ME

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[tiny-asian-in-a-tiara]

I'VE JUST REALIZED THAT MY TUMBLR PROFILE SAYS I'M 16 AND I'M 20 NOW Y'ALL I-

[icaseybaybee]

[tiny-asian-in-a-tiara]

how do you unlove somebody

you've shared your life you've connected your hearts so how do you unlove somebody who's built a home in your heart?

to be seen is to be loved and you took the time to look at me, like really look at me, even when i tried to hide and shy away and only let you see my good parts. you peeled back each of my guard petals, letting them fall away as i felt safe enough to bloom into your bright heart, planting roots to hoping for forever.

i see you around every corner, in habits that i didn't have before you. i have reminders of you around and sometimes, just sometimes, i live like i never met you, and when i think i'm free, a gust of you comes my way and my memories flood back and i wonder what if...

every street brings back a memory, my favourite places i brought you to became our favourite places, the gifts you bought that i can't part with, the notes i wrote for you and you for me, the hobbies and activities, the pictures and the memories, the music and the places...

you knew about a part of me that no one else did...now without you here i'm always lonely, looking for someone to talk to about everything. you weren't only the one i loved most, but my best friend who supported and encouraged me. how can i part with someone who believed in me, when i felt like it was the first time i had someone on my side who had no doubt that i could achieve any and every silly improbable dream?

where do i go from here? i don't want to forget you, and i feel like i've moved on as much as i can. i mourn our time together and wish things ended differently but know not to push for you since you're following the path you always talked about, you're happy living the life you've always wanted...i just always hoped that it included me. it's over and i've accepted that but i can't unlove you and i don't think i want to. what i want? a way to move forward. to hold my love for you and all the others close as a thank you for making me into who i am today, but being able to move forward and love again, love someone who will love me in all the right ways, ones i learned from you and new ones too, and maybe this time, i'll be in their life goals as well.

[tiny-asian-in-a-tiara]

everything rambles

i feel so deeply and love so deeply that it's hard to move on from anyone...no one quite understands how much i love others and seem to brush it off..."time will pass and you'll forget them"...but i never do...they're written in my heart and will always be a part of me...i don't hate them and because i don't they'll always have a place in my heart because they were once part of me...they've shaped me into who i am and i thank them for that...

how do you know you've moved on when you love so deeply ?? my love has changed and i understand that things didn't work out for a reason but this loneliness and emptiness that i sit in, where i'm missing my person...

even with just normal friends...i open up, i try to give them parts of me, i try to get involved in their lives... but it never feels like enough... i'm always stuck wanting more which feels selfish but all those friendships, relationships that i've dreamt so hard for, that i've tried really hard to work at... just doesn't feel reciprocated

i am the most grounded i've ever been in my life, yet floating far far away; i don't feel like myself and i'm lost and trying to figure out what i want, who i want to be, and where i want to go...

how do you love and continue to love and keep hope and faith when it's not returned... try as hard as i may it doesn't feel like that same energy is returned but maybe one day... for now i keep trying

[dreamgirlvibes]

[remanence-of-love]

[nothingspecialjustasoul]

Suddenly I don't want anyone to know me as deeply anymore, which is weird because I have always yearned for someone to understand my soul

[remanence-of-love]

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[tiny-asian-in-a-tiara]

mark 🥹 be free and fly high 💚 thank you for your youth and i hope you get to finally live yours the way you want 💛 as much as i wanted to see you perform in person in any dream or 127 i prefer you happy and healthy and i hope this decision fills you in ways that staying in the spotlight can't 🩵

[tiny-asian-in-a-tiara]

i REALLY need to start asking everyone to take pretty pictures of me cause why is it that everytime i need to submit a new picture of myself ask i have are memes and silly photos or cute pictures but with other people 😭 can't be using those as my intro posts on instagram not in a sea of semi pro looking pics

[and-fishing-equipment]

in 2026 DO NOT ask yourself whether your art is GOOD

instead ask:

is it SINCERE

was it CATHARTIC

was it FUN TO MAKE

is it MADE BY ME

and don't forget to stay silly

[tiny-asian-in-a-tiara]

one man has caused me to lose my marbles and baby just when i thought i've finally picked up most of them see

[tiny-asian-in-a-tiara]

saw my crush from when i was 15 and i've been sent into a spiral

[ingydars]

2023

FIND COMFORT IN THE NIGHT SKY

RUN AND DANCE AND DO IT OFTEN

SUFFERING IS A SMALL PRICE TO PAY FOR DESIRE

HAPINESS IS INTERESTING

SANCTUARIES = NATURE + MUSIC + THE BODY

TRY AND FAIL AND FAIL AND FAIL AND LEARN

WRITE EVERY DAY

CONNECT TO URSELF THROUGH WARM MEALS

REGRESSION IS NEEDED TO BUILD NEW RITUALS

REMEMBER THE TREES PERSIST DESPITE EVERYTHING

[free-my-mindd]

As long as you know your intentions are pure, never stress yourself about anything or anyone. You have to trust that you will always end up being where you’re meant to be and that it’s never your loss respectfully.