heard a sound from my left ear. It sounded like morse code and if I try to write what I am hearing, it would look like morse code. Fear kicked in and I just wanted the noise to go away. Turned to my right side, I didn’t hear it; turned to my left side, it was still there. I had to calm my mind to be able to sleep. Upon waking up, it was still there and sometimes it went away. When I started my day, it totally went away. 

I told my friend about it and he said that they are trying to communicate. All of this are sooooo new. Did some more research... Meditation, awakening, intuition, being conscious... Same week, I also had a life reading session. In general, it was ALL GOOD! :) Great things are up ahead. Question were also answered. The advice given to me was: DAILY MEDITATION. 

I’ve meditated during yoga classes and the 21 day meditation of Deepak Chopra. Both are relaxing and grounding. HOWEVER, the meditation I’ve done after the life reading is interesting. I started to feel different and seeing different things during meditation. 

Again, I did not expect any of this but I am open to what I am receiving and learning.  

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0030

Oh wow! It’s been a year since my last post! HAHAHA! Well, that year was crazy! Too much has happened within a year.

I was busy with teaching and other stuff. Yes. New path, but still in teaching. Geez. Lots of curve balls. But we are still here. Living. 

This will be just a quick one. Ill at the moment. 

Be safe. 

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0029 - 6 months and counting

Five months of training was no joke and fun at the same time. I am glad this opportunity came my way. 

June arrives and it is time to put my learning into action. So many learning and observations were done in this first two weeks of school. I love each and everyone of them. I am happy with them. I love my job! Hoping for a fun, memorable, and loving school year!

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028 - Finally

Finally it has happened to me. I hope you didn’t sing that one :) LOL.

I had an unexpected call last week. I was even afraid that my JAN 2016 goal might not manifest, BUT I WAS WRONG. I was the one who answered the phone call on a normal day. Preparing for work and doing my usual routine.

When I heard her introduction, my heart started to pound quite fast. Then, the message was finally delivered. ANSWERED PRAYER. I couldn’t believe it right away. I was even talking to myself asking if its really mine for the taking. I know I am more than ready for the job. I am more certain now that I can do it.

I was really ecstatic when I knew it. So that’s how it feels when my prayer is answered. When the universe makes it happen. I was giddy inside and I couldn’t stop talking to myself about it. I knew that I had a great smile that day. I will never forget how it made me feel. What a feeling.

This great news made me sacrifice other things too. I am currently handling tutorials in a school and that’s my source of income. The first part of the employment is training and it is not paid. I am aware of that. Others may complain, but that’s how it works. I sacrificed my tutorial job for something bigger than myself. Yes, indeed. I’ve totally going for this and do whatever it takes to learn and be great in my chosen field. I’ve waited a long time for this and now my journey has begun.

Professional goal - ACHIEVED!

I am trusting and worthy.

Here’s to a new beginning!

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027 - The morning ...

Free floating thoughts. Its what they are. However, I woke up to the song FEATHERSTONE by The Paper Kites.

“Wake up to the sound of your fleeting heart.“ I don’t know how to describe the feeling that I get when I hear it... Haha. Please just feel it for yourself and tell me your thoughts about it. I’ve already provided the lyrics and a full album of The Paper Kites.

I am happy with the love that I receive from people. HAHA! It may sound odd for you. But yes, LOVE. Something that I am really grateful for. Sometimes, I think what it is that I’m doing or giving to those people for them to give me love. I am now being open and accepting different manifestations of love.  So yea...

Whoever is reading this, I hope you are doing just fine. I hope you understood what I wrote about. I tend to just jump from one topic to the other. I bet you can sense that. I hope you are feeling all the love from your surrounding and that regardless of your disposition you still see the good things around you. I hope that you are also being grateful for everything. :)

And for that guy, I hope you are doing well. Have the best time of your life and tell me your adventures when we meet. :) Enjoy where you are. So that when we meet, we’ll have adventures together and teach each other new things! Sounds good! :) Wooot! Woot! Stay awesome.. Whoever you are and wherever you are :) Sending you my love.

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026 - Wedding bells

AHHHHHH! Yes, wedding bells. Ladies my age and who are in a relationship look forward to this. YES, they really do. Ladies who are ages 24-28. Yeah, I think they do. Mhmm...

As for me, nope. First of all, I am not in a relationship and I’m doing my best to focus on my career and what I am passionate about. They always say to work on yourself if you aren’t in a relationship. I suppose that’s what I’m doing. Improving myself and inspiring people in my own way. HELL YES!

Anyway, I can’t hear my own wedding bells yet. You know what I hear... The waves that reach the shore, the wind, birds chirping, and the sound of nature. Also the sound that the moon and stars produce when I stare at them, as the clouds slowly move. Ohhh my.... Do you hear it too? And children laughing, asking me silly questions. Questions that would make me think and also find a way to answer them. In short, traveling and teaching. YES. That’s what I hear and see in the next two to three years. I’m excited! :”>

Last 2015 4 people in my family got engaged. 3 cousins and my little sister! Hooray! I am indeed happy for them. Who wouldn’t be right? My Mom was a bit worried though. I remember her asking me if I’m okay. Because my cousins and sister got engaged. I just answered, Yes. I am good. No need to worry. Its not yet for me. Hehehe.

2016... New  beginnings... New chapter is unfolding and I know I can still do my part for this year to be memorable and amazing. I don’t want to waste my opportunity. I am willing to miss out on other things in exchange for the things that I really want to happen this year. I am open to whatever the universe has in store for me. Surrendering and committing to the things I have declared for January to April 2016! Let’s do this! Saying YES to LOVE, giving LOVE, and receiving LOVE. Its all about LOVE. Trust me on this. ;) I wish all of you well. :)

I Commit to be Trusting and Worthy!

Looooove,

Tin <3

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025 - Sayang

Yes, the title speaks for this entry.

Kahapon ang unang araw ng huling linggo for COMELEC Registration. Ako ay residente ng Cainta Rizal. 10:00am nakapila na ako. Hindi ko akalain na ganoon kadami ang tao. Noong una, akala ko maikli lang. Pero, ako ay nagka-mali, KAY HABA NG PILA! Pasado ala-una ng hapon ng marating ko ang kalahati ng pila. Ang saya! Akala ko saglit nalang ang ipipila ko at makakauwi na rin ako. Ngunit, ako’y bigo nanaman. Kinulang ang dala kong tubig at pagkain. Kung alam ko lang na mahaba ang pila, sana nagdala nalang ako ng sarili kong upuan. Sadyang matindi at nakakapagod ang proseso kahapon. Pasalamat nalang at may mga nagbebenta ng tubig at pagkain, kung wala, malamang, umuwi nalang ako at hindi tinapos ang reactivation.

Alas-kwatro ng hapon nang ako ay makapasok ng multipurpose hall at inumpisahan ang STEP ONE. OO, tama ka ng basa. STEP ONE! Anak ng tinapa! Anim na oras ang ipinila ko para maumpisahan ang step one. Anong klaseng sistema yan? Nagulat pa ata si Comelec personnel nang sambitin ko ang mga salitang, “Kuya, for reactivation lang po ako.” Kuya, nag-research na kasi ako sa kung ano ang gagawin ko ngayon. DALAWANG TAO lamang ang nakalaan para sa STEP ONE at ilang daang tao ang nakapila kahapon. Napaka-bagal ng proseso. Hindi sapat na dalawa lang ang tao para sa verification.

STEP TWO, fill out ng forms. STEP THREE, logging ng forms, at ang huli BIOMETRICS! Tatlong tao ang naka-laan sa step three. ISANG TAGAKUHA NG FORMS, DALAWANG TAGA-LOG sa notebook. Umandar nanaman ang utak ko. Nakakapang-init ng ulo ang labis na kabagalan ng proseso. Parang hindi nila pinag-handaan ang dami ng tao. Samantalang alam nama nila na ito na ang huling linggo para magpa-rehistro. Sana man lang, naisip nilang magdagdag ng tao para mas mabilis ang trabaho nilang lahat at mabilis maubos ang tao sa pila. PERO, HINDI NILA NAISIP YUN.

Dalawang oras para matapos ang STEP 1 TO 4. Anim na oras sa pila. SAYANG! SAYANG ANG anim na oras ko. Imbis na nakagawa pa ako ng ibang bahay, kinain ng pila sa comelec ang oras ko.

Isa lang naman ang hiling ko sakanila, sa susunod na magkakaroon ng registration, sana DAMIHAN NILA YUNG TAO sa HULING LINGGO ng registration. At gawan nila ng mas maayos na sistema.

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024

Even if I wish for the time to stand still, I cannot. I have no control over it.

I only know that it exists. Time is always on the go. Time waits for no one. Time can also be your friend and worst enemy.

Time can change everything you know. Time can change you positively or negatively. Time is very powerful.

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023

God gives you the people you need and not the people you want, MOST OF THE TIME. It is either they will be helping you or you will be helping them. Bottom line, they have a role in that specific time. Sometimes, you find yourself saying yes to a certain situation and you really don’t know why. Perhaps you thought that you have nothing to lose and more to gain.

Then, my thoughts suddenly changed. WTF. Happens every time. Hay.

Excited about this phase. I know I will be able to make it work. Trust!

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022 - Samu’t saring

Tama. Hindi lang isa, sapagkat sila ay naglalaro sa aking isipin. Hindi ako gumagawa ng tula, gusto ko lamang isulat ang aking saloobin at opinyon tungkol sa mga bagay-bagay.

Dalawang buwan na rin ang naka-lipas noong ako’y bumalik ng bansa. Madami-dami na rin ang nangyari sa akin. Mga problema at masasayang bagay. Mga bagay na nakatulong sa aking pag-unawa tungkol sa mga bagay na nakapaligid sa akin.

Ang dami kong gustong isulat. Ang dami kong gustong ilabas. Ang daming gustong kumawala sa aking isipan. Sadyang madami talaga. Marahil, isusulat ko nalang muna ang aking reaksyon tungkol sa pelikulang Heneral Luna.

Heneral Luna, mabuhay ka! Saludo ako sa katapangan at pagmamahal na iyong ipinakita sa ating bayan. Gagawin ang lahat makita lang siyang malaya mula sa mga taong gustong sumakop sakanya. Kung naintindihan lang ng mga matataas na opsiyal ang pinanggagalingan ni Heneral Luna, marahil hindi ganito ang bansang ating nakagisnan. Malakas ang pakiramdam ko na sarili tayong paninidigan. Mahal ang sariling kultura at bayan, pero hindi. Nakakalungkot. Habang nasa sinehan ako isa lang ang naisip ko. Ang pag-traydor at pag-patay sakanya ay nangyaring muli sakanya. Hindi lingid sa ating kaalaman na binalak iklian ang pagpapalabas ng pelikula sa mga sinehan.

Nakakalungkot naman talaga. Tinrato ang pelikula na tila walang saysay at kwenta. Nakakapang init ng dugo. Mabalik naman tayo sa aking reaksyon tungkol sa pelikulang ito. Kung ano man ang nangyari noong si Heneral Luna ay nabubuhay at nakikipag-digmaan, iyon pa rin ang kasalukuyang nangyayari sa ating bansa.

Nakakadismaya, dahil tila walang nangyari. Inuuna pa rin ang sarili bago ang bayan. Lalo na ang mga opisyal na naka-upo. Walang paki-alam sa taong bayan. Lahat mapanglinlang. Lahat sinasabi na gusto nilang tumulong sa mga mahihirap, pero ang totoo, gusto lang nilang yumaman.

Sana dumating pa rin ang panahon na hindi na naghihirap ang bansa. Na lahat ay nabubuhay ng matiwasay. Na ang lahat ay may maginhawang buhay. Ngunit, mukhang imposible hanggat nandiyan sila. Ang mga taong gahaman.

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021

Sagittarius — there is such wanderlust in you – you’ve made a home out of the long, long roads, walked the earth to its’ ends and bathed in the oceans of the horizon; the sky was your sole companion, its’ stars your map, the wind a spellsong to ward off the passing sadness and melancholia that threatened to dim the flame of your heart. oh, my child; how very wonderful you are, a barefoot nomad forever in awe of the world. the feeble minded call you rootless; how wrong they are. having a voyager heart does not make you afraid of commitment. it simply means your roots lie elsewhere, splat across the world. (do not let their malice plant doubts into your mind’s garden; your gypsy heart is worth more than all their empty ones combined. keep daring the world, sate your thirst for journeying; only exploration can ever lead to discovery, so let your feet and head both walk the world.)

- “you’ve done well, L. Schreiber

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020

I’ve written my feelings out. But why do I still feel like this after all?

I tell myself not to be affected and yet I feel affected. UGH.

I miss your presence. Yes, we had two days. Just fucking two days.

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME?

I don’t get into relationships that quickly but I get easily affected by people whom I felt a connection with. Maybe it was just I who felt it. A BIG POSSIBILITY.

Are you just like the rest of them? The kind that just disappears. I don’t know. I have no clue. UGH! I hate myself for feeling like this.

Sometimes I wish that I didn’t meet you at all. I wish I can take them back but I can’t.

Enough. Please.

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019

Yes! That’s it. Moving on. I’m not waiting.

I did everything that I can but all you gave were excuses. I believe I’ve heard enough. So yeah, I’m good.

Though, you could've been honest with me. Well, not anyone is honest anyway. I wish you well.

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018

Its crashing!!! Dang. Okaaay. Breathe in and out. Maybe that's how its supposed to be. But yeah, I'm hurt. :(( </3 huhuhu i feel like crying but there's no point.

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017 - Risk

Go and take it. Do you have anything to lose after all? I guess not but you have a lot to gain.

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016

Stillness of the night. As the moon shines and the stars above glisten, I thought of you. Bonne nuit, Monsieur.